It is odd how luck can determine your actions.
I believe that there is no such thing as luck or bad luck; instead we and our thoughts are the ones shaping the world around us. Sometimes I watch the happenings unfold, though, and ask myself why here and now? What is so special about this day?
Recently activity as Malia has stagnated a bit. She has a bunch of threads from last season, but all of those are moving quite slowly. I’m grateful because I can play with awesome writers in exchange of a little waiting time, but it gives me nothing to do. I take fluid time a lot more seriously than I used to some time ago. I guess the future psychologist shows through here. Everything that happens in threads is an important part of the character’s individual development. Continuing the new season without knowing where the threads from last season will go might result in posts that do not seem to follow the rules of fluid time in a realistic way.
For example, Malia’s first thread was an encounter with Tanroa at the temple. The thread took several months to finish. Meanwhile I wrote in other threads that were dated later. So, when I finished the Tanroa thread, I suddenly found Malia with a purpose and a mission I had never mentioned in the threads afterwards! Back then I didn’t mind, but I don’t want that to happen again. It’s kind of ridiculous.
So, Malia is pretty much blocked apart from some training I can and want to do regardless.
And like a river carving out a new bed when the old one is no longer available, my creativity redirects itself towards a different character ... I find myself dusting off Aselia and prettifying her CS. I think it’s the third comeback she has now ... but I don’t mind. As long as I have fun, I absolutely don’t mind.
This is exactly the situation that usually causes me to think: Why do I mind the rest of my time? I guess the mere fact that I have that thought proves that I’m slowly getting better at ‘not minding’. Which is good.
Aselia is in...
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