Well after a migraine's worth of whispered conversations in chat rooms, msn chat and multiple misunderstandings, I've finally found out the 2 problematic issues. My enormous ego led me to believe I'm a good writer and I was among my peers in this forum. To those who have seen my pictures, the thought has become a habit over the many many many years.
I'm without a doubt, one of the most ancient people on this forum. I remember at 15, I made a ridiculous pact with my best friend that when or if we got ancient enough to hit 30 whole years old, we would commit suicide together! Crazy right?
The 2nd issue is I -used- to think I was a pretty good writer. I looked around the forum and thought, "Hey there are some damn good writers on here! I like it!" I saw some not so good writers that still have lots of people threading with them. It doesn't take a genius to figure out who's got skills and who doesn't. Or so I thought.
I usually harp about how, even if it hurts, I appreciate honesty. In trying to get to the heart of a forthright, simple answer, I had 2 hours of whispers, chats, offended feelings on several people's viewpoints, including my own. But after all those unnecessary, overworked and drawn out processes, I got the truth and had an epiphany.
People think I'm not a good writer. I know, I know--'drama queen,' ego maniac, conceited -insert insult here-. It's a tough thing to admit to when you've had a preconceived notion of yourself for longer than most of the people on this forum have been alive. I won't let myself become an ageist, but it's very disconcerting to have so few of my own age group around.
Hey it's not easy to admit faults and at my age it should be easier. It's safe to say that I could easily be the mother of the majority of people on Mizahar. *winces* And the worst part is that *shudder* it's some kind of...
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