Okay, now it's official. Since I have forgotten both username and password of my Myblog account, Mizahar will be where I'm going to blog from now on. I remember that I used to produce late night entries that were way too pessmistic and depressed and often a bit strange, but then I need a place to voice all that crap that my brain comes up with. Now that place is here. Nice, isn't it?

It may sound a bit senseless, but at some weekends this strange mood strikes me. I wander around at the net, never staying at one place, never doing anything (like posting or writing up important ic stuff) and getting a feeling of utter boredom. This feeling grows and grows until it keeps me awake for a long long time and then I usually end up going to bed after midnight and awaking at 10 or 11 am which is very late for me!

Haha, it's indeed senseless.

Sometimes (at the weekends, mostly) I wonder whether I should join another RPG community which provides something new to me, or create a new character. Two or three characters were created during such recent late-night hours - two characters I didn't dare to introduce into a RP environment because I'm afraid that they would steal too much time.

Maybe I got a bit obsessed with what Jen told me about how having a staff position and a PC account was more than enough. Still I wonder ... why am I bored at those late nights? Should I just go to bed? Or try to do something useful and then go to bed? Or really divide my attention between more RPGs so that I get some variety of RPing?

I hope that some of you can understand what I mean. Actually I've never heard of anyone who experiences something similar, but there's still hope.