This is just a little rambling to get things off my head before I go to bed (much too late already). I originally intended to send a PM to Jen, but I thought I'd rather write a small blog entry so other people can comment on it too. I've learned that taking advice is more helpful than just pondering over the question on one's own.
So, there's this other RPG (you know which one I mean - should I mention the name or not?). I've been playing it for a little longer than a year now, in different guises, even as a mod.
Concern #1: Many moderators of that game have retired recently and it is really sad and depressing to see more and more cities decreasing in activity. It seems like there are less people who enjoy the game, less people who actually stay at one place and enjoy playing with other people there because they are used to and really like each other's writing. Of course there are exceptions - and there are great! But they remind me of how many more cities there were a few months or so ago. It makes me really sad. And while I've been trying to help with modding, I simply can't stand the pressure any more. As a mod of that game, you have many many more threads than as a mod of Mizahar, because it's so huge. Even when you come to a city that's not so active - when there's a mod there's usually a bunch of players around them who need attention. And I can't give them enough attention or the kind of attention they deserve. Maybe it's a matter of finding the right place. The problem is that I have problems finding that place because there's so much history and remains from someone else lying around that you need to consider and build upon. If I'd have the chance to create a new city and mod it, I'd totally jump in and do it! But I dislike the organizational stuff that doesn't really interest me. How can I mod threads I'm not interested in? Some training threads are like that. Ah, maybe it's the age-old problem of mine: I can't say no. I should probably practice ...
Okay, that pretty much was the first concern.
Concern #2 which actually is not as big as the 1st one: I already mentioned that I've been around at that site for approximately one year - in different guises. Let me think ... I've had four PCs there, one is still active. I hope that she'll remain active though. Right now there's an idea for another PC, and while I've tried to feed a story rather than RP with her adventures, it doesn't really work out. She wants to be RPed. She wants to be RPed at that particular game. So egoistic of her! Despite the fact that I decided to keep a single PC because basically not everyone is allowed to have several PCs at the same time. That problem keeps popping up in front of me and demanding a decision. It's annoying ... but unavoidable. I keep dividing my attention when I'm bored and retiring PCs when I feel that I've overdone it. From one extreme to the other, so it seems. Is there any solution, any kind of 'right' way?
I hope that you can help me. And you don't have to worry about me, I'm not depressed, just bored and annoyed and a bit sad for that game and trying to avoid the thought that I have to attend school tomorrow. XD
On another note for Jen: It's really sad that you left that game. Right now I'm reading the ooc thread of your previous city and feeling all melancholic about what huge amounts of creative, inspiring and exciting posts and writeups you managed to produce back then. Mizahar is still too new to have that many different aspects and possibilities - although I hope that it'll grow steadily and help wherever I can. I'm just sad because the old times are over and never come back.