Better left forgotten

[Thylia-Zaphyr]

80th of Summer 512 AV A flash of green then a blaze of red flaring up around her, engulfing her. A stone wall built up around her, protecting her, fooling her. 'It'll be okay,' Gentle whispering in her ears but she knows they are lies, nothing will ever be okay, not again, not ever. She shakes her head vigorously, whipping her around from side to side, squeezing her eyes tightly to shut out the world around her. 'No,' She tries to say but not a sound escapes her tightly sealed lips. Her mind screaming but she suppresses it with a force of will, emotions will only hurt, better not to feel, a void of numbness is better than the pain that will eventually come. She screams as a burning sensation grabs her spine. Her eyes are forced open and a blinding light surrounds her leaving only green fields, but the smell of burning flesh fills her nostrils. The feeling of flames licking her back will not fade, making every breath an agony, a torture. It stops as a hand touches her own, she flinches but cannot pull away. Her eyes widen and her mouth opens in wordless fear. It is like looking into a mirror for she only sees herself, the same brown hair, the same tanned skin but those eyes are hurting with uncontrolled agony and anger. 'No,' She yells trying to close eyes and pull her hand away from the grasp of her image. Her unresponsive body stays still and she is forced to confront what she has hidden for so long. Why? She tries to question as if thinking will give her the answer. What is this? What am I seeing? Deep inside a faint flicker of realization is smothered immediately, she will not let herself remember, she isn't ready to remember what she tried so hard to forget. A faint smile appears on the face that looks just like her own, but it isn't her smile, it is a cruel smile. A smile that wants to kill, wants blood, a smile that is the mark of a monster. She struggles even harder but her body is no longer her's to control. She shouts a word that she didn't even think the new. The cruel smile of the other contorts into a grimace and the eyes become raging flames as the fire appears again but this time in her mind as well. 'You will remember, you will not be able to keep ignorant forever.' Says the other before everything vanishes to nothing. Not just a whiteness of nothing but as in the absence of existence, a welcome bliss to the pain that had bound her moments before.