Solo Breathe A Sigh.

Jesslyn has been bursting at the seems. It's one of the many days in which she feels a rage that she hasn't had in a while. Things go wrong.

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This northernmost city is the home of Morwen, The Goddess of Winter, and her followers who dwell year round in a land of frozen wonder. [Lore]

Breathe A Sigh.

Postby Jesslyn Skyglow on May 31st, 2013, 4:48 am

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82nd of Spring, 513AV
Jesslyn was asleep. She had been most of the day. It was already past midday but the blind Vantha had failed to wake-up. Her nights towards the end of Spring usually were longer and not in the sense of the season but her life. Everything seemed to weight the girl down. Her long hair becoming a light weight compared to her thoughts.

As the city ran its course and her neighbors continued their daily lives Jesslyn slumbered a restless slumber. Lately she had taken to simply sitting in her single chair and starring blankly at a wall, not that she could see, until she had to get up. Which included small meals, bathroom, or sleeping. And sleeping took the most time.

But Jesslyn didn't mind. Because that mean't she didn't have to think about what was going on around her. Though it was always a challenge to get to sleep to start with. This occasion was an easier and an easier first. Not too many night would she get a good night's sleep or anything close to it.

Jesslyn turned to the other side and curled more into herself. Her blanket at long been kicked off of her body even though her home was barley warm enough to not let her breath be seen. Jesslyn didn't sleep with anything other than her undergarments and her family wondered how she still was able to fight off sickness. It was unbelievable what the blind Vantha went through on a day to day basis.

A couple friends walked up to door at different times. They would stand there raise their hands to knock but always stopped. If Jesslyn was awake she wouldn't forgive them. Right now she was being stubborn but she was lost. She wanted... no needed someone to just rush in and drag her out.

But even though her friends and family all were worried as to why the blind Vantha hadn't shown her face in almost weeks, no one said anything. No one knocked, no one looked in the window. To Jesslyn, it was almost as if they didn't know she even had stopped living. That she even was alive in the first place.

A couple who couldn't seem to keep their hands off each other banged against Jesslyn door. Slowly being her to the surface. Grumbling under her breathe Jesslyn opened an eye. Rubbing the same eye with the heel of her hand Jesslyn raised up. Turning to she could get off the bed Jesslyn shuffled her feet.

Forgetting about her state of clothing and dragging herself to her door Jesslyn found the vibration of two separate people. But they were so... close that it was hard not to mistake it for a single mutant person. Opening the door one of the blurs almost fell back if it wasn't for the others help.

The air was awkward for a couple chimes before the giggling of a girl started. Jesslyn narrowed her eyes at the blurs. Jesslyn started to close the door when she caught a comment, "Did you see that! That's supposed to be Jesslyn. I heard her love interest just simply disappeared. Must have the poor girl in a state of depression." Jesslyn paused for a moment before slamming the door.

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Breathe A Sigh.

Postby Jesslyn Skyglow on June 17th, 2013, 3:06 am

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WARNING: Language and have tissues at hand.



Jesslyn leaned against the door and waited until the blurs moved along before she slammed both fists against the door. Jesslyn leaned her forehead against it and breathed angrily at of her nose. Closing her eyes Jesslyn let out a huff of air before she snapped her teeth shut with a loud click. Opening her eyes she felt heat encompass her body. Her hands clinched in fists and she found a slight pain in her palms.

Jesslyn slammed her fists into the door before she turned and slid down it. Gritting her teeth Jesslyn struggled to breathe, gasping for air Jesslyn tried to get herself under control. But she couldn't. Letting out a whine Jesslyn brought her fists to her eyes and set them over them. "What can't I fucking cry!" Jesslyn dug her fists into her eyes and let out a whale, "Why can't I just... I just want to cry!"

No matter how hard she willed her dry eyes to fill with water and start to pour over, nothing happened. Getting angrier Jesslyn tore her hands from her face. Un-clenching her hands Jesslyn felt a sting and then a small tickle of movement. Touching her palms together she found a thick substance coating her hand, "Of course I get to bleed. But crying is too hard! It's just fucking water! Why can't it be used! I seem to have a plethora of it anyway! Whats wrong with a couple drops of it gone!"

Jesslyn angrily stood and walked to her table. She grabbed the first thing off of it and through it across the room. The glass bottle of paint shattered against the wall and left a nice mess of purple to slide down. Next followed blue, white, and pink. Bottles, paintbrushes, and pencils flew around the room, "I'm not pathetic! And he didn't disappear, he left. He left this cold place full of liars and bastards for a better life. He left a lovely icemaiden with no hope. There is no disappearing from me! None!"

Jesslyn picked up the painting Sylvia had left that the woman herself had painting and set it on the table. "There is no disappearing on me. You either leave or you die." Then with an angry lash out Jesslyn stabbed and pulled her knife through the canvas. Repeating the steps a couple times Jesslyn could feel something behind her eyes. A pressure but it never moved forward.

Once the knife started to dig into the table Jesslyn slowly stopped until she was simply stabbing the table. Painful wails and whimpers came from her mouth and Jesslyn all together fell apart. The knife clattered to the floor and Jesslyn soon followed it. Crumpling to the floor Jesslyn struggled to breathe as a dry weep came over her. Jesslyn's hands moved to the necklace on her throat and she whimpered, "Sylvia, Sylvia come back. Don't... don't leave me." Over and over the young Vantha chanted.

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Breathe A Sigh.

Postby Jesslyn Skyglow on July 6th, 2013, 6:18 am

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WARNING: Emotionless and tissues might be needed (will be edited and made longer)



Jesslyn sat on the floor for what seemed like forever. Emotionally and mentally drained. She couldn't find it in herself to get up or even try to breathe evenly. Everything hurt. Her heart hurt. Her head hurt. Her throat. Her hands. Everything hurt but it was all so numb.

Jesslyn racked her hands down her face and through her hair, pulling on it but never tearing any out. She had stopped the chanting but now had started with pitiful attempts to try and calm her breathing. Sharp inhales and shuddering exhales were all that could be heard in the quiet home.

Jesslyn slowly realized the amount of noise she had been making and slowly realized that someone was likely to stop by and see what was wrong. Slowly gathering herself Jesslyn stood again. Her eyes had long lost color, too many emotions clashing together for the almost dead cells to try and keep up with.

Blankly grabbing a new canvas, surely her last, Jesslyn ran her hand along the top of the table. Grabbing random bottles, careful of the glass that might be on the table, she tipped the bottled one by one onto the canvas until they are empty. Surprisingly there wasn't much paint. Jesslyn set her hands in the mess and began to paint. Or spread the paint to the edges of the canvas.

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