It is odd how luck can determine your actions.

I believe that there is no such thing as luck or bad luck; instead we and our thoughts are the ones shaping the world around us. Sometimes I watch the happenings unfold, though, and ask myself why here and now? What is so special about this day?

Recently activity as Malia has stagnated a bit. She has a bunch of threads from last season, but all of those are moving quite slowly. I’m grateful because I can play with awesome writers in exchange of a little waiting time, but it gives me nothing to do. I take fluid time a lot more seriously than I used to some time ago. I guess the future psychologist shows through here. Everything that happens in threads is an important part of the character’s individual development. Continuing the new season without knowing where the threads from last season will go might result in posts that do not seem to follow the rules of fluid time in a realistic way.

For example, Malia’s first thread was an encounter with Tanroa at the temple. The thread took several months to finish. Meanwhile I wrote in other threads that were dated later. So, when I finished the Tanroa thread, I suddenly found Malia with a purpose and a mission I had never mentioned in the threads afterwards! Back then I didn’t mind, but I don’t want that to happen again. It’s kind of ridiculous.

So, Malia is pretty much blocked apart from some training I can and want to do regardless.

And like a river carving out a new bed when the old one is no longer available, my creativity redirects itself towards a different character ... I find myself dusting off Aselia and prettifying her CS. I think it’s the third comeback she has now ... but I don’t mind. As long as I have fun, I absolutely don’t mind.

This is exactly the situation that usually causes me to think: Why do I mind the rest of my time? I guess the mere fact that I have that thought proves that I’m slowly getting better at ‘not minding’. Which is good.

Aselia is intriguing to me. I can’t really figure her out. Perhaps it is so hard to play her because she is designed like that. Malia is the reasonable and down-to-earth part of me, whereas Aselia is all intuition and secret. She frequently does things on a whim. She sings whatever she wants and goes whatever she wants and makes love to whomever she wants. Yes, her love life is quite interesting, but I won’t reveal too much here ...

I like her. After thinking about her motivations and goals, the things in her life that stay, I have found out as much. I really look forward to playing her again, and I’m curious about the outcome of her new threads. There are so many awesome writers out there; I could never have a thread with all of them.

Aselia is also practical in many ways, and more prone to simply speak up and start a conversation with total strangers. That’s why she is easier to have social threads with and really write with all the people I have wanted a thread with forever. I have the feeling she will once again leave Syliras and be a wandering character. There’s so much to see!

You see, she has earned a respectable sum so far. It might even be enough to settle, open a small bird farm and train birds of prey for the rest of her life. But that simply isn’t her, no matter how I twist and turn it.

I just hope that her money doesn’t get stolen on her travels, haha. (And no, that was NO invitation to the mods! Evil Plots (tm) excluding financial surprises for me, please.)