Feeling Dragged Down I'm trying to save someone from drowning, they're conscious too but they won't respond, they won't kick their legs, they won't thrash their arms. They just lay there and I'm drowning too. They sit down on the bicycle and I've explained how to turn the wheels by pumping the pedals. But they sit still and won't move their feet, they won't exert the energy required to veer down the road, they won't even try. They sit in a slump and cry about how they can't and how they're not good enough; watching them makes me question whether I can ride a bicycle myself. Sometimes all your efforts to change somebody are completely out of your control. They slip through your fingers, do things you don't want them to do, and lie to your face. How do you stop from degenerating in the shadow of someone who is hurting themselves? How do you turn the other cheek when you're a witness to their self hate? How do you get them to see reason and to make important changes. When do you know they're being real and when they're being fake. How do you teach the blind man to see, the limp man to walk, the villian to love? If they don't change, how do you go on, how do you hold your head up, how do you justify your efforts so that you can come out of the rubble saying "I did my best". How do you stand under the pressure of a silent hammer beating you to a pulp. Do you run from the monster, from the nightmares and the shadows? When do you let go, when do you say enough is enough. This is how I'm doing it. Boa - Duvet And you don't seem to understand A shame you seemed an honest man And all the fears you hold so dear Will turn to whisper in your ear And you know what they say might hurt you And you know that it means so much And you don't even feel a thing I am falling I am fading I have lost it all And you don't seem the lying kind A shame that I can read your mind And all the things that I read there Candle lit smile that we both share And you know I don't mean to hurt you But you know that it means so much And you don't even feel a thing I am falling I am fading I am drowning, help me to breathe I am hurting I have lost it all I am losing, help me to breathe Cardigans - Erase/Rewind Hey, what did you hear me say you know the difference it makes what did you hear me say Yes, I said it's fine before I don't think so no more I said it's fine before I've changed my mind I take it back Erase and rewind 'cause I've been changing my mind I've changed my mind So where did you see me go it's not the right way, you know where did you see me go No, it's not that I don't know I just don't want it to grow It's not that I don't know I've changed my mind I take it back Alanis Morrisette - Not the Doctor I don't want to be the filler if the void is solely yours I don't want to be your glass of single malt whiskey Hidden in the bottom drawer I don't want to be a bandage if the wound is not mine Lend me some fresh air I don't want to be adored for what I merely represent to you I don't want to be your babysitter You're a very big boy now I don't want to be your mother I didn't carry you in my womb for nine months Show me the back door Visiting hours are 9 to 5 and if I show up at 10 past 6 Well I already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom You see it's too much to ask for and I am not the doctor I don't want to be the sweeper of the egg shells that you walk upon And I don't want to be your other half, I believe that 1 and 1 make 2 I don't want to be your food or the light from the fridge on your face At midnight, hey What are you hungry for I don't want to be the glue that holds your pieces together I don't want to be your idol See this pedestal is high and I'm afraid of heights I don't want to be lived through A vicarious occasion Please open the window Visiting hours are 9 to 5 and if I show up at 10 past 6 Well I already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom You see it's too much to ask for and I am not the doctor I don't want to live on someday when my motto is last week I don't want to be responsible for your fractured heart And it's wounded beat I don't want to be a substitute for the smoke you've been inhaling What do you thank me What do you thank me for Visiting hours are 9 to 5 and if I show up at 10 past 6 Well I already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom You see it's too much to ask for and I am not the doctor Sia - The Girl You Lost To Coccaine I've stuck around, through thick and through thin You cannot deny, I've always been in But I've watched you stand, still as a snowman But I don't see you change, you're always at meltdown Yeah I've been your crutch, your smell sight and touch Yeah I took you home when you've drunk too much But I can't survive, with you by my side See I'll never get laid, while I'm running your life No I just don't wanna, so I'm walking away There is nothing that you can do I will not stay No I don't need drama, so I'm walking away Yeah I am a girl with a lot on her plate So just cut me loose, learn to tie your shoes There's somebody here, I'd like to introduce So look in the mirror, look for the glass 'Cause you're not my problem, you are my last No I just don't wanna, so I'm walking away There is nothing that you can do I will not stay No I don't need drama, so I'm walking away Yeah I am a girl with a lot on her plate No I just don't wanna, so I'm walking away There is nothing that you can do I will not stay No I don't need drama, so I'm walking away I'm just a girl that you lost to cocaine Madonna - Fighting Spirit What you're gonna do when your love is gone Who you're gonna play when the game has ended Where you're gonna go when the bird has flown How you're gonna play when you're all alone Keep the fighting spirit of love (x2) What you're gonna do when you're on your own What you're gonna have when you've got no place to call your own What you're gonna try when your cover's blown How you're gonna fly when your wings are broken Keep the fighting spirit of love (3x) Don't let it get you down Keep the fighting spirit and turn your head around Don't let it take you in Keep the fighting spirit and you'll begin again Keep the fighting spirit of love (4x) Coldplay - Everything's Not Lost If you ever feel neglected, If you ever think all is lost, I'll be counting up my demons, yeah, Hoping everything's not lost, Everything's not lost, When I'm counting up my demons. There's always one for everyday, With the good ones on my shoulder, I drove the other ones away. If you ever feel neglected, If you think all is lost, I'll be counting up my demons, yeah, Hoping everything's not lost. When you thought it was over, You could feel it all around, Everybody's out to get you, Don't you let it drag you down. Cos if you eve feel neglected, If you think that all is lost, I'll be counting all the demons, yeah. Singing out oh yeah (3x) Everything's not lost, Come on yeah, o yeah, come on yeah, Everything's not lost |
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