Now, I am not going to rant about the trashcan. Or privacy, or where certain old sentiments are brought into play as a shielding for being wrong.
Nope. not right now.
Right now, I am in a gushing mode.
Everyone has them when you have a concept so exciting, an idea so consuming, that it takes possession of your heart if not your muse and you cannot but wait to get your thoughts and plan upon paper. Amirah is defiantly that project for me, it might have to do of trying to wait a month to put her into play and in that time having (and taking) multiple opportunities to tweak, rewrite, and recreate someone i wanted to play. In honesty I cannot even recall my original concept, but i think I wanted to pretty much write of the miseries and trials a child had to face in the contrast of the eloquent young lady she had become.
All i suppose in a way to justify some surely not nice actions as revenge years over due is visited back upon not nice people of her past.
This sounds noble or at least understandable no? I believe most good villians come from understandable backgrounds that if looked at early on make you sympathize with the villian's plight. Case in point: Magneto, Harvey Dent. Those two are believe able to me, they were damaged so fully, that their actions make sense, none of this out of no where evil badness. But it might just be me for my love of stories, and support in them.
But as I was making my first post of Amirah, a flashback of her reaching Riverfall, it was so much fun to capture her innocence still. Her worry, and even battles with her own self doubt. Despite the end image i have of her a self assured, confidant woman, who finally knows the value of herself, and has or is on the road to gathering her own power I had to sit there and think a bit of what I've been debating and hearing lately the more and more excited i get and more often i speak of her.
She's perhaps not the villain I intended when i originally decided to make her a tortured soul, but I like her, she has potential again, to be so much. To build so much, and then decide in the end, who she is herself, and who she wants to be.