Timestamp: Day 32nd of Spring, AV 511 |
It hadn't even been ten whole days since Behn left the Wilderness, where he felt was truly his home. No, he was in civilization now, finally chased from the doorsteps of Ravok by guilt and self-preservation, driven to start a new life, to forget the old, to fight the pain and replace it with something worthwhile. Behn hadn't lived in civilization for roughly seven years, and even then it was the chaotic streets of Ravok. A place he never understood, and made a mistake in settling in for the sake of his lover giving birth. She wanted to settle, and weak as he was, gave into her impatience that would ultimately lead to her death. Behn was different now, cold, suspicious, bitter. He roamed the streets of Zeltiva, pacing without destination or even a clear mind. He was searching that mess of memory and intelligence for something, a plan perhaps. He wanted to feel some sort of joy in life, not a new family. That would only shatter what was left of the shell of Behn's life. He needed something new, something valuable, worthwhile. A job wouldn't satisfy, despite knowing he would dedicate his life to it and doing it well. He needed something that he would have enjoyed had this tremendous tragedy never happened to him. What was something he always wanted to do? There was a number of things. As a boy, he teased himself with the ideas of training, breeding, and selling canines. He could make warriors, hunters, guards, tackers, who knows what else was available. But it had been so long since that appealed to him. In his early teen years he imagined politics. He knew little of it, but knew he'd enjoy the power, keeping a city stable and strong, doing what he could for everyone he could. Yet, he was a man now, working towards the age of thirty, and never had he spent a day in some form of education. Not a school of any sort (though he was in Zeltiva, should that be his goal). He had always wanted to visit Zeltiva for this early aged dream, but now that he was here, he saw nothing especially scholarly that intrigued him. Education, politics, they were out of the question now. But what about a ship? Behn never gave much thought to roaming the seas, trading goods, selling merchandise, smelling the salty mist of the ocean. He spent plenty of time swimming off the coast of the Suvan, he knew he loved the water. Why not on a ship then? Perhaps, if he could find some way, he would. He heard Zeltiva was as notorious for it's sea-worthy vessels as it was it's university. Perhaps he was meant to come here after all. Behn continued to tease himself with ideas as his legs guided him aimlessly through the Zeltivan streets. He wasn't paying attention to where he was going, not that it would have done good since he knew so little of the town already. |