So, I’ve been a bit confused lately over the function of scrapbooks. Most seem to use them as a replacement for blogs and I understand that since scrapbooks get more comments than blogs. I’ve done that too, for some time, because my first reaction on new things usually is going with the flow. That’s over now, though. I want to post my ramblings where they belong and drawings and other inspiration stuff in my scrapbook. I like things to be in order. Recently I’ve come across the Law of Attraction and two books about it. I started reading the first one about a week ago, I think, and have already experienced some amazing results. Of course, some have been more amazing than others. Getting on the tram just in time for several times is one of the not-so-amazing everyday wonders. Or not caring for a bad degree at a minor exam. Or getting something for Mura done. Or feeling not as sick as before since I’ve logged on and entered chat because everyone is so nice and friendly and someone has even commanded me to get better. Positive thoughts. Then there are the real wonders of which I’ve only experienced one so far which totally surprised me and made me happy. Like, I don’t even remember the last time I was that happy. The mere thought of it continues radiating happiness and anticipation which is just what I need now, by the way. Anyway, let me tell you a bit about it ... I think I’ve spoken about my lovely psychology teacher before, and also about the fact that I have two different psychology teachers: one for the regular subject and one for the semi-voluntary one. They are actually a married couple and look very sweet together, although they are approximately in their fifties or sixties and don’t have any children. So, that’s why she was able to tell the semi-voluntary psychology group last Thursday that she’ll be our teacher in the regular subject next school year. And suddenly I felt like all sunshine and rainbows inside. If I hadn’t refused to show any feelings and stared at my desk, I would have worn a silly grin for the rest of the double lesson, I guess. I mean – all the time for the last few weeks or months I felt a bit sad because I was going to lose her after a single year of psychology. And now suddenly I’ve gotten another year! That means that she’ll be our teacher for the last year. She’ll be our teacher at the final exam. And most importantly, she’ll be my teacher when I write my thesis about creative writing in psychology! I simply love what the law of attraction has already done to me. Fortunately that has given me the confidence and belief to continue working with it. Now I have the best proof that it works. About the thesis I mentioned ... I don’t really know how to appropriately translate “Fachbereichsarbeit”, because it’s something not every school offers. Our final exam consists of three written and four oral exams in different subjects, or the other way round. Everyone has to write an exam in Maths and German, the other subjects can be chosen individually. Now, if you write what I call a thesis here, you only have three written and three oral because you’ve already put a lot of work in your thesis. It’s some kind of miniature edition of a thesis you write at university. The longest thesis I’ve heard of was about 70 pages, if I recall correctly. I don’t think that mine will be as long as that one. I’ve chosen the topic of creative writing in a psychological context, because it’s – naturally – something I can relate to very easily. I don’t really know what I’ll be supposed to do, how to structure my work, what books to read, but I’ve started to dig up a bit of information about creative writing just because I find it interesting. I hope that I’ll be able to read loads of books during the Summer Holidays. That’s also a reason why I haven’t applied for any summer jobs this year, among other things. Lately I’ve experienced a lack of motivation to write. Not only fantasy, not only RPG or prose or whatever, but a serious lack of motivation to write ... anything at all. I still do my daily writing of three pages in the morning because it’s gotten a habit and habits are hard to abandon. I need those three pages of random musings. Apart from that? Nothing. I haven’t figured out the reason yet. Maybe the fact that I’m preparing to write something scientific prevents me from writing fiction, although this is a very, very superficial reason. Maybe it’s a sign to try out a different field. Poetry for example. I’m awful when it comes to rhyming, but I like metaphors and atmosphere and all that stuff you find in poetry and poetic, stylized writing styles. Maybe I should try that. Currently I blame my lack of motivation on being sick, but that will only suffice until I’m good again. And I want to get better by Wednesday because that’s when I’ll be off to Greece. That journey includes a lot of ‘firsts’ for me: first plane flight, first visit to Greece, first journey with the Ancient Greek class and the teacher (who is among those who I ‘have a crush on’ – funny enough, the psychology woman has described him as demure). It’s also the first time to try out my basic knowledge of Greek spoken nowadays. I plan to get a sun hat and a newspaper as souvenirs. The teacher claims that we should be able to read the newspaper. I believe him, but I want a proof. I hope that we don’t get stuck at home because of a strike. Getting stuck in Greece would be a pleasure, though. I’m looking forward to the hotness, sun and sea. We’ll be able to bathe in most evenings. And I firmly believe that I’ll recover until then. |