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D [23rd] Syna Priestesses hand out flowers in honor of the melted snow, now officially gone.
N [25th] An inexplicable statue appears overnight on top of the fountain at the heart of the Sharai. Some of those who drink of it are endowed with sudden and sporadic magical powers. Others are afflicted with perverse side-effects. The city comes together to do whatever they can along the lines of harm reduction.
D [30th] Beautiful stones begin turning up in a stream running off of the mountain in the Sharai Peak. Only a few people are there in the morning but as the day picks up more and more people show up to prospect the rocks. The rocks aren't large, the biggest ones being not much bigger than a Kina.
N [68th] Shooting stars start appearing in the sky.
D [70th] A brave cadre of heroes, aided by a mysterious foreigner elect to travel into the unknown in order to resolve the mystery of the Sharai spring and return those affected by it back to normal.
N [72nd] It's a strikingly clear night and shooting stars zipping across the sky by the dozens. Zintila goes to the Divine's Gateway to take a look for herself through their telescope. This day marks the peak of the shooting star's journey through the cosmos.
N [73rd] The debacle involving the mysterious fountain is concluded. Those given magical powers retain a measure of their power. Any who were otherwise affected return to their natural state.
N [85th] A bonfire is held at the Rainbow Falls and many people are there dancing and singing the praises of Tanroa.
D/N [90th] A huge celebration is thrown in honor of those who elected to venture into the unknown in order to restore the Sharai fountain and help their fellow citizens. Zintila coins this celebration the 'Festival of Fellowship' and declares it an official holiday. All eligible businesses volunteer to act as street vendors. Their proceeds go toward building a new structure centered around the once troublesome fountain. It is deemed the Garden of Fellowship, which features a giant hedge maze and an underground tavern. It is meant to honor those deemed the true heroes of Lhavit - the people that live there.
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"The Witch of Wind Reach"- Wind Reach/The Unforgiving is still really messed up. There's plenty of areas that are unnaturally horribly effected by the Djed storm and such throughout the area - Khara isn't so great at helping "people", help Skyinarta itself instead. --> Be called on by Caiyha to do it?? Should only need one mark and probably won't ever have to move to a new area given the vastness of The Unforgiving. Khara needs to visit more of these places/become aware of the need for it. Build up skills around this
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"Khara. Just Khara. I don't have a Wind Eagle to take another name from. I think I'll always be Khara, even though some people switch names when they move castes. I don't think I would." (As of Spring 515:) "Khara Emberwing. The last bit is kind of complicated. Zhol's explained it to me that names have something to do with pavilions and he doesn't technically have one anymore, or he's the last one or... I don't know. Zhol said I am part of his family, though. So now that is my name."
2. Do you go by a nickname or pet name?
"My mom used to call me 'Little Sparrow', but she stopped doing that when I became a Yasi. Dru calls me 'Chickadee', though. As well as some other words sometimes, but I have no idea what they mean." (As of Spring 515:) "Zhol has a few things he calls me. They're kind of embarrassing but sweet in a way. He calls me 'My Syna', which probably makes the gods a little annoyed, but I know what he means by it and I hope they do too."
3. How old are you?
"18, but I'm going to turn 19 in Winter." "I was born in 495 AV, so 19 Currently."
4. What is your height?
"Smaller than a Wind Eagle, but taller than a skygoat? Uhm... Not as tall as Dru, but I think I'm a little taller than Azira. Not by much, though. I try not to look too hard."
5. What is your weight?
"Uhh, scrawny? I don't really weigh myself. I know I used to weigh a lot less back in Spring, but that was because of the famines. It wasn't really a good thing. I don't feel like I'm too thin, and definitely not too fat, though. I guess I'm just right for me?"
Aesthetics :
6. Describe yourself as you see yourself.
"I'm... plain, I guess? I know I'm not ugly, but i don't really think I stand out from the other Inarta all that much. A lot of them are prettier, though. I'm just average."
7. Describe yourself as others typically see you.
"Small. Insignificant. Dru says I'm pretty though, but I think she was just being nice."
"Zhol told me I’m pretty too, now. He’s said a lot of nice things about me lately."
8. What is your favorite body feature?
"My hair, I guess? I really like that it's more orange than dark red like some Inarta. If the sun catches it just right it kinda looks like flames in the corner of my eye and I really like that for some reason."
9. How physically fit are you?
"I wouldn't say 'very', but I spend all day tracking and running and climbing so I feel like I'm doing pretty good with that, I guess."
10. How do you typically dress and what is your style?
"Like all the other Chiet, I guess. I don't really have anything fancy. I wear bryda just like every other Inarta but mine's really plain, just brownish so it acts kinda like camouflage, I sometimes switch them out for lighter grey ones in the Winter because of all the snow. I prefer the kind of vinati that has the straps that go over your shoulders and leaves things more open in the front. I don't like the halter style ones, I feel like I'm going to be strangled with the fabric all up high and the straps going around my neck like that. I prefer boots to sandals, but that's more just because it's really stupid to go walking around the mountains in sandals. I do own a sontav, but I don't wear it very often. I don't get to handle birds that much and I haven't hit my arm with a bow string since before I was a Yasi. Oh! I do have a katinu, though. It's this really pretty dark green color and it's really warm."
Family :
11. Who are your parents and what are they like?
"I didn't know my father, I'm guessing he was some random Dek. That happens a lot. My mother was named Aine, a huntress and an Avora. She was really strict with me. I think she took life too seriously. I don't know what made her that way, though."
12. Do you have any brothers or sisters?
"Probably? I doubt that I was the only child my father ever sired and I never really asked, to be honest, but I wouldn't have been surprised to find out that my mother had previous children before I ever came along. I know I don't have any younger siblings from my mom, though."
13. What is your extended family like?
"I guess it depends on how you look at it. Every Inarta in Wind Reach is probably family somehow in some distant way. So... complicated, passionate, amazing people. Yeah, I think that's safe to say."
14. Do you consider close friends as important or more/less important than family?
"Way more. I only really have one though, but I know he means a lot to me, and way more than anyone else."
15. Do you treat animals like family?
"If I bonded with a Wind Eagle, I would. Right now they are way above me considering them that."
Location :
16. Where were you born?
"Wind Reach."
17. Where do you live now?
"Same place."
18. If you could live anywhere in Mizahar where would that be?
"Still the same! Though I wouldn't mind visiting other places, but only for a very little bit."
19. Do you have a favorite place to vacation or spend leisure time?
"Not that I can think of? I like Thunder Bay, though. It's always so busy in the Summer because it doesn't really exist in the Winter and it's really pretty. I also guess I like The Suren Cliffs, there's some pretty flowers there."
20. Where do you fear to be?
"Do I have to answer this? Uhm... okay. I guess maybe just anywhere where I'm really by myself but might not be? I know that sounds really stupid. I like being in crowds because you have people around you and there's kinda safety in that. It's when you're completely alone in the warrens late at night and you keep thinking you aren't actually alone but someone is watching you... yeah, I don't like that. I try to avoid that sort of thing."
(As of end of Fall 514) "I also don’t really like the Crafts Gallery anymore, especially near the forges. It’s not the place I’m afraid of, I guess so much as I don’t really want to run into someone there. And, I hate to say it, but I guess the archery ranges are like that now too. I know it’s stupid, but, I just… I don’t want to see him again."
Traits :
21. Do you have any physical weaknesses (disease, scars, and missing limbs?)
"Nope."
22. Are you right handed or left handed?
"Right handed"
23. What languages do you speak? What do you sound like? Do you have an accent?
"I speak Nari mostly. Though I speak a lot more in Common now, it seems like. I guess I sound... like a girl? I know I have an accent when I do. I think it sounds all squeaky and annoying, though."
24. Do you have any odd mannerisms, annoying habits, or other defining characteristics?
"I'm really fidgety. I know I am. I tend to wring my hands a ton when I'm nervous. I think I bite my lip a lot too."
25. Do you have (or want to get) any tattoos or piercing? Why do you have them (or will get them)
"Both my ears are pierced. I know a lot of Inarta have piercings in other places but I'm kinda scared that it will hurt. I don't think I'll ever get a tattoo, it would hurt way too much, but I think they can be pretty sometimes."
Occupations :
26. What is your occupation?
"I'm a game scout. That means I help track animals for the hunters. Sometimes it's just a specific one, sometimes it's finding a herd. I used to only work with the other scouts, but lately I've gotten to go out on my own or work for one of the hunters directly if they want one of us specifically with them."
27. Do you like/dislike your work? Why?
"I really like that I get to be outdoors all day and sometimes it can get really exciting. There always seems to be something new to learn and there's nothing quite like the feeling when you've been following a trail for what seems like forever and you finally see the animal. Even better when it's a herd. We came across a bunch of goats this one time and... Heh, just yeah. It's worth it. At the same time though there's hunters who can do what I do better and actually follow through with the kill, so I kinda feel a bit pointless sometimes. Not often, though."
28. If you could be anything you wanted to, what would you be?
"Anything? An Endal. I think I'd want to help with the trade routes so I could see other places, but I've always wanted to know what it would be like to hunt with a Wind Eagle."
29. What occupation do you admire the most? Why?
"Hunters. I've always wanted to be one. They're so important to Wind Reach and their archery skills are amazing. Every hunter seems to have their own way of doing things too, you know? People think it's not a creative thing like the stuff glassworkers do, but they're wrong. You can't just do things by the basics, nothing ever goes as planned and you have to adapt to that. I've seen a huntress take down a moose with rope! If that isn't amazing, I don't know what is."
30. What occupation do you least like? Why?
"Some of the things the drudges do doesn't exactly look like fun. I know it's all necessary to keep Wind Reach running smoothly but a lot of it just seems awful."
Childhood :
31. What sort of child were you?
"I don't know. Happy? Normal? I guess I was quieter than other Yasi, but not exceptionally so. I had a lot of problems concentrating on things a lot of time. I guess I still sort of do."
32. What is your favorite memory from childhood?
"When my mom taught me how to shoot an arrow. It's one of the only times I can think of when she was really patient with me and right from the start I knew I really loved it. Not sure why I'm not better at it, actually. Maybe it's because I just kept expecting to learn from her and was being stubborn with other teachers. I don't know... but yeah, that's totally my favorite."
33. What is your worst memory from childhood?
"I want to say it was the day that I fully realized I wasn't going to get picked for an apprentice. I really was scared they were going to make me a Dek when I turned fifteen. Though, I don't know if that counts. Being a Yasi isn't really like being a child anymore. Maybe then it would just be when my mom yelled at me once, said I was the reason my sister was dead. She was really mad at the time. Well, not mad. Just really upset. It wasn't even my birthday. I just don't like to think about that day."
34. What sort of relationship did you have with your parents?
"I don't know my father. My mother was difficult sometimes. But I guess I was too. Sometimes she would try to teach me things so much and would seem happy even if I only barely managed something. But there were other days when it seemed like I couldn't do anything right."
35. Who was your most influential role model?
"Pretty sure it's not really going to be a surprise when I say my mother. She was a huntress and really was good with birds and archery. I guess really all I want is to just be like her. Not her though. I want to be my own version of what she was."
Education :
36. What sort of education do you have?
"Average, I suppose? I was taught a lot of basics of various crafts and skills around Wind Reach, but I don't remember really any of them. I was caught Common, which I'm really glad of now because I have to use it all the time to talk to Zhol. I guess overall it's more practical stuff? I learned archery when I was really little. And I can read and write, just probably not as good as anyone who has really focused in it."
37. Do you like/dislike learning?
"I love learning. I don't think you can stop learning, really. Everything you do has a lesson to it, even if it's just talking to someone or going to the market or tracking an animal. There's always something new to learn. I actually wish I had more time to go to the Enclave and really be trained in some new things. Though I think a lot of the classes are reserved for Endal and Avora."
38. Where or how did you learn most of your skills/abilities?
"Most of it I learned while doing all the different bendi as a Yasi. Other stuff my mom taught me."
39. How do you learn best?
"By doing things for sure. I've learned little things here and there from books, but it's always best to just get out there and do things for real. You can't really get a feel for things properly without doing it."
40. What are your educational goals for the future?
"Hunting things, I suppose. I want to know everything involved with it, though. Even if it's the less fun things. I watched Azira cut up a moose once, it wasn't really the most exciting or glamorous thing, but it's part of the job and so it's worth knowing."
Relationships (part 1) :
41. Do you form close bonds with people? Why? Why not?
"I-I don't know. I don't really talk to a lot of people. I don't really have a lot of friends. I guess I just think it's better to keep to myself. Though, I guess Zhol and I are close now. You could call that a bond, if you wanted."
42. Do you trust people easily? If not, why not?
"I have to trust Avora and Endal. But I guess that's not really what the question is. I don't know if I trust people individually. I trust Zhol to keep me safe, though. I trust Dru to always say the right thing at the right time even if she doesn't know it. I trust Azira when I go with her when she's hunting but maybe I shouldn't."
(As of end of Fall 514) "It's harder now to trust people in general, I think. I still am forced to trust some people, hunters especially. As for those I know I trust? It wasn't easy to fully trust myself with Azira but I'm glad I have, I don't regret doing that at all. Dru was easy to trust, she's just that kind. And Zhol? I trust him now more than ever."
43. Do you consider yourself straight, gay, bi, or something else?
"I don't really know. I mean, I know I'm attracted to men, but I think some girls are really pretty too, I just don't really know if it's the same thing."
44. Have you ever been kissed? If so, describe the first time.
"It feels really embarrassing to say I haven't. I guess I've just been too busy and the boys didn't really look at me much when I was younger or anything so... Yeah, no. Not that I wouldn't... I just... okay I'll be quiet now."
(As of end of Fall 514) "I don’t really know how to describe it. Everything was so confusing at that time and I was kind of in a state of shock since Zhol told me he loved me right before. It was nice, though? It was kind of soft and gentle and… nice? I don’t think that really describes it well, but it will have to do."
45. Have you ever had sex? If so, describe the first time.
"Pretty sure the above answer should answer this too. Yeah. Though, not as embarrassing. I know it's not really a big deal like it is in other places, I just... haven't wanted to."
(As of end of Fall 514) "I guess so. I don't really like to think about it. I didn't really like it."
Drugs and Alcohol :
46. Have you ever been drunk? If so, describe your first time.
"Oh gods, I have. It was right after I stopped being a Yasi? A bunch of the other Chiet said we should have a party since it was probably the last time we'd be able to really enjoy ourselves. I remember giggling a lot and had a headache the next morning. It was fun, but I didn't like the kind of dizzy feeling it gave me. It was too hard to be aware of everything around me."
47. Do you like to drink on a regular basis?
"Not really. I like the taste of some of the stuff but yeah, it makes me feel weird."
48. What sort of alcohol do you prefer?
"I think I like it when it's mixed with something like juice. When they're more like candy than anything else."
49. Have you ever tried drugs (mood altering substances)? If so, which kinds and what did you think of them?
"No, and I don't really think I want to."
50. What do you think of drugs and alcohol? Be specific.
"They're not really for me, I guess. Other people can do them if they want, but I like keeping my head clear. I could see them being good in some situations, maybe when you don't really want to know what's going on."
Likes and Dislikes :
51. What are your hobbies?
"I don’t really have any, I think? I used to spend a lot of my free time at the archery ranges but… not so much anymore. I don’t know if that counts as a hobby though, really. Everyone in Wind Reach keeps up their practice in that, it seems.
52. Do you like to read?
"I don’t dislike it, but I don’t really go out of my way to try and get books either. I mostly read when I need to find something out, not really just for fun."
53. What annoys you more than anything else?
"I-I don’t know? Myself more than anything, I guess? That sounds overly negative, though, doesn’t it? But it’s true. I get more annoyed at things I find myself doing than anything else; like when I fidget too much or start babbling, things like that.
54. What do you find the most relaxing activity to do?
"Oh this is going to sound so sappy, but lately? It’s when I just get to be around Zhol when we’re alone. It’s nothing like that, usually we just talk while I rest against him. Sometimes we don’t talk though and we just kinda sit there in silence. It’s not awkward though, just peaceful."
55. What kinds of things embarrass you? Why?
"Whenever someone compliments me I get really flustered. I’m not really used to people saying nice things to me so when they do I get really embarrassed. I guess you could say the normal ‘doing something stupid in front of others’, but that always feels more like a failure than an actual embarrassment."
Favorites :
56. What is your favorite color or colors?
"I like the colors of fire, reds and oranges, mostly. I think red is my actual favorite, though.
57. What is your favorite time of day?
"I like dawn, when the sky is kinda pinkish and Syna just starts coming up. It’s really peaceful and quiet then, usually, just before everything really starts moving for the day."
58. What is the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen?
"I’m not sure. I see a lot of beautiful things every day. From the stained glass that is around Wind Reach to just Skyinarta itself. Though, I do remember one morning when I went out to go scouting and Syna was just coming up over the mountain range and the valley below was filled with fog that just barely hugged the mountains. You could see just the tops of the trees down below and everything was gold and pinkish in color and it was really pretty. It gets like that a lot in Spring during the mornings. I don’t think some people notice and I don’t understand how they can’t see how beautiful everything is where we live"
59. What do you like to eat? What do you hate to eat?
"Hmm, this is kind of tough. I guess I like to eat whatever I’m given? I like the fact we get an option of things, unlike the Dek. I guess the best is when the hunting parties are really successful and we get a bunch of really fresh meat and the gardens have managed a good harvest too, that’s always nice when there’s plentiful food and you get slightly bigger portions. I don’t really like it when it’s near the end of Winter though and we have to go to the emergency stores. You can tell when the food isn’t as fresh and they start really cutting us back on how much we get. It gets a bit scary when you start only getting a small helping of whatever the soup is that day."
60. What is your favorite type of weather? Does any kind scare you?
"I like a lot of different kinds of weather, really! But I guess I like it best in spring on warm days, but before all the snow has melted away. When the air is really… crisp? I guess you could call it. When it’s still somewhat cloudy and it isn’t humid just yet. Yeah, that’s the best. As far as scary? The winter storms. When the blizzards get really bad and the wind is really strong. You can’t go outside when it’s like that and I know it’s just a natural thing but you can’t help but feel like all of Wind Reach made Zulrav angry or something."
Outlook :
61. Are you optimistic or pessimistic?
"I think I’m mostly optimistic? I try to look on the bright side of things. That doesn’t always work though, especially if it has to do with myself."
62. What are your religious views?
"I don’t know if I can just answer this easily? I don’t think I’m religious, but I do sometimes pray to Caiyha and Syna, Eywaat too. I guess I’ve prayed to Zulrav too, but I think it’s because I don’t want to be on his bad side. Ivak is the same way, once we found out he existed, I don’t know if I should be scared of him or not. I know there’s other gods and goddesses out there as well"
63. Would you be able to kill?
"An animal? I would have to if I was a hunter. I haven’t yet, but I think I could do it. A person though? I-I don’t know. It would have to be a really special situation. Maybe if it was someone who was trying to really hurt someone I care about and even then… I… I just don’t know if I could." (As of the end of Fall 514): "I've killed an animal now, it was just a rabbit but it was... Strange, I guess. I felt sad about it at first, but the more I thought about it I realized that us Inarta are predators and the rabbit was just prey, it's a natural thing to have to kill like that if you want to survive."
64. What are your views on sex?
"I don’t see why everyone treats it as something so great. Maybe it’s a good thing when both people want to do it… I don’t know. I don’t think I’ll ever know. N-not that I don’t think Zhol and I would… it’s just… I mean… it’s complicated."
65. What, in your opinion, makes a successful life?
"Doing the best you possibly can, being of the most use to your city and people, and being happy. I think that last part is the most important."
Actions :
66. What is the worst and best thing you’ve ever done?
"The worst? I don’t really think I have a worst. I don’t try and do bad things. Maybe when I let that Avora… but that was only doing what I was told to, like you’re supposed to. Let’s skip that one, ok? The best though? I think that’s when I surprised Dru with bringing Zhol and Azira to her birthday thing. She was so happy to see them. I don’t get chances to do things like that for people but seeing her like that was so worth it."
67. What is your greatest regret?
"Not doing better as a Yasi. If I had paid more attention, if I had learned better… maybe then I would be an Avora. I think a lot of the bad things that have happened to me wouldn’t have happened then."
68. What is your best/worst memory?
"My worst memory is a bit of a tie between when my mother had to put me with the other Yasi, or maybe when I found out she had died in the big Djed Storm. I guess recent stuff with the blacksmith counts in there too, maybe that’s actually the worst, really. My best though? That’s also got a tie now too. I really like the memory of when my mum taught me to shoot an arrow, it’s one of my favorites. But now, I guess… when Zhol and I stopped being silly and told each other how we actually felt. When he kissed me? Yeah, that’s probably one of the best for sure."
69. If you could change one thing about your past, what would it be and why?
"I want to say do better when I was a Yasi, but that’s not really one thing, is it? I guess… I guess maybe it would have been to go with Zhol after we were at the Bent Arrow that one day. I don’t really know if that would have changed anything, though. I get the feeling things would have ended up happening anyway, just at a different time. I guess I could answer this really fantastical and say that I would make it so that I bonded to a Wind Eagle when I was a Yasi, then I would be an Endal! I don’t really know if I would do that, though."
70. What are you the most proud of doing in your life?
"Helping Azira bring in that moose during the Summer of 514. It was the first big game that I tracked on my own and the fact that it was just the two of us who brought all that meat back after she killed it? That was amazing!"
Emotions :
71. How honest are you about your thoughts and feelings with others?
"It depends on who and when and such. I guess overall? Not very. I try to keep my emotions to myself, really. I know that’s not exactly normal for Inarta, but being really emotional as a Chiet gets you attention… usually the bad kind."
72. Do you have any biases or prejudices?
"I don’t think I do, but I probably do. I guess I’m biased against the drudge, but everyone is. I know I used to think that all Symenestra were monsters, but then I met Dru. Though, she’s told me that most of her race is exactly that. I feel the same way about Zith too, but I haven’t ever met one of them to know if they’re really as bad as we’re told."
73. What makes you happy?
"A lot of things! A nice sunrise, being outside in nature, good food, market days, going hunting with Azira, being around Zhol, I even like quiet nights by myself sometimes. I guess I’m just one of those people who is easy to make happy."
74. Who or what, if anything, would you die for?
"I haven’t really thought about that before. I guess if I had to die for Wind Reach itself, I would. I think I would for my friends as well if it meant they would be safe and okay. Really, I think I would be afraid to die, but be able to think it’s okay so long as some sort of actual good came from it."
75. What makes you angry?
"I don’t really know. I actually can’t remember the last time I was angry. A lot of things frustrate me and I’ve been really upset, I know, but that was more hurt and sad. No one’s ever really made me angry recently. I guess I’ll let you know when it happens."
Relationships (part 2) :
76. In general, how do you treat others?
"I try to be nice to everyone, I guess. I have to be respectful of the upper castes, but most of the time I think they deserve it so it isn't too hard to do. I don't try and be mean to the drudge but I know I can be a bit short tempered with them sometimes."
77. Who is the most important person in your life, and why?
"R-Right now? Probably Zhol. He's my... Everything, I guess. That sounds silly to say it that way. He's just...He's just very important to me."
78. Who is the person you respect the most, and why?
"The Valintar. And... I guess I just do. I've never really questioned him. I guess the Tavina an Tavinar are like that too, though. It's just expected."
79. Do you have a spouse or significant other? If not, describe an ideal lover.
"Y-yes. Now I do. And he's perfect to me."
80. Do you trust anyone to protect you? Who, and why?
"Zhol. Because I always have, I always will. I do trust Azira to protect me if need be though, too. I think Dru would too, actually. I guess it's the same as the people I actually truly trust in general."
Group Situations :
81. Do you tend to argue with people, or avoid conflict?
"I try to avoid conflict when I can. Nothing really good comes from making a scene or being argumentative, really. Maybe if I was a higher caste member I might end up arguing with someone... probably not, though."
82. Do you tend to take on leadership roles in social situations?
"I'm just a Chiet, we don't lead. Though, sometimes I guess lately I've acted more like a leader than I ever thought I would. It makes me uncomfortable."
83. Do you like interacting with large groups of people? Why or why not?
"Large groups of people are really draining and they make me nervous. I don't mind so much being just an anonymous person among them, but if I had to actively engage them all? No... No I don't think I'd like that at all."
84. Do you care what others think of you?
"I want to say 'no', because that seems like the right sort of answer, but it's not true. I do care. I care if the Avora hate me, I care if the Endals think I'm worthless. I hate disappointing people, even if i don't know them. I don't think I need to be liked so much as I just don't want them to think I'm useless."
85. What do you think of others, in general?
"That's a very difficult question. You can't really generalize people, I think. They're as different as the weather or plant types or anything else. I think mostly though that people are good. They may not always do good things, but they have good intentions. Mostly. There's definitely those that aren't like that."
Self Image :
86. What is your greatest strength as a person?
"I think I'm a fairly loyal person. It's kind of demanded a bit because of my caste, but there's quite a few people I would stand behind now, even if I didn't have to."
87. What is your greatest weakness?
"I'm too scared. No, that's not the right word... I'm too... I let people push me around too much. I know we can't say no to things but I wonder if sometimes I should. I guess maybe I just think that everything will be okay and then it's not and it's my fault. No, okay, that's it; even Zhol has said so. I blame myself for things too much. I always think everything is my fault, even when I've been clearly told it isn't."
88. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
"I wish I was more courageous."
89. Are you generally introverted or extroverted?
"I'm not sure. Maybe mostly introverted but extroverted depending on who I am around. Usually I look to myself for everything and I liked my times alone, but lately there are others that I feel really energize me. I feel really good when I'm around them and prefer them to being alone. So... I'm not sure which that really makes me."
90. Are you generally organized or messy?
"Does organized mess make sense? I know where everything I want is and which backpack it is in or what side of my trunk it's in but I don't think someone else would be able to find anything so easily among my things."
Beliefs :
91. What God or Goddess do you find most appealing, if any?
"Caiyha and Syna. I can't really pick between the two as they're both important to me. I spent a lot of time outside in the wilderness of The Unforgiving, so I basically put myself at Caiyha's mercy every time I step outside the Sanikas Gates. But, I don't feel like I'm alone. On sunny days I have Syna overhead to watch over me and keep me safe. I don't like it when it's cloudy so much for that reason."
92. Which God or Goddess do you fear, if any?
"I guess it sounds silly, but I think maybe Zulrav? I don't think that's fear so much as he just is really intimidating to me. There are other gods though, bad ones of pain and disease and betrayal... I guess those are the ones I fear, but I think you have to know more about something to really fear it and I don't know much about any of them; I'm not sure I want to."
93. Do you have any Gnosis Marks? If so, how did you receive them?
"No. I don't think I ever will, either. I'm not worth that sort of notice."
94. What lengths would you go to to please your deity?
"I don't really know. I've never really considered myself a religious person but I guess if they needed me to do something I would do it. They're a god, after all, what choice do you really have?"
95. Where do you draw the line at pleasing your deity? What is too much?
"I don't think any of the gods I pray to would ever ask it of me, but I don't think I could ever do anything that would hurt the people I care about. I much rather the deity was angry with me and hurt me than them."
Life & Death :
96. What do you absolutely live for?
"Just living, I suppose. Isn't that enough? Just experiencing each day, good or bad."
97. What is the best part of life?
"I think a few seasons ago I would have repeated the above, but now I think I can safely say it's just... Love. I don't think I've ever felt anything that made me as happy or felt this good every single day. I hope everyone can feel that way at some point in their lives."
98. What is the best part of death?
"I think maybe it's the excitement of what comes next. What sort of person you will be when you are reborn, where you will be, who you will meet and all the possibilities that are there. I don't want to give up what I have now, but when my time comes, I think that I will be both terrified and curious."
99. If you could choose, how would you want to die?
"Peacefully when I sleep, I think! I don't know anyone that would want some sort of violent death."
100. What is the one thing for which you would most like to be remembered after your death?
"I'll only be remembered by maybe a small handful of people, so I just hope that they remember me for who I was to them; a friend, someone who could be relied on, and in one case the person they loved and all that went with that. I guess overall I just want to be remembered as someone who did good things, whatever they were."
