He hated Anatoli Armiger, but he didn't think the fallen knight could coax and cajole a living ladder to bring him up out of the abyss, and anyway, the guards would kill those who attempted an escape. But he wanted so much to go down there and wipe that smile off the dead man's face, that smirk, that holier-than-thou-e'en-from-hell, that insufferable arrogance. Perhaps he didn't understand that he was projecting. Twelve years of lies could build a tower with no windows, no doors. Toli spoke, but he did not know Gracen's life. He did not know what had transpired after his transportation to Hai. The scandal. The shame. The exile. As if he could just go home. As if it were that easy. 'Stay, Toli,' he wanted to say. 'Stay.' But he liked to think that his cruelty was less peurile than that. There wasn't going to be a redemption no matter how many traitors he killed. He realized that now, though he would deceive himself again as soon as he walked out into the Eyktolian desert once more, or by the time he reached Ahnatep. Eventually, he would believe the lie again. That he wasn't damned. It would be a relief then, one day, to fall into Toli's hateful arms, to slip a dagger between his ribs even as Toli's found his heart. Surely Dira would let a man sleep a while in sweet oblivion before forcing him back into life, kicking and screaming with all the wise distress of a newborn child. He merely nodded, not wanting to show how tired he was. And then, before turning to go, he reached into his pocket for a hunk of dry bred, dessicated by his travel on the waterless desert. He tossed it down to the gates of Hai for the sick pleasure of watching Anatoli Armiger scrabble in the dust for it. There would be some satisfaction in that. He would have his satisfaction, and then he would go. Glory be. |

