Season of Fall, Day 53, 512 AV "Nissabella! Nissabella!" In the middle of toweling herself off, the young dancer looked up eagerly when she heard the cheerful, girlish voices calling her name. A smile spread across her face as she quickly located the source, a trio of fellow junior aerial dancers clad, not in their dancing silks like her, but in colorful, slim everyday dresses and sandals. Standing in the Cobweb's practice rooms, the giggling, brightly dressed girls struck a pretty, but incongruous note against the stark, mirrored walls and bare floors. Forgetting to drop her towel, Nissabella rushed forward to greet them, holding out her hands. Though the higher echelons of dancers might have bitter feuds and rivalries with their celebrated peers, the younger aerial dancers banded together closely even as they competed with each other. The life of an aspiring dancer was difficult and uncertain, after all, so they watched out for one another and formed an easy, tight-knit camaraderie borne of shared struggle and passion. The four of them giggled like sisters as a chagrined Nissabella nearly tripped over the towel still clinging to her hand and flapping around her legs. "Sorry, sorry!" the ruby-eyed leader of the trio exclaimed, holding up her hands apologetically. "If I'd known we'd cause such an uproar, we would've come at a better time!" "No, no, I'm happy you're here!" Nissabella protested, laughing at herself along with the others as she tugged the towel off her palm with difficulty. "It's not your fault that I'd forget my own head if it weren't attached to my shoulders. Anyway, what brings you girls here?" The second girl leaned forward conspiratorially, her inky hair forming a secretive curtain for her words. "We're arranging a very special outing, and we're inviting everyone we know who can come!" "Ooh!" Nissabella clapped her hands like a child about to receive a gift. "An outing? That sounds like so much fun. I'd definitely love to come. Where are we going?" Her eyes danced with anticipation. "Shopping in the Orchard Market? Bathing and relaxing at the Blue Grotto? Maybe drinks at the Hunters' Gather?" "Nope, nope, and nope!" laughed the first girl, shaking her head playfully at each suggestion. "Come on, Nissa, we've been there and done that a hundred times. I would've thought you'd be more original than those kinds of outings." "But they're fun-" Nissabella started to say. "This time, we have plans for something totally different and daring," the first girl swept on, interrupting her. "This time, we're going to the Sickle and Arrow. You know, the hangout for all the hunters and harvesters before they set out to bring back game or surrogates. Liseena here," she indicated the third girl in their trio, a shy-looking dancer with amethyst eyes, "managed to meet the nicest harvester, who's agreed to meet us and tell us all about the surrogates to be presented at Notok." "Yes," the third girl chimed in, "he's agreed to tell me…tell us everything about which surrogates are the prettiest and most certain to win the beauty contest. Isn't that exciting?" A chill entered Nissabella's heart. "The prettiest surrogates?" "Yes!" the first girl affirmed, nodding fervently. "We're getting a sneak preview of the best festival of the year. So, are you coming, Nissa? Doesn't that sound like more fun than shopping at the market?" "I…I…" Frantically, Nissabella cast about herself for any possible excuse or reason to refuse. She would have eagerly embraced an afternoon of enjoying simple pleasures with these girls, a respite from the endless rehearsals, practices, and lessons. But this…this… To meet with a heartless harvester who tore those innocent, helpless women from their homes and dragged them towards certain death and then to gossip about those women as if they were commodities with no importance but to look pretty at the Notok beauty contest and bear Symenestra babies… This, she could not endure to do. Not unless she wanted to end up hating her friends and fellow dancers for their callousness, possibly striking out at the harvester in a fit of rage, and most certainly losing what standing she had left as a dancer by revealing that she felt and thought differently than almost everyone else in Kalinor about the surrogates. "I…can't come, girls," she stammered at last. "I'm so sorry! But I, uh, I just realized that I…I…" Nervously, she looked down at her hand, around which her sweat-stained towel was still wrapped. "I still need to practice a new dance. So, I need to stay here. At the Cobweb. And I can't go with you to the Sickle and Arrow. I just can't." The trio of girls' faces fell, but only for an instant. "I thought from that towel that you were done with lessons for the day," the second girl murmured, "but I guess not. Oh, well, let's go and see if Soraya Orchid wants to come with us!" "Bye, Nissabella!" the three girls chorused, closing the door and taking their color, brightness, and high spirits from the room. As they disappeared from the practice room, Nissabella let out a long sigh and regarded the damp towel in her hand. She didn't have any new dances to practice, in truth, at least nothing assigned to her by her teacher at the Cobweb. The last grand production had been earlier in the season, and her teacher hadn't given her new pieces from the classic aerial dance repertoire to practice yet. Yet, she could hardly let this practice room go to waste, could she? Nor could she leave, while those girls expected her to stay inside and practice as she'd told them she would be doing. But she did have a dance of her own that she could practice: the dance she'd been choreographing and planning in her head for seasons, a dance portraying the suffering of the surrogates brought to the Nest for childbearing. At first, it had only been an attempt to integrate some of the dances that the Benshira surrogate girl had taught her from her own culture into an aerial dance routine. Slowly, however, it had grown in Nissabella's head into a richer, fuller production with a tale of innocence and naivete leading to capture, despair, and death. Now, with an entire practice room at her disposal and no one here to watch or supervise her, Nissabella could rehearse and refine her dance to her heart's content. After all, someday she might be able to hold her own recital, where she could show off this dance to an audience and show, rather than tell, the surrogates' plight through dance. When that day came, she would need to be absolutely perfect, or her message would be lost and forgotten and all her hard work condemned, rather than pondered and praised. Absently wiping a last streak of sweat from her brow, Nissabella pried the towel off her hand and slowly made her way back toward the wall of the practice room. Pressing the palms of her hands against the stone, she lifted herself up into the air and began -- without music, without guidance or audience, only the dreams and plans inside her mind -- to dance. |