Unpredicted Discussions (Sera)

by **Nica** on January 2nd, 2012, 3:27 am

Winter 21 511

Nica, sitting on a sitting rock near her home, stared at the icicles hanging on the branches of the trees. She couldn't stay inside her room anymore. She felt like she was going to suffocate in there. Her eyes were slightly red from lack of sleep. Her dreams were haunted of that mysterious white woman. At every end of her dream, she would find herself falling forward, and waking up in a fright.

Nica was tired of thinking and needed to get her feelings and what she saw out in the open. But to who? Who will listen to her without thinking she was being seen as delirious? Then it hit her. Her sister. Sera.

Nica suddenly stood up and looked around to see if she could find her there.

by **Sera** on January 2nd, 2012, 3:50 am

As if Sera had been summoned, she suddenly appeared from behind the tree, jumping forward as she did. "Hey Nica!" She yelled and ran towards her sister excitedly. The girl wrapped her arms around her and squeezed. "You're finally out and about. I'm happy." Okay, so she was a bit psyched. But her sister and her had not been on good terms lately, or rather ever since their little argument from before. Even their parents had gotten involved when Sera told them about what triggered the attack her sister had. So it was a talk, a horrible conversation about leaving.

The Vantha girl stepped back, grabbing her sister’s hands and held them, looking her in the eyes. Sera knew her sister better than anyone; It was proved time and again. No matter what happened, Nica would always be her sister. She knew that. So no matter what happened, she’d help her. Even if it led to her death. Family was family.

She pulled her sister back to the rock and leaned against it. “So, you ready to talk yet?” She asked in her sing-song voice, folding her arms in front of her chest. Her hair was up in pigtails, hanging down in a large thick curl. She looked so young with this hairstyle, but at the same time she looked so proud, so sure of herself. All she was thinking was her sister owed her some really conversation. “So…?”

by **Nica** on January 2nd, 2012, 5:15 am

Nica took a deep breathe and turned to look at Sera's face. "Sera, I'm so sorry for hurting your feelings when I ran away. I just needed space. You know me. But with something so serious like leaving our home. I just freaked out."

Nica closed her eyes for a moment to hold in the tears. "I know I have been weird lately, but there have been quite a few things on my mind." Nica looked around to see if anyone would be close to enough to hear their conversation. Coast was clear.

"Sera, remember when I came back? Something happened. I guess I fainted. But there is more to that. When I was unconscious, I had this dream. I was by myself, and when I had closed my eyes, I was at a different place. It was very strange, Sera. I remember my heart racing. I found myself between a valley of hills, all covered in snow. I went to the top of one of them to see if any place looked familiar. Then..." Nica took another deep breathe. "Then I saw HER. I have no idea who she was or is. I never saw her before. She was pretty far away from me but it seem like she was watching me. I didn't know what to do. I thought about running away but I couldn't move. I saw her take off her hood and saw her lips moving. I couldn't hear anything though. Though she looked very calm and beautiful, I couldn't help but see her as someone very dangerous."

Nica slowly reached for Sera's hand and held it there for support.

"I remember leaning forward to see if I could read her lips but then I felt myself falling. Then I woke up in my bed. After that, my mind was being tortured by thoughts and unanswered questions. Then I realized that I needed someone to help me. Sera, you are the only one who might be able to help me. Will you?"

Nica closed her eyes and held her breathe for her sister's reaction and answer.

by **Sera** on January 3rd, 2012, 11:28 pm

As Nica started talking, Sera had to lean in closer as her sister was whispering. So, she was worried someone would hear her. Why? Was this a big secret? That was not like her sister at all. Sera looked around quietly, observing that no one was in listening distance. And she was talking about a... dream? Sera bit her lip. "Uh..." She began but stopped herself, realizing it was better to just let her sister vent. 'Is she really telling me about a dream... That's so... odd of her.' "Go on..." She urged and crossed her legs irritably. Sure, they needed to talk, but this wasn't what she was expecting. This wasn't what she was expecting at all. 'So she doesn't want to talk about me leaving?' The girl sighed and continued biting her lip until her sister was finished talking.

"Well..." She said in her normal sing-song voice, "First of all, I think you're the one bringing this on. Cause at first thought it sounds like Morwen, but I don't think she'd be dangerous. I really don't. She’s our Goddess afterall…" Sera sighed, yet again, her voice getting louder. "Sister, I think you've just stressed yourself to the limit." The girl got up and began walking in circles, trying to play out what her sister had said. If anything, she could come up with something to calm the poor girl's nerves, even if it was just an act. Sera didn't know anything about the meaning of dreams, but she could make something up. 'Should I just let her believe whatever?' She stopped and looked to the sky, noticing that fine flakes of snow were falling. “Morwen?” She whispered and felt as if it was time for both her and her sister to visit the temple, but she wouldn’t mention the idea to her sister until this conversation was over. AND if it was actually needed.

“Alright, enough!” She barked. “Nica, I’m not sure what you’re trying to get out of me but I will say that we were, indeed, arguing before your little… fainting act.” She sounded more annoyed than she actually was. “First of all, you make your dream sound as if you’re lost and saw… Well Morwen I assume, buuuuut, I have a distinct feeling that, that was brought on by our argument. It’s kind of a self-fulfilled prophecy? Perhaps. Was it that you wanted to create a reason for me to stay or was it that you needed a reason to make me question your sanity…? Or your health?”

Sure, her sister didn’t want Sera to leave. That was obvious from what had happened days earliar. And Sera made it clear that she didn’t want to bring her sister with. At least not until she “grew up” a bit and stopped being scared of doing stuff on her own. The sisters had so much in common, but were also polar opposites at the same time. In all reality, Sera was fed up with Nica’s antics.

Her whole life, she compared herself to her older sister. Nica was only a year older. Why did that cause such a difference? As Sera stared into Nica’s eyes, she remembered all that she could. Her sister was always there, always caring, but also always fearing. She had a sweet soul, kind and tender. She’d make a beautiful wife someday and would also be an amazing mother. Sera blinked, turning her eyes a deep blue. Her sister was so much like their mother, as she was like their father. Sera stepped forward and grabbed her sister’s hands once again, then pulled her off the rock to stand up.

“Nica, If you did dream of Morwen, why did you feel as if she was dangerous? That’s not right? And if it was someone else… Why did you…” The words got caught in her throat. Sera looked down, breaking eye contact. “Oh my goodness, Nica!” She finally cried out, “I’m not leaving you. At least not yet.” She folded her arms in front of her chest again. It was strange how bluntly honest she was around her sister. It was possible that was what made them so close. But it was also possible that was what made them so distant. Sera felt bad about the whole ordeal, the conversation they had, had, just days before. She felt sincerely horrible. “I’m so sorry about upsetting you.”

by **Nica** on January 4th, 2012, 6:00 am

Nica let her sister's words sink in. "Oh Sera, I'm sorry for all this. I didn't mean for this to happen. But I really think our conversation didn't caused my dream."

She looked up at the sky, "You might be right, it could have be Morwen that I saw in my dream. Maybe she needed to tell me something."

Nica put her hand under chin, she whispered to herself. "Should I visit the temple? Maybe I could find out what the Goddess wanted to tell me there."

Nica smiled sadly at her sister. "I'm sorry, for these past few days. I know I have been a pain to watch." She let out a soft laugh. "That dream that freaked me out, sis. I just didn't know what to make out of it." Nica reached to hold Sera's hand. Nica gave it a gentle squeeze. "I know that I should take care of my own thing on my own. I'm sorry for talking about my troubles with you. I guess I just needed to let it out."

Nica looked ahead of her. "You said that this is just an excuse to make you stay, but I promise you, it is not. I do not intend to make you stay. For the fainting, I do not know what cause it."

She took a deep breathe, "Sera, if you wish to travel, I will not stop you." Even though, I wished that I could accompany you. But having that dream, made me think that I should stay here. I might have things to do here. I know the Goddess will keep her safe.

"I am sorry that I put myself first and not thought about how my reactions affected you." Nica released Sera's hand. "I know I will be lonely without you here, but I will still have mom and dad. Just promise me that you will send letters or something that will let me know that you are okay."

She put her hand down and looked at Sera. "So...?" She waited to hear what Sera had to say.

by **Sera** on January 6th, 2012, 1:13 am

Sera couldn’t help but twitch at her sister’s words. The redundancy of her words upset her; all the repetition of the apologies, all the explanations. Everything. Sera always did her best to stay calm. She was usually very sincere but in a calm manner. Getting angry, or rather expressing it never did anything good. Sadly, Sera threw away these ideas. She hissed, actually hissed, before moving away from her sister, precisely three steps away from her. Her eyes had turned blood red with fury. But why was she so angry?!

Cause she was always compared to Nica? Cause Nica was so much more beautiful? Because Nica had real potential?

Or was it that her sister loved where she was in life and didn’t want to go off on her own to do something? She was content being happy where she was. Sera could see it, even if her sister wouldn’t admit it. Even if her sister told her she wanted to leave Avanthal. Sera knew Nice loved her more than anything. She knew she had always been there for her. She knew that as if that was the only important thing.

It was then where the young vantha broke into tears.

Crying was something Sera hardly ever did. She didn’t find it to be too important. It took too much energy, and never made her feel better. But the girl just stood there, crying. Sera didn’t even look at her sister. She couldn’t even bring herself to say anything, to even gesture anything. Going through her mind were many options. She didn’t have to leave Avanthal anytime too soon. She could just stay a while; learn all she needed to learn. Maybe she could wait, leave once her sister was strong enough to take it. Maybe she needed some true counsel. Maybe… Why did Nica faint? What was the real reason? Was she sick? Was she hurt? Was she hiding something? The girl shook her head, trying to clear her head.

Sera looked at her sister suddenly, her stomach churning. “Nica?” she choked.

by **Nica** on January 7th, 2012, 5:32 pm

Nica was frozen at the sight of her younger sister in tears. 'What in the world?! Why is she crying? Why did she hiss at me?'

Nica felt a sudden rage race through her veins but then calmed when Sera called her name.

"Sera?" Nica reached out and hugged Sera. She could feel Sera's body shaking. Nica offered her warmth and strength.

"Please tell me what is going on in your head, Sera." Tears started to fall from Nica's eyes.

by **Sera** on January 11th, 2012, 1:12 am

As Sera felt her sister wrap her arms around her, the girl froze. Okay, so she had lost it. No really, SHE LOST IT. The girl pushed her sister away. She then stared at her, her eyes wide. She stumbled backwards, until she hit the rock. Then she tumbled backwards over it. The girl landed on her back, creating an imprint in the white snow. She laid there for a few seconds, the tears nearly freezing on her cheeks. Then she sat up and looked around, before looking directly at her sister again. An odd grin formed on her face. She then took a handful of snow, formed it into a tight frozen ball and threw it at her sister.

Needless to say, she was a little irritated.

"You say one thing, then you say another. I just don't understand it, Nica!" She sniffled back some tears. "You know what... I WANT MY TEARS BACK!" She got to her feet again. "There's never been a reason to cry, I'm not even sure why I did." She pointed a finger at her sister. "You're the one that completely messed everything up, back... a few days ago when we were supposed to have a relaxing truthful day together. You see, I wanted some sisterly advise. THAT WAS IT." And with that she picked up another snowball and threw it at her sister. So, maybe the girl was just having a series of mood swings. Her eyes seemed to be a battle of colors.