The Mark of Death
Anthoni woke to the sound of thunder cracking, hard rain drummed against the wooden roof of his family home. He rubbed the sleep from his eyes and used his forearms to prop himself up. The dirt floor brushed across his skin. Erica, his mother, rested on their straw bed with Keiyara pressed tightly against her. The sound of soft snoring brought a sad smile to Anthoni’s face but he pushed the thought out of his mind. Rising to his feet he began to quietly brush the dirt off of himself. He walked to the corner where he kept his clothes allowing the moonlight which pierced through the poorly built home to guide him. The young man began to dress in his usual attire, plain colored robes, thick pants and socks which were riddled with holes.
He then walked over to the bed where his boots were placed underneath. Kneeling down beside the two sleeping women he collected them and began to put them on. His baby sister shifted in her sleep and nestled closer against her mother's breasts. Another loud roar of thunder and Anthoni locked eyes with Erica. He could see her pupils darting across his face, soaking in his look. She was awake as well it seemed but neither of the two said nothing to each other. Words alone wouldn’t do justice to their situation. After putting on his boots he moved to the table, all the while feeling his mother’s gaze upon him. He collected his dagger and sheath, heard Erica let out a longsigh, then tucked the blade to his belt. Looking over his shoulder he saw his mom’s head leaning up staring back at him, brushing Keiyara’s curly blonde hair.
He began to walk towards the door when he heard his mother's voice over the sound of the storm outside. “Anthoni,” she whispered to him “I’m sorry son.” It was a simple statement yet Anthoni’s heart momentarily ceased beating. He couldn’t find the words so silence lingered a few moments longer than it should have, until his mother broke it. “I hear Dira calling me, she comes to me in my dreams now. She tells me it’s okay.” Anthoni looked at his mother and saw tears falling down her cheeks, she kissed Keiyara’s head gently before she looked back up at her first born. “Say something Anthoni, please, for me.”
“Like what?” He asked her, unable to meet his mothers eyes “what’s there to say?” He bit his tongue hard and didn’t stop biting until he tasted blood. “It ain’t fair Ma, none of it’s fair. I hate her,” he said as he tried in vain to stop the tears falling from his own eyes. “I do, her and Kihala both. Why do they allow this? This ache I feel constantly inside me. Do they not care or are we just playthings for their amusement? Something to laugh at as they look down at us and see what we’ve become. This city is nothing but a big joke” he jabbed pointedly, and as soon as the words escaped his lips thunder roared. As if the divine themselves were listening which Anthoni could care less if they heard what he had to say. He was being true, “and it ain’t a funny one. Not at all.”
He quickly wiped the tears from his eyes before finally returning his mothers gaze. He desperately wanted Erika to stay, to help him through this but over the past few days she acted like she wanted this to be the end. She’d reached her limit, held out for as long as she could and hungered to meet Dira. Which Anthoni resented but never could work up the courage to tell her. She was in pain, doing her best to hide it but Anthoni could see it in her eyes. The healer had said she didn’t have much longer, the sickness was eating up her insides, killing her slow. Keiyara told him yesterday that she caught her coughing up blood. His sister didn’t know the half of it, he could see her still holding onto hope and Anthoni nor Erica had the heart to tell her. How could they?
“Promise me something son,” his mother's voice snapped him back into reality. “When I’m gone-”
“Ma, don’t do this.” He pleaded to her, his voice breaking and pouring forth the emotion he tried to hold back for so long. Erica visibly flinched at his words.
“Don’t interrupt me boy, not now.” She waited before she continued allowing a long pause to settle the tension. “When I’m gone promise you’ll take care of your sister, don’t send her to that Orphanage in the sunset quarter.” She looked down to the dirt floor, Anthoni could tell she was reliving memories she couldn’t bury. “I also want you to grow old son, your so good, so good and deserve more than what you were given. More than what I could give you. But I know your strong,” he could see a smile on her face as she finished “don’t let this city take that from you.”
“Is there anything else?” His voice soft, almost drowned out by the storm.
“There is,” his mother said to him as she sank back into the small bed, curling herself around Keiyara’s delicate frame. “Please don’t hate me.” The two didn’t look at each other again. All was said and anything more would be wasted breath. Anthoni pulled his hood over his head then reached for the door. He couldn’t be there, refused to be there. The storm caught the door and swung it open for him, the rain landed hard and flashes of lightning painted the Sunberth skyline.
“I promise,” then with a heavy step Anthoni walked out into the night. He had no place to go, no distance could outweigh his thoughts. The rain hid his tears from him, he didn’t want to admit it, not even to himself. He walked and walked and walked allowing the storm wash him clean, perhaps fix him, or drown him, yet nothing could. He welcomed the sound of thunder momentarily abducting his attention, his drifting mind. Keiyara’s face crept into his mind's eye, how could he explain this to her? What would he say? What could he say to her? Suddenly his bones turned to ice and he couldn’t make another step forward. His heart began to beat violently in his chest, blood rushing to his ears and he barely fought back the urge to scream up towards the heavens.
Anthoni spun around on his heels and ran faster than he ever thought he could. The rain blinded his vision, forcing him to hold his hand over his eyes. The storm winds made it hard to breathe and with the light of each lightning strike Anthoni found his way back home. The door was just barely ajar, drifting open and closed with every stray breeze. He stood outside for a long while, unable to make the single step inside. He lowered his hood and his teeth began to chatter, the cold only just now becoming evident to him. A long exhale then he ran his hand across the wooden door and pushed it open.
He looked immediately towards the bed and saw the two of them. Keiyara’s arm wrapped around the waist of her mother, still sleeping through the storm. Erica lay facing up, her eyes still open and a candle freshly lit on the table next to the bed. The light of the fire wicked in and out, blowing every which way the breeze sent it. He could see his mother's arm dangling off the bed, her hand clenched tightly to a small vile Anthoni had stolen for her the night before. He had no more tears left in him, but nonetheless he sank to his knees and crawled to her bedside. He leaned up against the table with the candle and took the vile from his mother's hand. He twirled it in his fingers, there was but one drop left at the bottom. He’d heard the poison was painless, one would fall asleep, drift off into their dreams, then never wake again. Anthoni made a silent prayer to Dira for his mother's sake asking the goddess to guide her to the afterlife. Hoping his mother truly did hear Dira calling to her.
“You did a brave thing Anthoni, few would have carried the same burden.”
His head jerked up to where he thought the voice came from and his mouth opened in astonishment. Sitting on the wooden chair in the corner was a woman unlike any he’d seen before. A silk dress blanketed her as dark as a starless night sky. Her pale skin was a stark contrast and long brown hair dangled to her waist line. However it was her golden eyes Anthoni couldn’t look away from as they burned through him like an unforgiving summer sun.
“Tell me child, why did you do it?”
He didn’t know what to say,
could it really be Dira?“Of course it’s me you fool, now speak.” He pressed his back harder against the table but escaping was not an option. “It’s a simple question, why did you steal the poison for your mother?” Anthoni looked over to the bed beside him, Keiyara still sleeping and his mother lay lifeless. He answered the goddess with the truth, unable to look away from his dead mother.
“She was in pain,” he said as he twisted the vial around in his hands. “She told me she couldn’t bare another day.” Gently Anthoni moved his dangling mothers arm onto the bed. “And I didn’t want her to.” Anthoni looked back at the goddess who was smiling now. She rose to her feet and slowly walked towards him.
“Death comes for all,” she whispered “some welcome it, others fight it to the bitter end.” Anthoni’s gaze tracked the goddesses movements as she spoke, all the way up until she towered above his sitting frame. He couldn’t help but look at the dirt he sat on, no longer able to return her gaze. Dira leaned down and took his hand in hers then relieved him of the vial. A sigh escaped his lips before she continued. “Death is everywhere, inherent in everyone Anthoni.”
“I know,” he said, his head tilting up and looking at her once again.
“Which is why I mark you child,” the goddess leaned in close and cold lips kissed the back of his right hand. “Continue to carry the burden Anthoni, embrace it, for one day i’ll come for you.”
She then rose to her feet still holding Anthoni’s hand and together they rose from the ground. When he pulled his hand free from her grasp Anthoni found a black tattoo which wrapped around to the palm of his hand where a scythe rested. He followed her to the door which she opened with the flick of her palm, the storm still raging outside. A flash of lightning illuminated two figures which stood unmoving outside. A solid black jackel and a pure white one and Anthoni’s heart stopped when he saw the ghostly figure of his mother standing between them. A sad smile formed on Erica’s face, Anthoni unable to look away. He thought she mouthed the words
thank you.
“Hopefully we will meet again Anthoni,” the goddess spoke over the rain “until then.” Another flash of lightning and they were gone. The door slammed in his face, he looked down at his tattoo, then over to the bed. The corpse of his mother and his sister Keiyara still lay there...
A long silence before he knew what he had to say.
“Keiyara.”