by Malia on February 28th, 2010, 7:36 pm
I feel that I’m in that kind of strange mood I get sometimes, so maybe it’s not a good idea to write a blog entry now, but I think I have to do that. Even though I have a feeling that I should calm down first. Anyway. I make a lot of mistakes. I know that people here are very forgiving and friendly, but still I have to admit that I’m nowhere near perfect. If I do something wrong, I don’t do it because I planned it. Rather, the reason has usually something to do with me either not knowing or not thinking enough about it. For the sake of being exact and understandable, let’s elaborate through an example – a very clear example. I have learned that I can create a lot of characters if I’m not extremely careful. It happens without any logical reason again and again. Usually there are a few weeks between each new character concept, but sometimes it’s only about a few days. I suppose that factor relies on what I do, how creative or bored or busy I am. Fortunately, most of those characters are archived instead of posted up. Some of them are just copies of other characters I like, be it out of RPGs, books, comics, even real life. When I accidentally post up one of those characters, I usually realize my mistake rather quickly and immediately move them towards inactivity. I know it’s a bad habit. I know I should know better. Sometimes my creative energy is put into the wrong projects. Maybe I need that as some kind of balance, a distraction from all the serious stuff and pressure. Because, yes, I am very good at putting pressure on myself! I think that this is also why I can’t produce 100 posts a month like others do (you know who I mean ). I’d be really glad if I could. Activity means very much to me – and still, I often fail at it. Perhaps some of you don’t even notice it, but I fail regularly. Every time I have enough time to post, but don’t do it. (I have more... [ Continued ]
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by Malia on February 10th, 2010, 11:04 am
(This was written yesterday evening.)
I figured that I need a list to help me keep tracks of what is going on at the creative front and what I have to do as soon as possible. There are a lot of new things, since I think that I can take on a few more threads without any negative effects at all. I have great plans, too. So, here’s the list:
Malia Learn some basic information about Animation & the creation of the Nuit Do some adventuring & gather more xp Probably do some research about Karjin, Kahnikivas & the Medini family
Avayra Get involved in at least one of the planned adventures Get some glyphing & magecrafting experience Probably get some weapon experience (in the Infinite Distances thread?)
Mod Stuff Done – Reply to Trista’s thread Write a first draft of the city description Reorganize & probably edit all of the existing locations Write a first draft of the ‘skyfeather’ animals
Another RPG site (I have one character there) Done - Do some socializing Visit some other cities for shopping, training and (religious) adventures Find a skill that absolutely intrigues me, self-mod a training thread & make it her main skill
I hope to get at least some of this done today and tomorrow and the rest until the weekend, so I can focus on posting to threads throughout the free week. I also plan to (eventually!) finish up the locations for Mura and think about new ones that I’d like to write. Also, I want to come up with a really cool adventure plot that will draw people to Mura. When the locations are done, I have nothing to do except writing up a bunch of wiki articles. But that’s really not what a storyteller is designed to do. So, rather than write science, I want to write story, story, story!
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by Malia on February 7th, 2010, 7:51 pm
(This was written earlier today which is why I didn't mention the news about Malia.)So, I need something to get me posting, because otherwise I’ll be sitting here the rest of the weekend, playing around with fonts and backgrounds and not writing a single word at all. So I figured: what’s better for getting into posting mood than blogging? Since there is nothing going on irl, I have enough time to think about my characters, my activity and where I want to go with them. The “top 30 word counts” has actually impressed me more than it should have. While it means that I’ve already achieved great things, it also reminds me of how much I could achieve if I were just a little bit more active and dedicated. I know that it’s possible. I just need to find out that one “trick” that makes people just write and write and write without thinking. Tricks … my character Avayra is about tricks. I don’t know her very well yet, but that’s going to change soon. I have plans for her, big plans. After all, she already IS the creator of the powerful, as it states in her title. She will become a famous magician; that much is sure. But one cannot be just a magician and nothing else – these people will either commit suicide or be killed by some strange experiment. No, she has to discover some other obsessions. I’d love to see her as a follower of Nysel, but I think it’s still a bit too early for her to discover that. She needs to settle in Syliras and do some productive work first. I guess she’ll have a hard time establishing a daily life, because she loves surprises and suspense. A little rebel, that’s what I had in mind when I created her. She will be unique when I develop her further. I’m really looking forward to it, but at the moment I just have to concentrate on finding a voice in my posts that suits her. Well, just a few plans I like to play around with: She’s currently aiming for work at the Inner Sanctum, but I could also see her as apprentice at the I... [ Continued ]
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by Malia on January 17th, 2010, 6:42 pm
Two days ago – during a double psychology lesson that revolved around said section in the nearest bookshop – I came across an incredibly interesting book. It’s called “The Enneagram” and was written by Helen Palmer (the original version is in English!), although I’ve seen many other books on the same topic. For a better understanding, I admit that I love personality tests and learning about different types of personalities. I was thrilled when we did the classical personality test in class – I turned out to be the only compulsive type of about ten people, by the way. Of course, there is no ultimate scheme where one type will fit nicely with you and the others won’t. There are always different degrees of identification for different people, even for the same person in different times of their life. There can be thousands of factors influencing who you are and what suits you … and it’s huge fun to think about your results. On another note, I love the fact that personality types are some kind of self-fulfilling prophecies … You read everything about the type(s) that suit you, and then you continue with your daily tasks and keep thinking about and checking how much is right from what was written about you. And suddenly you start doing those things more. It’s crazy! Anyway, I’m currently reading about a new set of personality types. Ennea = nine, so nine types. I’ve only read about a few that sounded interesting and found that two or three represent me most. Especially type number nine which is called the negotiator intrigues me. Number nine lives more through the feelings of others than through hers. In her childhood she was mostly ignored by others which lead to a desire to please others in order to be recognized and valued. She thinks that everything she does has to be like others want it to be. Her mind is always filled with a lot of different things, memories and duties and little things that need to be done, and she can ponder on several thoughts at the same time. ... [ Continued ]
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by Malia on December 27th, 2009, 4:28 pm
You only discover the value of time when you have too much of it. Right now I’m sitting in the living room of my mother’s childhood home which is still owned by my grandma, but inhabited by my uncle and aunt and their three daughters. It’s usually very loud in here, because one of the three daughters is always there, playing with noisy toys or talking or crying and needing attention. Their mother sometimes is around too. When other relatives are visiting, I’m required to greet them, listen to their little life stories or at least be there. We sit around the massive table, talking, laughing, eating cookies … yesterday we were drinking mulled wine too. (As a side note: Good to feel that you belong to the adults’ circle now! Although it’s perhaps wrong to define membership through whether you are allowed to drink alcohol or not …) So I ask myself: Where can I find a calm place to write and be creative without any noisy distractions? I haven’t found an answer yet, but I’m improvising and doing my best to create and seize the chance of short windows of silence. For example, they are now visiting my grandmas friend (who has cancer), but my family stayed at home. So I’m just preparing for a nice calm session of writing up posts and continuing my novel “Feuerroter Irrsinn”. I’m very grateful for this little window of time, of good conditions for being creative. The last few days I’ve spent sitting in front of the screen, posting at a manga board, stalking other people’s threads, doing very little myself and thus getting crankier and crankier. I’m so glad that I’ve recognized that I need to change something in order to get something done. I’m in the middle of changing my work conditions and doing my best to be successful. I can do it! This is the best time of the year to get projects done that have been lying around for ages … I’m doing my best, and that’s all what counts, after all. However, it’s important to remember what I should and shouldn’t do in order to keep up... [ Continued ]
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