First of Fall 512 AV Noon Continued
Gin was now very worried, for now, they were sitting in an uncomfortable silence as she tried to draw up anything from memory, anything at all that she could sing. Because she truely did not want to sing something completely knew to a crowd that barely knew her. But even if she sang something she knew, they most likely would not know it.
That is when it hit her. If she made it up on the spot, it would be hard for them to know she had messed up. Though things might sound a little out of tune at times. They would just think it was adding to the mood of the song. Plus she was not a professional songstress by any means, so she felt it was good that she came here for work. It would make her work for her pride as a musician. Plus it would help her get known as a musician. Though it conflicted with her feelings about other things. She knew the more confidence she built in herself through music, the more she would be fine knowing that people actually knew her.
Sometimes, she would see people who had seen her when she first came here, when she would have psycological break downs. That was when her days got bad. When people would look at her and start gossiping about her beginnings here. Though they did not know the whole story, they would tell it anyway. Mix their words. Sometimes she just wanted to allow herself to get angry at them. But she refused to let them unleash her feral side. She was going to be different, but in a good way.
She had been told more than once, once a person found out that she was kelvic, that she was weird. Normally her answer would just be a shrug and they would continue on to say things like "Kelvic's are more feral in nature", and "they seem so unaware of the if's and how's of society", and Gin would just look at them and smile. Saying something like, "Well everyone is different. Even if they seem the same, they are always different."
She pause in her thoughts, which only took moments in reality and looked to the crowd. They did not seem to have anything in particular they wanted to hear, they just wanted her to play, wanted to see what she could do. To this she smiled. They had an intrest in her, wanted to know her, or well try to know her, through her hard earned talent. What little of it she had. She nodded and stretched her fingers. This was it, she had to do it now while she was raring to go. Feeling their anticipation as her fingers got closer and closer to the strings.
She strumed a glissando, up and down her strings at the same time, creating an ethereal effect to start her off. And she picked just one note, different pitches and alternated between them. Just for now she thought. And even though she did not like the way that the words in her head particularly came together. She decided that it would have to be good enough. Her voice pierced through what was left of the mumblings of the crowd around her.
"The soul would have no rainbows had the eyes no tears, for every little boy and girl has their own great fears. With each step I can feel colors surge though me, as the tell me their various, dangerous stories. You don't understand the true value of these tales."
She certainly had their attention, and though some of the notes she hit colided badly with the notes she played on her string, or with her vocal cords, they seemed to at least like it. So she decided to continue. She changed up the notes she was playing, she was now playing two different notes, two pitches each. But in the same rythum, not that she did not hit other strings on accident. It was inevitable. She was thinking of what to sing next, how to pull together another verse when someone rudely yelled for her to get on with it. She held back her glare, but Faren did not, and the guy instantly shut his mouth and sat back down in his seat. She had kept playing through the whole thing and was proud of herself for barely losing any concentration.
When she started up again, she fumbled a little bit, not hitting the exact right pitches that she wanted to hit. Decorating her vocal part with some sliding. She decided to give each color a story to tell. Hoping the people would like it. Though the first line she lied a little bit about what it really told her. But she could not talk about blood in such a beautiful, and peaceful song. It would just be wrong.
"The color red tells me stories of true love and lust, while orange babbles on about the good and just. I hear yellow tell stories of its strange little discoveries, while green spoke of its love for all things living. The colors blend together to create stories anew."
She was gaining a bit more confidence, getting louder with each knew line, she was loving it. Each note that came out from her harp seemed more melodious. And she started playing four and five string glissando's to at a little bit more texture to the song. She was just going with the flow of what her heart and mind told her to do. After letting a little of an instrumental take place so she could think of what to sing next, she opened her mouth and continued to piece together the song.
"I listen as blue sings me its sad lullabies, and indigo rambles on about deep lies. Violet's whisper in my ear is always about loyalty, and as I take in all these things, I let go. By connecting the dots, I know their stories are about me."
She was trying to make the song sound personal, let them believe that this was really how she thought everyday. Letting herself go as she sang. Though it still did not sound exactly right in her mind, she knew all they wanted was something pretty to listen to, and it seemed that they were happy with what they were getting while they drank their ale.
"For their communication to me is special in every way, I trust myself to hear their calls everyday. For I love the colors that so bravely tell me their stories, and I let them know that they are important, by shedding my tears just for them."
As she finished she let her fingers make the strings of her harp sound like they were tappering off. And for another long while there was an awkard silence. Though it was slightly different from before. They all were in awe, though she did not know why, and that is when the clapping started. The sound of chairs scooting back as people stood up, it made her laugh a little inside. There was no way she had earned a standing ovation, plus half these people were drunk anyways. Most of them would probably find most anything pleasing to the ears.
But when she looked at Faren, she could not find an excuse for the look he was giving her. He was amazed and proud at the same time. It was strange, why would he be proud. But he was, and he was standing and clapping too.
"Good job Gin. Yep, you deffinately can stay here, and though you may need to brush up here and there, and deffinately gain more confidence, I am sure that you will become part of the team easily. Keep on playin', they like you for sure."
Gin nodded as he patted her on the shoulder and left the area. She smiled at his back as he walked away. Maybe she could do this after all. Make a living off of something she truely loved. She looked at her harp as the people continued to applaud needlessly. |