. . . . I'm a little pissed off at this I must admit. I thought it be best to get it out with righting so here I am...doing my thing.

I've lately been attempting to find a theme song for my character Banir Ironwood. I say attempting because I've yet to be successful so I'm kinda pissed. Banir is bloody hard for me to figure out. See most songs, and people, stick with a theme. Banir however has a few problems with themes, one he doesn't have much of one. Two he's got more depth than most characters I've made till now. Banir isn't a depressed kinda guy, he's actually really nice, kind, caring and gentle. But he's got a past that has made him as dangerous as he appears to be despite being more of a gentle giant kinda guy. When certain points involving his past art brought up.... well to say the s**t hits the fan is a good description.

Going from nice and peaceful to a f**king almost unstoppable monster hell bent on destroying anything before it. IE: Berserk. And because of these two elements, which can and usually mix. Its hard to find a song that suits the brutish son of a b***h. Cause if it sounds too depressing it won't work, if its too filled with rage and power, it won't work. It kinda has me walking with my hands tied to my feet...and I'm bent over backwards. What I need is a song that starts out slow, upbeat and cool and maybe gets a little power near the end with tints of rage. Mind you its not too hard to find but then the f**king lyrics don't match and its alllllll the way back to square one. I swear my ears will bleed by the end of this, but for now I shall do as they did in Pirates! (Lame I know but you think of a better analogy) Fight! To runaway, to fight later~!

Or...something like that...





Run away!

God I need an Advil. I think we all know the feeling, when it`s the end of the day and all you can say is,
crap.
Bleh, guess thats life.
Not gonna bother anyone here, just feel like saying it.
I don`t even have the energy to write a more profound post, hmph.
So, how was your Sunday?

You will never know the depth of my love for the Abhorsen trilogy. Or more precisely, the first and second book. More precisely, the world around them. Oh my God, I et shivers thinking about it. Now, there's a place I'd like to roleplay in. I mean, really love the world in Mizahar- it's complexity and it's originality, but the Old Kingdom series is the first to actually made me want to live in a life that is not quite my own. That's not to say I'm a realist- I'm not, far from it. But, it made me just want to be part of it. Of all it's thrills, it's danger, it's beauty. Damn, son. Shivers.

Garth Nix just excelled in the first book. With flying colors. All the right things was there for the characters- a strong female protragonist that made you want to stand up a little straighter, a male character that made you want to squeal, a mysterious animal of unknown origins.... wonderful. And the world! Oh my God, it just fascinated me to no end. I loved it. So. Much. Why isn't there any decent Old Kingdom rp that lets me express this love? WHY?

The second book wasn't bad, enjoyable. Third book? Not so impressed. Lacked specific details. Some boring paragraphs. Sabriel was kickass though.

I hope my character, Miana, would turn out to be as badass as her.

It`s a wonder how you could be playing perfectly whilst practicing, then when your performing its like you have never touched an instrument in your life. Gee,
could it have gone my way at least this one time?

Rant, Rant, Rant