I just felt like blogging because today was a good day and none of my friends in real life will listen to how great it was. Gladly I have you guys. You are much more loyal than my friends outside of Mizahar. It is occuring to me that I should prolly go to bed but I really want to blog. Stinkin' blog... Well anyways, you know how sometimes you daydream about things amazing that you want happening but deep down inside know it is never gonna happen? I am a prime culprit of that but today my daydreams came true. Chris asked me to homecoming. I know it is silly but I am very excited. Sadly none of my friends wanted to share in my excitment. One of my best friends would barely even talk to me today because he decided that reading Life of Pi, a book he doesn't even like, was more important than talking to me when I really wanted to talk to someone. I'm not asking for everyone's attention all the time. In fact I would never want that. I just wish that at times the people who I listen to talk about their problems or happiness would listen to me for once. I have no problem listening to people. I love it and I love to help others. It does get tiring to be there to talk for everyone and his brother but the moment I need to talk no one will listen. It makes me want to just stop telling people about good things that happen to me. Chris asking me to homecoming was big for me. Really big. This is the first time I have ever gotten asked to a dance in my whole life and no one could spare five minutes just to listen to me talk. Maybe I just need to stop expecting people to me like me. I just need to stay hopeful that someday someone will listen and I will get to tell them all my happy stories and even sad stories. I love my friends but I am not a wall. I can tall back and at times I want someone to hear me. I'm not asking for all the time or most of the times. Just sometimes. Well I am falling alseep so it's off to hibernation! Guten Nacht, Sarah |