. . . . I'm a little pissed off at this I must admit. I thought it be best to get it out with righting so here I am...doing my thing.

I've lately been attempting to find a theme song for my character Banir Ironwood. I say attempting because I've yet to be successful so I'm kinda pissed. Banir is bloody hard for me to figure out. See most songs, and people, stick with a theme. Banir however has a few problems with themes, one he doesn't have much of one. Two he's got more depth than most characters I've made till now. Banir isn't a depressed kinda guy, he's actually really nice, kind, caring and gentle. But he's got a past that has made him as dangerous as he appears to be despite being more of a gentle giant kinda guy. When certain points involving his past art brought up.... well to say the s**t hits the fan is a good description.

Going from nice and peaceful to a f**king almost unstoppable monster hell bent on destroying anything before it. IE: Berserk. And because of these two elements, which can and usually mix. Its hard to find a song that suits the brutish son of a b***h. Cause if it sounds too depressing it won't work, if its too filled with rage and power, it won't work. It kinda has me walking with my hands tied to my feet...and I'm bent over backwards. What I need is a song that starts out slow, upbeat and cool and maybe gets a little power near the end with tints of rage. Mind you its not too hard to find but then the f**king lyrics don't match and its alllllll the way back to square one. I swear my ears will bleed by the end of this, but for now I shall do as they did in Pirates! (Lame I know but you think of a better analogy) Fight! To runaway, to fight later~!

Or...something like that...





Run away!

For those of you, if there is any, who are reading this you may notice that my profile pictures kinda suck. Well dearest reader allow me to explain why. I draw my own pictures but there is a small catch. I'm not all that good, I try to get more into realism but it ends up looking like....well if a cartoonist, manga drawer, and realist had a child. It would look like my drawings. When I was very young my first grade teacher basically forced anime down our throats. But in contrast to this my mother was naturally talented in drawing realism. So I learned from both ends but I don't have a real middle ground. And since anime is easier to draw (sometimes) I do that more often than not. I kinda suck at that too so yeah. But I am kinda happy about how it turned out. At least it doesn't look as bad as my last one.

Anyway moving on. I'm thinking about asking someone else to draw the picture of Banir. I personally have this image of him with his hood down standing so that he's on an angle. His head looking off to the right with his dirty green coat moving in the wind and with a bit of snow falling. That would look SO epic! I might even attempt to draw that if I don't fall flat on my face about it.

Good afternoon whomever reads this!

I've read through a much of Mizhar, why people are here, what their doing. The devastating history of Mizhar, the struggles of people, personal and physical alike. For those of you who know or have ever heard of Rise Against then many know some of their songs often have a similar portrayal of the theme of Mizhar. The song I've personally found to match this quite well is Prayer of the Refugee, its lyrics are quite accurate in its theme, if you don't believe me then here have a go!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PD_rWVTd0mk

Lyrics for those who do not wish to listen:
Warm yourself by the fire, son,
And the morning will come soon.
I'll tell you stories of a better time,
In a place that we once knew.

Before we packed our bags
And left all this behind us in the dust,
We had a place that we could call home,
And a life no one could touch.

Don't hold me up now,
I can stand my own ground,
I don't need your help now,
You won´t let me down, down, down!
Don't hold me up now,
I can stand my own ground,
I don't need your help now,
You won´t let me down, down, down!Down!

We are the angry and the desperate,
The hungry, and the cold,
We are the ones who kept quiet,
And always did what we were told.

But we've been sweating while you slept so calm,
In the safety of your home.
We've been pulling out the nails that hold up
Everything you've known.

Don't hold me up now,
I can stand my own ground,
I don't need your help now,
You won´t let me down, down, down!
Don't hold me up now,
I can stand my own ground,
I don't need your help now,
You won´t let me down, down, down!

So open your eyes child,
Let's be on our way.
Broken windows and ashes
Are guiding the way.
Keep quiet no longer,
We'll sing through the day,
Of the lives that we've lost,
And the lives we've reclaimed.
GO !

Don't hold me up now,
I can stand my ...

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