Hi..I've been thinking about all this stuff and got to the conclusion that I am Alone.Yes,don't stare like that.Even if I got online friends,it's not enough.Even if my mom is around[from time to time],not enough.Not even my dog keeps me that much company,since he stays with mom to the other house.Even if I am surrounded by a crowd of people,I feel alone..and I can't explain actually and exactly WHY?!Or,maybe I know but it's so hard to admit it.
I need that person for me Only,to just keep me company,hold hands and share all the small good and bad things in our lives.But,I am Alone.More alone than a Forgotten Doll in the basement.I just feel that I failed so much in guy's and love issues,that I lost all hope in this..
I look around me and everyone has "that close person" to them and I get nostalgic and a bit sad about it..as I can't have that.My past 2 relationships went from bad to worse and in the end only hurt me..
Maybe I am not good enough,maybe..-I am not offering enough or maybe I am to childish.But I need affection..I don't know what I should do..