I have been dealing with a bit of a phenomenon lately and I wanted to put this out there to see if others felt the same. As strange as it is, I feel extremely connected to Kendall (my PC). I have always found myself having a connection with my PCs and even characters I write stories about that have nothing to do with role playing. It is a different connection though. For example, when I write about Sitkanis it is like he is telling me his story and I am writing it down for him. It has always been that way with my characters. Then a blonde boy named Kendall came along and suddenly the curtain between my character and I seemed to blur. Don't get me wrong. I do not in any way think I am like Kendall (and thank goodness, he is a little bit messed up) nor do I wish to be him. I just find myself connecting with him on a much more personal level than any of my other PCs. I feel what he feels and see what he sees so clearly. It's like we are connected. It is strange because I originally was not going to make him. I was perfectly fine with keeping him tucked away in my mind and then I found the perfect picture for him. For a while he was just like any other character. He would tell me his story and I would type it out. Recently though, like the past month or so, it was less of him telling me his story and more of me seeing through his eyes and feeling his emotions myself. When he was happy, I was happy. When he was sad, I was sad. Although physically I knew what was happening to him was not happening to me, internally I could feel what he was going through both emotionally and physically. This connection never really bothered me until recently. Kendall has been a... |
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