The top of the climb was in distance, almost there. But the thoughts of fear came swirling through her mind, the fear of failing before the strong male, the fear of falling and dying, the fear of slipping again if she tried. Aradia had experienced anxiety and panic attacks before. The closing of her throat, the rushed breathing, the foggy mind. It was all going on as she clung to the rope, clung to her life. She called for help, but Darren did not come, he left her up there, alone in her fear, in her panic attack as tears welled up in her bi-colored eyes, rolling down her cheeks in big globs as she tried desperately to control her breathing. Darren was trying to tell her to go on, that salvation was not far, to not give up so easily. Though those words were true, the panic attack still held her in its evil grasps. Still making her body tremble, her mind lighten and dizzy, her breaths come in and out in a rapid short puffs. Her heart pounding her chest like the large drops of a spring rain, beating the dried earth. But Darren said he would be there, but she didn’t need him, that she could do it, that she could reach the top. Aradia didn’t say a word though, she kept silent in her fear and panic attack. Closing her eyes and taking big gulps of air, letting her mind drift to a song she heard someone in Wind Reach sing not too long ago. The song of a soaring Eagle, that protected Wind Reach. She let the words of the song drift through her mind, and out her mouth softly, only for her to hear. The little Singer opened her eyes and looked up instead of down. The top was so close, she could make it. She had to try anyways. With that, Aradia held onto the rope with her hands, and began to search for foot holes slowly. Finally after about a chime she found a foot hole, and started climbing once more, this time not letting her confidence get in the way of her inexperience and inability. She took her time reaching the top. A better climber would of scaled it within a few ticks, but Aradia took five chimes to make it to the top. She hefted her body up to the top, scrambling to get her whole body up, and just laid there breathing in and out heavily. She did not victory yell, or fist pump, she just laid there almost kissing the ground. This was just another of her stupid plans that turned on her, and she laid there thinking maybe she should stop taking so many risks in life, maybe she should just take the more boring path instead. |