by Belgar on October 25th, 2011, 2:53 pm
It was easy enough to let go of rage. Hindsight had crept up on him and tainted it with chagrin, wallowing as a nagging afterthought atop deeper-set passions. Beneath Hadrian’s guidance, the Kelvic’s aura softened like tossed shavings from a sculpture of hard ice. On the coattails of rage, violence fled. Enmity, distrust, anger... each was a sentiment Belgar had only recently unearthed from where he had buried it in youth, each of which had been carefully stripped from him in turn.
What was left was sadness.
That false sobriety, that civility, which he had fought to maintain for over a decade, began to shatter in the memory of the dead woman who had put it there and the magic that had ended her. An ugly sob racked through his nose and shoulders; fresh tears poured like hot daggers over his face. His hand flew up to hide his misery, but a peculiar trust compelled him to stay where he was. “No,” he replied as soon as he was able, “That will not be... needed.”
He pressed the balls of his hands into his eyes, as if he could push back the tears. If he were a bear, he would not have had that problem. If he were a bear, we would have been content to rip to pieces all things unfamiliar. “The law does not...” He began to explain, but it was hard to admit that he was wrong. He did not know what was right, but he knew in his heart that he was wrong. The law would protect Hadrian, and rightfully. The law would have punished the man that had killed Seisswyn, if he had not already killed himself. His people had spoken dearly of her, had called her story a tragedy. She had been a warrior, an artist, a mentor and a friend. But they had not known her. They could not care, like he did. “Your people,” he clarified finally, realizing how he must seem a fool for not having done so earlier. His hand lowered. He turned away. “They killed her, because they could not... restrain... I cannot...”
If he had a bear’s throat, Belgar might have emitted a rumbling groan, but his human voice could not fathom such a pitch, so he only sighed. He turned his attention towards the distant, unseen city of Avanthal. His breath was coming short again, over and over again, until it was labored and clouding the air with a white steam. “I will—take you,—if you require. I may—need—a moment—”
If you don’t stand for something, you’ll fall for anything.