As they drew closer, the auras of the place came into sharper, more detailed focus, whisperings of light and life and intimate joy – the brush of phantom fingers, caressing her face and breasts and body with light and wondering touch – all poisoned by a creeping, weeping miasma of grief and shadowy sorrow. It touched and strummed and thrummed and played on her red-raw heartstrings, dancing through her aura until she began to mirror it, feeling tears start to roll into her eyes and her vision – her true, physical vision – start to blur.
“Prizes are immaterial,” Alses murmured, slightly coldly, defensive, fighting against the rising tide of sadness that was not entirely her own, a beating wave of it that washed, desolate, through the otherwise bright and cheery home. And it was a home, that much was certain – probably the strange lady's, if her evident familiarity was anything to go by. “Reasons and causes are more pressing, before more people tumble off the city. Or are pushed.”
She flinched at the buzzsaw of wounded words that lashed out, serrated red-and-black in the aurist's world, an involuntary whip that wounded on the mental plane rather than the physical. She tried to be charitable; it was probably just the result of that deep, abiding unhappiness that sucked and suppurated in the aura – and thus in the mind – of Illia, but that didn't mean it didn't cut. Ethaefal had thin skins, on occasion.
“Only whilst Syna shines in the sky,” she replied quietly, instead. “At the setting of the sun, when the last ray of sunlight fades, we'll be forced into a mortal sack of flesh again, a half-ruined thing that shouldn't be on Mizahar at all.” Too quick, too clipped – there was her own personal pain, sharp as shattered glass, forcing its way through her usual armour. There was another of her kind close by – Ayda – and that continual grating presence was only doubled by the fading impressions of the Lethaefal who'd dwelled here too, the twofold reason for the thinning of her defences and the weakening of the serene mien a celestial Ethaefal wore like a mask and imperial cloak. She made an effort to return to urbanity, though her success was dubious at best, her voice still a little clipped, her tone a little sharp.
“But, since I am, and since there are wonders even here, I wish to know who or what seeks to return us to Lhex – and perhaps the Goldenlands – against our will. One of our number tumbling from the peaks was unfortunate. Two? Unnerving.”
Alses had to look away from Illia's slight, distracted figure at the mention of Lena and her love – the bright tsunami of ardent love and loss crested in foaming pink and brown, rushing outwards as though to embrace the whole world and then, just as quickly, pulling back, falling apart, being swallowed, greedily, hungrily, by the gray and black holes in Illia's mind that suckled on her every thought. Another flinch – the image struck an unsettling chord in her brain, that of the death of her master in Zeltiva, at the hands of a Voiding ritual gone horribly wrong, his body mangled and worried by haywire portals that were no respecter of persons. This...this looked as though it could so easily shape itself into the mental equivalent, a realisation which sent a nauseating shockwave through every fibre of her being.
Thankfully, as she bit her lip so hard it bled – sluggish bronze, and stinking of sweetness on the point of turning – to contain her rising gorge, the ghost-lit panoramas of the aurist's perception receded, faded, the faint shadows of physical objects rising and darkening to prominence once more as the overlay of glittering skeinwork paled into insignificance in a matter of a chime or so.
Her hands had bunched the rich crimson fabric of her dress, she realised with a start – with an effort, she relaxed them from the claws and absently patted the rumpled material into some semblance of order. It was only when Illia's awed question reached her ears that she looked, once more, directly at the Kelvic.
She couldn't help her eyes filling with a certain amount of pity as she looked upon the girl – although it was perhaps not for the reasons that might have been expected – the recent death of a lover and the sickly feeling of a mind focused on loss almost to the point of madness, seeking escape in an activity – any activity. That was why, surely, she'd been gardening, anything to stop the shrieking roar of thought and escape the cosy bower of lovers' memories the home had been.
Every Ethaefal had been there, at some point, though – loss of that magnitude, and far greater, was par for the course, to a certain extent, although never pleasant.
No, it was the revelation of her Kelvic nature that provoked the greatest reaction from Alses. Flicker-lives, even by the standards of mortals, Kelvics burned brightly and died fast. A handful of decades, at the very most, and often not even that, before Lhex demanded their presence and Dira cut quick the skein of their life. A total and unsettling contrast to the endless spool of existence an Ethaefal had, no rush, no hurry, plenty of time to sit and watch the world go by without worrying endlessly about being one step closer to Dira's cold embrace.
How did the Kelvic stand it? And, more to the point, how had Lena, her Lethaefal lover, stood it, knowing that, in the proverbial blink of an eye, all the cosy warmth and love which echoed and re-echoed from the walls and furniture all around would be ash and memories?
A thought struck – perhaps she hadn't, perhaps this one was just that, a suicide, unable to reconcile eternity with brevity. 'But then,' Alses quizzed herself, at the speed of thought, 'Why isn't that evident here, under the recent loss? Why can't we feel a deeper distress, a lengthier worry, a festering pain?'
Perhaps she was getting tired – but she'd only just started to use her powers, her reserves were in rude health, as a quick check confirmed. This was getting her nowhere – she pulled back, just a bit: no sense in wasting djed, or in being careless.
'Question, Alse,' part of her brain prompted, insistently. 'We've been asked a question. An answer is polite. Remember?'
Alses cast a glance sideways, at the silent, uncomfortable-looking figure of her Synaborn compatriot. He looked to be on the verge of flight, deeply unnerved by everything, and – if he was anything like her – by the presence of another Ethaefal. Still, he was here. For now.
“For the moment,” she allowed, in reply to Illia's question. “We do not like one another's company, it's true – old memories, you understand, still fresh and raw as though they were made but a bell, a chime ago.” A weak smile. “The lot of the Ethaefal. That said, it can be...dealt with, borne, at least for a little while,” she said, with difficulty – Alses and Ayda hadn't exactly had a lengthy dialogue on the way to Lena's house, after all “If the need is great – and we consider the deaths of two of our undying kind reason enough.”
A pause, enough to let that sink in, and in that pause a thought, a memory from poor Arture and how he'd described the vultures, circling and worrying at him before plunging in for the kill, drifted to the top of her mind. “If we might ask...did you notice anyone – or anything – unusual around your garden and home? Odd presences, people, movement when and where there shouldn't have been any?” She grinned, suddenly.
“We suppose everyone who's badgered you before us asked much the same questions. On that basis, therefore: Is there anything you've perhaps thought, in hindsight, you should have mentioned to your previous callers, but didn't?” It sounded a little accusative, hanging in the air like that, which was decidedly not her intention, so she hurriedly added: “For whatever reason,” in what she hoped were mollifying tones. “Fatigue, anger, sorrow.” The last came out almost as a whisper, an inexplicable lump in her throat doing its level best to choke her words. A great deal rode on tone and expression, Alses was learning, and Illia was on a knife-edge; a misplaced word, even a misplaced inflection, might ruin the whole tenuous affair. Alses hoped – fervently – she hadn't made yet another faux pas in her questioning – there was so much still to learn about even the simplest of conversations, and still more about something as...as fraught, as charged, as this.
“Prizes are immaterial,” Alses murmured, slightly coldly, defensive, fighting against the rising tide of sadness that was not entirely her own, a beating wave of it that washed, desolate, through the otherwise bright and cheery home. And it was a home, that much was certain – probably the strange lady's, if her evident familiarity was anything to go by. “Reasons and causes are more pressing, before more people tumble off the city. Or are pushed.”
She flinched at the buzzsaw of wounded words that lashed out, serrated red-and-black in the aurist's world, an involuntary whip that wounded on the mental plane rather than the physical. She tried to be charitable; it was probably just the result of that deep, abiding unhappiness that sucked and suppurated in the aura – and thus in the mind – of Illia, but that didn't mean it didn't cut. Ethaefal had thin skins, on occasion.
“Only whilst Syna shines in the sky,” she replied quietly, instead. “At the setting of the sun, when the last ray of sunlight fades, we'll be forced into a mortal sack of flesh again, a half-ruined thing that shouldn't be on Mizahar at all.” Too quick, too clipped – there was her own personal pain, sharp as shattered glass, forcing its way through her usual armour. There was another of her kind close by – Ayda – and that continual grating presence was only doubled by the fading impressions of the Lethaefal who'd dwelled here too, the twofold reason for the thinning of her defences and the weakening of the serene mien a celestial Ethaefal wore like a mask and imperial cloak. She made an effort to return to urbanity, though her success was dubious at best, her voice still a little clipped, her tone a little sharp.
“But, since I am, and since there are wonders even here, I wish to know who or what seeks to return us to Lhex – and perhaps the Goldenlands – against our will. One of our number tumbling from the peaks was unfortunate. Two? Unnerving.”
Alses had to look away from Illia's slight, distracted figure at the mention of Lena and her love – the bright tsunami of ardent love and loss crested in foaming pink and brown, rushing outwards as though to embrace the whole world and then, just as quickly, pulling back, falling apart, being swallowed, greedily, hungrily, by the gray and black holes in Illia's mind that suckled on her every thought. Another flinch – the image struck an unsettling chord in her brain, that of the death of her master in Zeltiva, at the hands of a Voiding ritual gone horribly wrong, his body mangled and worried by haywire portals that were no respecter of persons. This...this looked as though it could so easily shape itself into the mental equivalent, a realisation which sent a nauseating shockwave through every fibre of her being.
Thankfully, as she bit her lip so hard it bled – sluggish bronze, and stinking of sweetness on the point of turning – to contain her rising gorge, the ghost-lit panoramas of the aurist's perception receded, faded, the faint shadows of physical objects rising and darkening to prominence once more as the overlay of glittering skeinwork paled into insignificance in a matter of a chime or so.
Her hands had bunched the rich crimson fabric of her dress, she realised with a start – with an effort, she relaxed them from the claws and absently patted the rumpled material into some semblance of order. It was only when Illia's awed question reached her ears that she looked, once more, directly at the Kelvic.
She couldn't help her eyes filling with a certain amount of pity as she looked upon the girl – although it was perhaps not for the reasons that might have been expected – the recent death of a lover and the sickly feeling of a mind focused on loss almost to the point of madness, seeking escape in an activity – any activity. That was why, surely, she'd been gardening, anything to stop the shrieking roar of thought and escape the cosy bower of lovers' memories the home had been.
Every Ethaefal had been there, at some point, though – loss of that magnitude, and far greater, was par for the course, to a certain extent, although never pleasant.
No, it was the revelation of her Kelvic nature that provoked the greatest reaction from Alses. Flicker-lives, even by the standards of mortals, Kelvics burned brightly and died fast. A handful of decades, at the very most, and often not even that, before Lhex demanded their presence and Dira cut quick the skein of their life. A total and unsettling contrast to the endless spool of existence an Ethaefal had, no rush, no hurry, plenty of time to sit and watch the world go by without worrying endlessly about being one step closer to Dira's cold embrace.
How did the Kelvic stand it? And, more to the point, how had Lena, her Lethaefal lover, stood it, knowing that, in the proverbial blink of an eye, all the cosy warmth and love which echoed and re-echoed from the walls and furniture all around would be ash and memories?
A thought struck – perhaps she hadn't, perhaps this one was just that, a suicide, unable to reconcile eternity with brevity. 'But then,' Alses quizzed herself, at the speed of thought, 'Why isn't that evident here, under the recent loss? Why can't we feel a deeper distress, a lengthier worry, a festering pain?'
Perhaps she was getting tired – but she'd only just started to use her powers, her reserves were in rude health, as a quick check confirmed. This was getting her nowhere – she pulled back, just a bit: no sense in wasting djed, or in being careless.
'Question, Alse,' part of her brain prompted, insistently. 'We've been asked a question. An answer is polite. Remember?'
Alses cast a glance sideways, at the silent, uncomfortable-looking figure of her Synaborn compatriot. He looked to be on the verge of flight, deeply unnerved by everything, and – if he was anything like her – by the presence of another Ethaefal. Still, he was here. For now.
“For the moment,” she allowed, in reply to Illia's question. “We do not like one another's company, it's true – old memories, you understand, still fresh and raw as though they were made but a bell, a chime ago.” A weak smile. “The lot of the Ethaefal. That said, it can be...dealt with, borne, at least for a little while,” she said, with difficulty – Alses and Ayda hadn't exactly had a lengthy dialogue on the way to Lena's house, after all “If the need is great – and we consider the deaths of two of our undying kind reason enough.”
A pause, enough to let that sink in, and in that pause a thought, a memory from poor Arture and how he'd described the vultures, circling and worrying at him before plunging in for the kill, drifted to the top of her mind. “If we might ask...did you notice anyone – or anything – unusual around your garden and home? Odd presences, people, movement when and where there shouldn't have been any?” She grinned, suddenly.
“We suppose everyone who's badgered you before us asked much the same questions. On that basis, therefore: Is there anything you've perhaps thought, in hindsight, you should have mentioned to your previous callers, but didn't?” It sounded a little accusative, hanging in the air like that, which was decidedly not her intention, so she hurriedly added: “For whatever reason,” in what she hoped were mollifying tones. “Fatigue, anger, sorrow.” The last came out almost as a whisper, an inexplicable lump in her throat doing its level best to choke her words. A great deal rode on tone and expression, Alses was learning, and Illia was on a knife-edge; a misplaced word, even a misplaced inflection, might ruin the whole tenuous affair. Alses hoped – fervently – she hadn't made yet another faux pas in her questioning – there was so much still to learn about even the simplest of conversations, and still more about something as...as fraught, as charged, as this.