Clyde looked at Amelia, fear and anger and other emotions clear on her face. But fear seemed the most prominent. She was averting her gaze, not even looking him directly in the eyes. At her last words, "please don't be angry with you", he simply shook his head, and looked away again. "Make sure that you do. And I am not just angry at you for no reason, it is as much for your sake, as for my own. For the same reason I am limiting the amount of magic you can do. And beyond that... I am disappointed in you..." Clyde turned back to look at the girl, his face once more passive, calm, his breathing steadied and even. "You know, you are not my first student. Nor are you my first apprentice. I have had many of the first, and one of the latter. And each time when one ignored my orders, skipped a part, thought they knew better than my directions... Almost every time, they paid for it. Perhaps not right away, but eventually it came back to them. I am hard on you now, when it does not matter, so that when it does, such things will be second nature, and I will be able to trust you. So that when my own life, or yours, depends upon you listening and following my orders exactly... I will know, and you will know, that you will do what needs to be done and do it correctly." Clyde paused, walking back over to the desk, looking it over. Taking a quill and preparing it with ink, he quickly drew a focus on each hand, and one on his forehead. It was a circle, but with four tiny dashes coming out of it equally spaced, with none of the lines of the dashes inside the circle. It was more or less his common Glyphs when he did Auristics. He spoke once more, in an offhand way, almost as if he was talking about the weather. But it would clearly mean more to Clyde than that, and he did not meet Amelia's gaze as he spoke. "My first apprentice, and last before you, died. It was not pretty. It was a mess. There was hardly enough left to tell it was him... We got called off on a mission, to Syliras... On the way there, we were attacked by a horde of yukman. Massive, untold numbers. Myself and my apprentice, were away from the main group, separated." "I fought with all my might, bringing the very earth to life to fight our foes, ripping it asunder, throwing it at them, skewering them, crushing them, smashing them, killing yukman as fast as I could. I must have killed... Dozens? Hundreds?... I don't know, I lost count soon enough. It was a untold many, quite a good chunk of the entire horde, by myself. I had told Gallo to stay close. And when I knew we were to be overrun despite my actions, even with all I did, I said to run, and to stay with me and close. At some point though... I lost him. Or he lost me... Fell behind." "I survived, but when we found him later... Or what was left of him... I could not help thinking, what if he had just listened? What if... What if?... But he was dead, and I was alive." Clyde paused for about a chime or two, and then turned back to Amelia, his face cold and neutral. "Alright. I want you to prepare another small ball of res, the size of a marble or so. Then I want you to attract water to it, a decent bit, and hold it at head level. Without adding any more res to reinforce it. Keep holding it up, concentrating on it, until your res gives out, or the water falls. Even if it takes bells." |