So... I am at my wit's end.
I tried patience. I sent requests for NPC approval, I had everything planned for NaNo. I was excited. Then I waited... and waited... and waited. The season was over.
Then I followed up to see why I hadn't heard anything for a month. I wanted to give my ST breathing room since there was presumably a lot of activity in November. I finally got approval for the threads, but by then it was too late. I learned that not only could I not finish my threads (and not only did I fail NaNo, which was my purpose for joining this site in the first place), I could never go finish them. I could not do flashback threads. All of my work had been flushed down the drain.
I was unmotivated to even continue. However, I found out about placeholder tags (on my own). I realized that I could make placeholder threads in the future to allow staff to take several seasons to fulfill my questions and requests. I got the idea for a new direction with my character (since my character was at a bit of a stalemate from not being able to do the fall threads) and I pressed on.
I tried to implement my ideas. But lo'! It turns out that I needed the fall threads (it is now winter) to progress with my current goals. Then I learned some more things after the fact... after I thought I was doing everything so correctly. I could have gotten what I planned from the beginning. But now I have to jump through hoops. Why? Because I was being a good little Mizaharian and I didn't know every single thing there is to know from the onset.
I am frustrated and I don't believe anyone will understand why. It seems like every time I start having fun with my character additional roadblocks pop up. Yet I will be dumb enough to attempt to persevere yet a little while longer if only to fulfill my plans to my current thread partners. However, if this continues I will move on to something much more fulfilling and fun. This site seems like it might've been fun at one point... I think I missed its mark....
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