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I'm currently sitting in my church listening to my pastor speak about our new youth pastors. I am no longer apart of the youth group as I am graduated and what not. I'm trying to get my life in order both spiritually and physically. Let me start by saying I'm against my pastor. I'm against a lot of things be stands for and I think he has done no good for us. I cannot say I'm a good christian- far from it. But we used to be known for our ...realness? I guess I'm at a loss for the word right now. But for our passion andd commitment to eachother to lift eachother up. So os it wrong of me to dislike him when ever since he came I- a member for eight years- have felt a coldness and fakeness from the people I used to call my family? But everyone likes to pretend. Our church has also been known for musicals, plays, skits, and acting. Sothey have seemed to be intertwining the things we use for showing our faith in their everyday lives. Or at least, every sunday and church event. And the pastor is the greatest fake of them all.. Again, I'm not perfect, nobody is. But I don't think the leader of a church society should be able to force himself to cry over every single subject. aim sorry but that is humanly impossible. Its not human is what I mean. Goat, why don't you find another church? When you've built a relationship with people for eight-nine years, you tend to get attatched.
The one thing that pretty much saved me in highschool was youth group.I loved youth group. feeling as if I belong somewhere. having older kids to look up to(as the oldest child, its hard to lead withoht example)that was awesome. So the youth group, not the people in it, the idea of it, its something I hold near and dear to my heart. I have also gained one youth member as a younger sibling. Though it would seem that she's my leader. Which she is. But I'm still protective of all of them. I never once haf a youth pastor...an actual payroll youth pastor...throughout...
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