So since tonight I am half drunk from a damn beer,II just needed some time and stuff to write about what's going on in my life.I will try to make it short,I apologize if I won't be to fluent or smth..
1. My mom and step-dad just got into a huge fight,with screaming and such,I was scared as hell.I closed the door from my room and had my music as loud as I wanna to..so I won't hear them..So it seems ,he got his bags done and tomorrow he leaves.I don't know where,I don't care..I am sick of this behavior.Today they are cool,nice words and the next day they fight-don't speak with each other for days..I god sick and tired.
2.My "so called bf" is..across the Ocean,[LDR] so I don't know how the heck this is gonna work out..I really need someone here with me,and I don't got no friends to support me.Only online ones[yeah.surprised huh?] >_> So am I.
SO,up until now..I only got screwed relationships..where I got betrayed,my heart broken in millions of pieces,crushed,.stepped on-has an empty heart.
However..I decided to end this now and Tonight.I don't need love,I don't NEED guys >.>
I am sick and tired of this,to fight over and over again to get a drop of happiness and then -Ouch,smack..smash!- everything turns up-side down in my life.I know that Sh!t happens,still.. >.>
- another thing.I also have to go to a funeral,so yeah..That sux big time.Third person died in my family recently.
-Welcome to my life!-
Should I..just Give up everything and stop being such a fool,believing in everything and every one? Should I stop loving..even IF I am not loved...
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