You know people suck. You know this when you plan a event with them for the next day. Call them before you leave like normal and you find out that they forgot about you and went to other things like getting wasted at some bar. Which weeks beforehand they said they were no longer going to any bars.

People suck when you wait a whole month for a reply and they kept telling you that they were sorry they forgot but in the end they just post something along the lines of "meh just don't care so no longer posting."

People suck this week.

Or you know maybe it is just a lets poke at my patience for we all know I am like a bloody saint most days.

Yeah I know I have not been on Mizahar but I do keep a eye on my private messages and any threads I have marked. Yeah this is a bad month for me but then again I tend to forget some people must have something to read daily.

I wonder if I should just say no to people both on writing terms and just real life. I am tired of trying to always be there for people when in return they just like to throw me on the back burner and forget about me until they need me.

People really suck this month.

No not really well okay do run away but remember to look out for things that can trip you.

However yeah, been very busy since new years (like every year it seems) however posting will get back to normal in a week or so.

Pcs - Vick. John Vicari

Rest in peace Jack

Doubt it will really be a rant today. Far to tired and worn out even after just taking a nap. I think I am just tired of a lot of things and re found my limits.

Jack, the friend I talk about now and then in my blogs, well he hates Er's and doctors. His wife and even we have did our best to tell him he needs to go back but he just did not want to go. Well last night he asked to go back and the news is not good.

A normal sodium count is about 140, if it reaches 120 you tend to go into a lot of stokes and the like. His was 123 along with a few other problems. They are going to keep him for a few days and try to do the best they can. The doctors gave him 6 months, he has 4 months left or so they say yet everyday I see the flicker of hope just leave his eyes.

He even said he knew he was not going to make it and that he wanted his mother in law with him. His wife thought he was just out of it with the meds but I know he knows he is thinking as clearly as he can.

It's the main reason I have not been around. What time I do have from helping him to finding a job my muse just is locked away in a dark room dealing with things that go unsaid. Some would wonder if I hate helping or hate being around this yet if you knew me you would know I don't hate it I just hate the fact I can't do much to help. Other then being with them and yeah I know that means a lot but always hate that helpless feeling.

Other things are going on yet not going to bore any readers who poke at this.

If I have a thread with you well please understand that I am not really writing right now. I will reply to pms but don't poke me of replying and more so if you just read this.

Replies to this are well welcome like always.

Been busy and a mix of my muse is out roaming the world.

Should be back later this week or next.