Oh, I’d really, really like to post, but this is one of those days when I just sit in front of the screen and do nothing useful or productive at all. Since that’s both annoying for me and the people I’m writing with, I usually get depressed. And today is special in more ways than one, because yesterday has been incredibly important for my personal development. I’ve realized something about myself.
And discovering the truth is always painful.
I’m in seventh form now (Warning: Austrian school system, meaning two years away from graduation), and there are two new subjects: Chemistry and Psychology/Philosophy. The latter is far more interesting for me since it deals with problems and craziness of people and personalities and lifestyles. I don’t really want to explain our school system, but psychology is taught as a required and optional subject. While the required deals with general information such as different branches (cognitive, emotions, learning, illnesses etc.), which is less interesting to the layman, the optional is more interesting because the teacher started with developmental psychology and doing a personality test. Once you’re through that test, you have scores in four categories. Of course they do overlap and change within someone’s personality as time goes by, but I’m pretty sure that what is written for my type describes me very well.
Since I went on a shopping trip with my best friend yesterday, during which we usually talk a lot about ourselves and our relationship, I suddenly discovered my weaknesses and bad personality traits and nearly cried because of that awful feeling of helplessness. We had an argument, and after that she kept talking about ways to overcome the problem, then about a few problems of herself etc.
I’ve always had trouble with telling people to just shut up – that’s one of my problems. I’m an incredibly nice person. But at the same time I easily slip into the trap of bearing annoying situations just because I...
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