oct 24, 2011
I haven't written in here in ages. My last blog on here is funnily very much in regards to my scrap in my alt. *sighs* It is the same topic too. There will always be someone upset with you not matter what you do because each person has an individual outlook and perspective.
Some say it's based entirely on jealousy, but to me, that reeks of conceit. While for some that might be true, like training methods, it's not universal. I like writing and yes, I express myself vehemently. I noticed that there is one person in particular on miza that has a huge hate fest going on for me. Per usual, the why is most important to me. Yes, I know i've said before that you can't please all the people all the time, but figuring out why some hate is what keeps me from being upset.
The person I share no identifiers about, does not understand me and seems bent on hating me for the player's own perspective. No it's not the one I talked with in chat, but this Player X was there and glaring. I want to tell player x that i'm not not the horrible monster that player x perceives me to be. The hatred is palpable and I know that I appear as a insert insult here, regardless of all actions or words on my part.
There isn't anything I can say or do to change the mind of player x's skewed opining. I know why, but it's one of the few times it doesn't bring me comfort. Player x joined miza a week or two after I did and player x seems angry, miserable, jealous, frustrated, very unhappy, and tries so hard to get people to react to player x's pc, that player x drives away most people with that behavior.
I know player x is acting out of a soul breaking loneliness that eats away at and fuels the furious resentment and desperate attention seeking behavior.
Small secret about me: I have a degree in psychology and it has given me a fantastic insight into how creatures work, 2 legged and 4 legged. The personality, motivations, past, age group, gender, and word choice give me a pretty good working...
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