(This was written earlier today which is why I didn't mention the news about Malia.)

So, I need something to get me posting, because otherwise I’ll be sitting here the rest of the weekend, playing around with fonts and backgrounds and not writing a single word at all. So I figured: what’s better for getting into posting mood than blogging? Since there is nothing going on irl, I have enough time to think about my characters, my activity and where I want to go with them.

The “top 30 word counts” has actually impressed me more than it should have. While it means that I’ve already achieved great things, it also reminds me of how much I could achieve if I were just a little bit more active and dedicated. I know that it’s possible. I just need to find out that one “trick” that makes people just write and write and write without thinking.

Tricks … my character Avayra is about tricks. I don’t know her very well yet, but that’s going to change soon. I have plans for her, big plans. After all, she already IS the creator of the powerful, as it states in her title. She will become a famous magician; that much is sure. But one cannot be just a magician and nothing else – these people will either commit suicide or be killed by some strange experiment. No, she has to discover some other obsessions. I’d love to see her as a follower of Nysel, but I think it’s still a bit too early for her to discover that. She needs to settle in Syliras and do some productive work first. I guess she’ll have a hard time establishing a daily life, because she loves surprises and suspense. A little rebel, that’s what I had in mind when I created her. She will be unique when I develop her further. I’m really looking forward to it, but at the moment I just have to concentrate on finding a voice in my posts that suits her.

Well, just a few plans I like to play around with: She’s currently aiming for work at the Inner Sanctum, but I could also see her as apprentice at the Inner Fire or the Tooth and Claw. She likes her horse. I’m afraid I should research a bit about horses. The knowledge I gathered through a teenie phase is rather rusty … although she won’t be an animal person first and foremost. She’d also love the beautiful effects glass can make in the sunlight, but a glassblowing job is hard work. I’m not sure whether she can do that. But a few xp here and there can’t be that bad, right?

Then there’s Malia. Obviously she is the more introverted type. She won’t become famous for what she does, not even if she ever takes on Animation. I want her to do some research about the Nuit and their creation, and I want to establish a stable relationship with Tanroa. Every time Jen posts to her thread I’m like ‘Yay, what surprise did she come up with this time?’ … And I’m really looking forward to discovering the secret of Treavery. Apart from that there’s not really much going on with her. The chat group thinks that she’ll fall in love with Stitch or already has, but I rather imagine her running off than starting to flirt with him. She’s ignorant at heart. Nothing touches her, nothing really moves her. Even if there was something that would surprise or shock her that much, she would still feel the inner barrier between the dead and the living – or she would get all suspicious and frightened and flee as fast as possible. That’s how I constructed her (out of ingredients like Anne Rice, gothic lolitas, philosophic short stories and the like). I’m pretty sure that she likes being with the kids and teaching her knowledge and wisdom, but that’s no real obsession for her. Rather a hobby, a favorite pastime. At the nights she returns to her empty apartment, stares out of the window and thinks her dark thoughts about life and death and sense. Sooner or later she will move on, visit other cities, do something different. I can see her gathering further knowledge, improving her skill set and adventuring at Sahova, perhaps even visiting Ravok and experience something really exciting. The atmosphere would so enchant her.

To be exact, I just love to have enough time to breathe, to stretch my wings and come up with new, exciting things I could do with my characters. Bringing color and life in my character sheets is a part of that. Reanimation process. My brain needs something creative to do to recharge its batteries, now that it’s all dried out from three weeks of constant studying and pressure. I love this phase. I love having time. I love not having to think about the next test. I love having at least two weeks of relaxation from now on. I love life how it is now: When I’m able to breathe, adore the winter wonder land through the window and imagine what I could do.

Everything is possible now. I just have to stretch my wings, start flying and never ever stop, regardless of what will happen next.