A look into a twisted mind [Angelique]

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A look into a twisted mind [Angelique]

Postby Angelique on May 6th, 2011, 6:30 pm

"Come take a walk with me and let me tell you of the things I see. There are great tales ranging far and wide, from Love and hate to torture and un-truths. Injustices and Misdeeds. In these tales you see, you won't hear of such a thing as a fairy or a Princess.. Well maybe a bloody princess but only as she takes her last breath after a brutal beating and being dealt the fatal cards of a broken heart...These tales of which I speak you see, are not a myth but are in fact legend. For these tales of which are told from this very mouth are but my own. I have come from a land unknown to the mortal eye. Many have entered few returned. Again I shall say these tales are sad but true. For these tales did not happen to you."
The Band Perry has become one of my many muses. This song which lies within is among my favorites.The song after is by Sara Evans.Since I have heard the Song "I Get a Little Bit Stronger,” It has helped me through many trying times.

You Lie- The Band Perry
It ain't complicated
Well, I've grown to hate it
I never liked the taste of crow but baby I ate it
They tried to warn me
They said that you were ornery
So don't bring me those big brown eyes and tell me that you're sorry
Well you might as well throw gasoline on a fire
The way you lie
You lie like a priceless Persian rug on a rich man's floor
You lie like a coon dog basking in the sunshine on my porch
You like like a penny in the parking lot at the grocery store
It just comes way too natural to you
The way you lie
That ain't my perfume
I bet she had a curfew
You told me you were out with the boys and baby I believed you
So why you lookin' so nervous
You know you're gonna deserve this
I oughta kill you right now and do the whole wide world a service
Well my daddy's gonna straighten you out like a piece of wire, like a piece of wire
The way you lie
You like like the man with the slick black hair who sold me that Ford
You like like a palm tree in the back yard after last month's storm
You like like a penny in the parking lot at the grocery store
It just comes way too natural to you
The way you lie
Well, I'll tell you what I'm gonna do
I'm gonna drive into the big ol' muddy river
I'm gonna park my car in the middle of the mile-long bridge
And then I'm gonna cry well maybe just a little
Then I'm gonna slip off the ring that you put on my finger
Give it a big ol' fling and watch it sink
Down, down, down
There it's gonna lie
Until the Lord comes back around
Because you lie like a priceless Persian rug on a rich man's floor
You lie like a coon dog basking in the sunshine on my porch
You like like a penny in the parking lot at the grocery store
It just comes so dang natural to you
The way you lie
The way you lie
Well it's what you do, it's who you are.

__________________________________________________________________
I Get a Little Bit Stronger- Sara Evans
Woke up late today,
And I still feel the sting of the pain,
But I brush my teeth anyway,
Got dressed through the mess,
and put a smile on my face
I got a little bit stonger

Ridin' in the car to work,
And I'm tryin to ignore the hurt,
So I turned on the radio,
Stupid song made me think of you,
I listen to it for a minute,
But then I changed it,
I'm gettin a little bit stronger,
Just a little bit stronger

And I'm done hopin, that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinnin my wheels,
Lettin you drag my heart around, and oh,
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same,
But I'm tellin' myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger

It doesn't happen overnight,
but you turn around and months gone by,
And you realize you haven't cried,
Not givin' you an hour or a second or another minute longer,
I'm busy gettin' stronger

And I'm done hopin, that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinnin my wheels,
Lettin you drag my heart around, and oh,
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same,
But I'm tellin' myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger

I get a little bit stronger

Gettin' on without you baby
I'm better off without you baby
How does it feel without me baby
I'm gettin' stronger without you baby

And I'm done hopin, that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinnin my wheels,
Lettin you drag my heart around, and oh,
And I'm done thinking you could ever change,
I know my heart will never be the same,
But I'm tellin' myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days,
I get a little bit stronger

I get a little bit stronger

Just a little bit stronger

Little bit, little bit, a little bit stronger

Get a little bit stronger
~Lost Love~
This is something I wrote long ago. It's just an inside look at the pain one can hold inside.

Your name is like a winged dove
that carries my mind away,
Your lips are like the hottest flame
upon the touch of mine.
Your hands and fingers
always seem to know all the right times
for them to touch me,
Your eyes always find mine.
However, for now our hearts have parted
but they still remain
as one.
You will always have your life of ships and sea,
As I will always have mine lonesome and free.
If the joining of our hearts and bodies were meant to be
then to you I say:
It is not the end for endings only come in Death,
So I shall see the keeper of my heart
in my dreams and in the future,
But for now I fare him well.
Within the scrapbook you will find things that I have worked on and even ramblings from the voices in my head.
If you choose to comment or critique, such things will be most welcomed. I shall be adding more to this as time passes. Please enjoy.

Friends Wall: In this section is where all the people who have gotten past the walls which I have put up, belong.
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A look into a twisted mind [Angelique]

Postby Angelique on May 10th, 2011, 2:02 pm

Jar of Hearts- Christina Perri
No, I can't take one more step towards you
‘Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

[Chorus:]
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

[Chorus]

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
‘Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?


I was sitting here at my desk moments ago, listening to random songs when I came across this one. Being the person that I am, and never saying no to trying something once, I decided to listen to it. While sitting back sipping my coffee I had cleared my mind of everything else but the words of the song. By the end of the song, I realized that I could so relate to what Christina was saying in her lyrics. And because I am sure that most people can as well, I decided to share it with everyone. Please enjoy.
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A look into a twisted mind [Angelique]

Postby Angelique on May 11th, 2011, 2:58 pm

The day she closed the doors on Love.

Cool and crisp like ice, the wind whipped through the trees which were all over campus. Winter was coming soon, but only those who were lonely would care, because it would be a long winter. As the bell to the school house started to ring, most of the students rushed inside scrambling to their classes so that they were not tardy, however Marnie and Rex lingered on the steps just outside talking, like they did every day since they decided to be together.Rex stood with his back against the railing of the steps as Marnie stood an inch from him, with a smile on her face.
She was happy because Rex had finally asked her to be his. “Rex, do you love me?” She asked hoping that he would say yes. As she got her question out, a lingering female ascended the steps to enter the school. Marnie didn’t notice Rex’s eyes leave her as she waited for him to respond. After a moment and the one remaining female stepped inside the school, Rex finally turned his attention back to Marnie. “Huh. Oh.Yeah babe, you know it.” He tried to sound cool as his words began to spin from his lips like a web of lies. Marnie nodded lightly to Rex before kissing his cheek and heading inside.

Later that afternoon at lunch:
It was time for second lunch. Marnie was looking forward to it, since she purposely had her schedule switched around so that she could have lunch daily with Rex. As Marnie made her way through the halls to the Cafeteria in the East hall, she heard people whispering things but she could not be exact what they were speaking of. As she stepped inside the cafeteria, before going to get her food, her eyes scanned each student, and table. Not seeing Rex she gave a shrug and decided that he was running late. After ten minutes Rex finally made his way into the cafeteria. Seeing Marnie he made his way over to her, pulling his chair close to hers. Marnie couldn’t help but catch the scent of another perfume while leaning into Rex to give him a hug. As she pulled from the hug she decided that she should not be too alarmed, after all, he did love her, right?

That night:
Marnie was sitting at her desk in her room doing her nightly homework. She noticed the back-light for her cell phone light up. She suddenly got all excited, thinking it would be Rex. As she picked up her phone, she checked the screen. “One new message.” While reading the message a sudden pain ripped through her. “So babe, I was thinking. We are good, but, how about we keep it on the low?” -Rex. Marnie started thinking that Rex was just kidding around, he couldn’t possibly be serious, she replied with “Yeah. Ok. Lol. we can so do that. I am going to bed, see you tomorrow at school. Love ya, night.” She waited for five minutes for a reply from Rex. After not getting one she conduced that he had gone to bed after reading her text, so she got changed into her pajamas and climbed into bed.

The next day at school:
Marnie pulled into the parking lot of the school. Having time before the bell rang today, she sat in her car for a few moments collecting her thoughts before having to deal with simple minded childish behaviors in others around her school. She put her car into park, and killed the engine. Seeing something out of the corner of her eye through the driver’s side window, she turned her head just in time to see Rex with another loving on another girl. Marnie decided that she would just be strong through the day, and force a smile. But when she got home and could be alone, she would let it all out. Throughout the day, she could hardly focus through the pain and hurt which Rex had caused her. She felt like a total fool for believing him, for ever caring for him like she had.Marnie tried to avoid him, and ignore him all through the day. While sitting in her last class of the day, she decided that she would write him a letter.

~Rex,
Listen. I only thought you were playing around when you sent me that text last night. But then this morning in the parking lot at school I saw you with her. Now I see you for who you really are, and? I am sorry but I just cannot be with someone like that.Please understand that I am walking away because of the pain you have caused, not because I don’t love you. So, I guess this is it. I suppose that we will see each other in passing in the hallways and all, but you needn’t say hello. You have done enough.
The one you let go,
Marnie


After class, she walked out of the room and headed down the hall towards Rex’s locker. She was not expecting to see him there already, but she did. When he tried to wrap his arms around her, Marnie shoved him back, and threw the note at him. As she turned to walk away, before tears could form, she said rather loudly. “Don’t touch me, you bastard.” Marnie made her way back to the parking lot, to get into her car and drive home for the night.The hurt filled her heart more as she heard all the songs that used to make her think of him.

That night, as she sat at her desk trying to do her homework, she took her pen in hand and started to right her assignment out. ‘The War of Hearts.’ Underneath the title of her story for English, she wrote By: This is the end. Setting her pen down she moved out of her room, and down stairs towards the front door. Turning the door knob and pulling the door ajar, she slipped outside and into the street. No one saw her standing in the middle of the road...

~*~Note: No one knew how long she had loved him or wanted to be with him, except for her. Moral of this? In the end, everyone hurts, but? Death is never the answer.~*~


Another song which seems to fit this story is one by Christina Aguilera. The name of the song - You Lost Me.
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A look into a twisted mind [Angelique]

Postby Angelique on May 20th, 2011, 12:05 pm

Me,Myself and I.. My random thoughts on a song by Beyonce.
Thoughts can be very interesting, especially first thing in the morning when one is not fully awake. While sitting at my desk trying to wake up, my mind seemed to be going a mile a minute as I sipped my coffee, After a moment I decided to put on some music by Beyonce because none of her songs have ever made me think about things from the past.

Well, as I continued sipping my coffee Beyonce’s song “Me, Myself and I” started playing. As I sat back listening the words with my coffee cup in hand, it hit me. Beyonce could not have said what slid into my mind, better if she tried. So that I can share this with you all I am posting the lyrics, and maybe even the video.


Me,Myself and I- Beyonce Knowles

ALL THE LADIES IF U FEEL ME HELP ME SING IT OUT......

(MAN TALKING)

(VERSE 1)
I CANT BELIVE I BELIEVED
EVERYTHING WE HAD WOULD LAST
SO YOUNG AND NAIVE FOR ME TO THINK
SHE WAS FROM YOUR PAST
SILLY OF ME TO DREAM OF
ONE DAY HAVING YOUR KIDS
LOVE IS SO BLIND
IT FEELS RIGHT WHEN ITS WRONG

I CANT BELIEVE I FELL FOR YOUR SCHEMES
I'M SMARTER THAN THAT
SO DUMB AND NAIVE TO BELIEVE THAT
WITH ME YOU'RE A CHANGED MAN
FOOLISH OF ME TO COMPETE
WHEN YOU CHEAT WITH LOOSE WOMEN
IT TOOK ME SOME TIME BUT NOW I'VE MOVED ON, BECAUSE I REALIZED I GOT

(CHORUS) Harmonized

ME, MYSELF AND I
THAT'S ALL I GOT IN THE END
THAT'S WHAT I FOUND OUT
AND IT AINT NO NEED TO CRY
I TOOK A VOW THAT FROM NOW ON
I'M GON'NA BE MY OWN BEST FRIEND

ME, MYSELF AND I
THATS ALL I GOT IN THE END
THATS WHAT I FOUND OUT
AND IT AINT NO NEED TO CRY
I TOOK A VOW THAT FROM NOW ON
I'M GON'NA BE MY OWN BEST FRIEND


(VERSE 2)
CONTROLLING, YOU SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME
BUT YOU DONT
YOUR FAMILY TOLD ME ONE DAY
I WOULD SEE IT ON MY OWN
NEXT THING I KNOW I'M DEALING
WITH YOUR THREE KIDS IN MY HOME
LOVE IS SO BLIND IT FEELS RIGHT WHEN ITS WRONG

NOW THAT ITS OVER
STOP CALLING ME
COME PICK UP YO CLOTHING
NO NEED TO FRONT LIKE YA STILL WIT ME
ALL YOUR HOMIES KNOW
EVEN YOUR VERY BEST FRIEND
TRIED TO WARN ME ON THE LOW
IT TOOK ME SOME TIME
BUT NOW I AM STRONG, BECAUSE I REALIED I'VE GOT

REPEAT CHORUS



BRIDGE (BROKEN IN TWO PARTS)

I GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
I KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER DISAPOINT MYSELF
My eyes HAVE CRIED A THOUSAND TIMES
ALL THE LADIES IF YOU FEEL ME HELP ME SING IT OUT
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
YEAH YOU HURT ME BUT I LEARNED A LOT ALONG THE WAY
IT'S HOW I LEARNED TO MAKE IT THROUGH
AFTER ALL THE RAIN YOU SEE THE SUN COME OUT AGAIN

NOW I'VE GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
YEAH, I KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER DISAPOINT MYSELF
My eyes HAVE CRIED A THOUSAND TIMES
I'VE CRIED, ALL THE LADIES IF YOU FEEL ME HELP ME SING IT OUT
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
YEAH YOU HURT ME BUT I LEARNED A LOT ALONG THE WAY
IT'S HOW I LEARNED TO MAKE IT THROUGH
AFTER ALL THE RAIN YOU'LL SEE THE SUN COME OUT AGAIN, YEAH-AH-EE

(OH OH OH OOH OOH OOOH OOOH OOOOH OOOOH OOOOOH OOOOOH OOOOOH OOOOOOH OOOOOOH UHOOO UHOOO YEAH AH)

I GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
ME, MYSELF AND I
MY eyes HAVE CRIED A THOUSAND TIMES
I HAVE CRIED SO MANY TIMES
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
IT'S HOW I LEARNED TO MAKE IT THROUGH
AFTER ALL THE RAIN YOU'LL SEE THE SUN COME OUT AGAIN!

I GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
I KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER DISAPOINT MYSELF
MY eyes HAVE CRIED A THOUSAND TIMES
IF YOU'VE CRY A THOUSAND TIMES, LADIES YOU WILL SURVIVE
I CAN'T REGRET TIME SPENT WITH YOU
YEAH YOU HURT ME BUT I LEARNED A LOT ALONG THE WAY
IT'S HOW I LEARNED TO MAKE IT THROUGH
I CAN SEE THE SUN SHINE, I'VE GOT ME, MYSELF AND I
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A look into a twisted mind [Angelique]

Postby Angelique on June 6th, 2011, 5:56 pm

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There is a secret within this heart,
It has been dying to come out for a while now.
The only one who knows,Is the one who holds this heart.
The one who this secret is about would know
it too, If only he were able to see through her
morbid eyes or even how to read between the lines.



There was a time that the keeper of this heart
would have done anything for him
No matter the pain, sorrow or the hurt.
As she watches from a far, with crystal like tears
streaming endlessly down her face,
She softly whispers "Good-bye, My darling" knowing
he will never understand just how much she truly loved
him as she turned and vanished from his sight.

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