She was doing it again, a voice rang within her head that perhaps she was going a few steps too far, a voice which had not showed itself when she hurt Zandelia. Had said terrible things to the purple hair mercenary, had shouted at Ximal to go away, and here she was doing it again- this time to a stranger she didn't even know. The voice decided to come out now and make itself known, imploring her to think her words through, before saying them and pondering the impact they would have on the person. Agonizing pain coursed through her skull as a pressure squeezed itself around her temples, this was a stranger, and she was getting all choked up about hurting him... What was wrong with her? She could do it to her friends... But now she had grown a conscience all of a sudden over a stupid, foolish Eypharian?
Bringing up a hand to rub her forehead and tilt her head inwards somewhat, inhaling deep breaths as she rolled her fingers into the pressure points known as her temples, and inbetween her eyes. Earlier in the season it had been because of her own selfish stupidity that got her into this mess, and it was arrogance now that was pushing her to spew spiteful things to the Eypharian. Her head snapped up when he admitted he was a fool, and that what she had said was true- honestly, Ana didn't even know what she was saying was real or not. It had been mere attempts to pull his chain, and see what reaction she could get out of him. It did occur to her that perhaps there were exceptions to the rule, and that Nasrin had just displayed a very poor example of her people. What was Ana suppose to do, or think? Apologize? He did.
How was she suppose to react to that? Him, apologizing to...her... It should have been the other way around. It wasn't him that was insulting her. What was it with people that took the blame, even if it was not their fault... It infuriated her. "Shuddup" Ana hissed, attempting to take a commanding tone and slightly failing "just... sit... This is a bath, I didn't come here to converse with people....so...just...relax, okay?" The hand that still had itself near her face went to cover her eyes, she sank lower into the water despite her mind sending her body signals not to go any further. Ana had probably just told him to relax as a way to outwardly tell herself to relax, there was too much stress, all pent up inside; and it didn't help that she couldn't talk to Zandelia without fear of hurting her again. Couldn't go to Ximal...She was afraid of his opinion.
Like a qauke, her shoulders shuddered as she held back tears, and sobbing in front of the stupid Eypharian. How dare he. As if Lhex decided to torture her some more, another voice entered the fray that made her snap with the overly happy attitude. Her anger, and hatred for the Symenstra rolled off her body in waves, a tightening to her chest as she let her hand slide down slowly to cover her mouth. Glaring up at him coldly, her hand gripped the bath wall- she couldn't take it anymore... At first she wanted to say every nasty thing she could, her chest would heave with the effort to remain calm as she kept her mouth clamped tightly shut. Ana had to get out of there, just had to as she coldly glared up at the Sym, standing as she would speak "why don't you try this Eypharian? He's certainly looking for friends... Why you would ever want to be mine, I've no clue, so you can go petch yourself.."
Her voice had started frigidly clear, and calm, but became a harsh whisper hissed out in venomnous anger. Ana began to wade away from the two, the bath had only made her more tense, more stressed, and more... Emotional... Chaotic... It was as if the dams to her personality had been cut up, torn asunder, and thrown loose to the wind to be taken whichever way possible. Anger and sadness being the two most prominent emotions that showed up, along side her condescending attitude. Her body was mechanical and moved on its own, she hefted herself up out of the water and made for the changing rooms.. She would leave this place, public baths, pah! Ana couldn't see what was so great about them.
oocI think this is where I leave, unless someone goes after me. You two can continue by yourselves if you wish. Or start a new thread continued from this one. >.> |
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