I'd like to try making a blog here. I really have no idea what that means, I've never done it before. But I'm willing to give it a shot. And have no idea what to write about, so just to have a first post I'm going to write about myself. Not Thundiirn, I do plenty of that on this site, but me. It's rather easy to swirl the two into one, since we're quite similar in many ways, but I'd like to separate that here and talk about just Luke (that's my real name, if that didn't make sense to everyone).
My life feels rather insane right now, nearly overwhelmingly so. So much has happened since I got to college that the high school me feels like a distant shadow, impossible to reach or even relate to anymore. He was a much simpler Luke, and sometimes I miss that. He never would have dreamed of dropping out of college, and yet here I am sitting at home applying to jobs with "high school diploma preferred" on the application until I can get employed and pay my own rent.
I have total faith that this will turn out just as I want it to, and don't regret doing it whatsoever. My friends tend to tell me I have ridiculously high levels of confidence and optimism, and its the result of years of trusting my instinct and it (almost) always working out. Always when it really counts. I trust myself, and though there is a great deal of negative stigma typically associated with dropping out of college, especially around here (people at my school take classes over the summers at Harvard because its easier there than our programs are), I view it as the right choice right now. It would take pages and pages to explain exactly why, but luckily I already know, and that's all that truly matters to me.
That's not to say I'm not scared. I'm terrified. I don't honestly know where this will lead. If I'm wrong, I'll have given myself a serious set-back in life. The unknown is always scary. But it's also what makes life fun and worth living ...
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