day 58, winter, 513 AV It has been a while.A while, she thought.She was on the edge of the docks, looking down the ocean, with her golden pendant hanging on her neck.It was tiring to always carry it...but if she didn't, then she would easily lose it. She could still remember the day of her death in detail, but yet, she did not want to remember it.Her eyes began to get teary as she remembered the last few days of her life, closing her eyes as she did so, a small tear falling down,on the wooden boards of the docks.It was day time,but yet, she thought she was safe.Safe from the danger of being spotted.She was trying her best to disguise herself as someone alive, keeping herself looking as alive as she could...but anyone who gave her more than just a quick glance could notice she wasn't your normal, everyday girl. The edges of her body were blurry, and could easily be spotted upon closer inspection.She was still trying to master the ability of materialization, only grasping the basics of it.But yet, she thought it was enough for her to stay there...to look at the edge of the horizon. "It is beautiful..." She muttered to herself.But She wasn't able to truly feel it, the smell, the wind, and the temperature.She was solid, but yet, she knew she wasn't alive.It was obvious she wasn't alive, and all she could do was whimper about it...but yet she didn't do it.She didn't want to make her parents sad.She wanted to be the daddy's daughter she always was. I want to be the daddy's girl.Gui mea thought to herself, as she slowly sat down on the edge of the wooden board, not being scared in the slightest about falling down into the water.She just wanted to enjoy the moment, and appreciate the beautiful ocean. She then looked down, to her golden pendant.It was precious for her, after all, it remembered her of the most precious time of her life: the time that she was alive.She closed her eyes, trying to imagine her parents again...but nothing.Ever since she was dead, she barely could remember her parents' face, in fact, she had trouble on even remembering their names.Who were her parents?Was her father well-known?During her childhood she was isolated inside her home, barely, if ever, coming out of it. For her, the outside world...the world outside of her home was both wild, and dangerous.She looked up to the skies, with a faint smile. "Mother...Father...please hear me...please guide me, just once more." But her words were met with only vague emptiness.Not even the wind blowed, as she looked towards the sky, waiting for a reply.Were her parents uncaring?Or maybe they weren't around in the moment? These thoughts haunted her mind as she continued staring at the sky. "I promise you, father, mother...I promise that I'll be the daughter both of you always wished for.I won't abandon my goal...the goal to be the best daughter that ever existed." As soon as she finished saying that, she turned back to the docks,looking happier than ever...but she was already having trouble keeping herself materialized, soulmist starting to be visible around her. |