I'm not young, but neither am I not-young. I'm between being young and being not-young.
I feel like I need to say this primarily because of what I am going to talk about next.
I recently came across a podcast called "No One Can Know About This" which is basically a Let's Play for all of the currently released American Final Fantasy games.
I devoured the first season in two days (that's around 6+ hours of listening), and the second the first season finished, immediately downloaded every episode of season 2 (which has 14 episodes), and also downloaded all of season 3 (which has 27 episodes).
I'm not sure why, but listening to this podcast was refreshing. I felt like I had access to my childhood again, that years and years of being away from home, even being away from my home country, and listening to two guys grumble about grinding monsters in a forest, suddenly I felt like I was home again.
Of course, the feeling goes away as soon as you remove your earphones, but for that precious hour I forget whatever else is around me and remember when times were more innocent. When the only things I worried about was what game was coming out next, whether I remembered to pick up the toy I left when I climbed that tree in the front yard, or if I had cleaned my room yet.
It's a fantasy, of course. Which is why I think - after listening to 6 hours of the first season - I felt so incredibly drained and just wanted to shut my eyes and take a nap.
It's a very odd feeling. That rush of freedom, of access, like a spring wind is moving through your bones, and then suddenly the realization that gravity is actually a thing and it's happening right now.