Of wolves and men. (neekra) [job thread]

[Ximal]

letting her rest gently against his chest hidden beneath the blanket he took his slow breaths. and held onto her waist again,, her soft skin scraping against his scarred flesh. He listened to her voice again. listening to the story that had been written with her as it's main character. The simplistic story, and it made his heart sink a little. Both of her parents were gone, both of them kelvics. A cruel master and a cruel fate. Her story was not too much unlike his own, and then felt her burrow into his chest, her soft skin pressing on his hard burnt chest. then went on to explain about how she found the spires and that if this had not happened she wouldn't have been able to tell him to help save lives. Then he felt her head nestle into his neck. He almost wanted to shake her head and say something but before he could she spoke again asking him what he meant by secret. Should he tell her ? Should he let her know about the single issue that bit into him every time he relaxed about the force that seeped into his body every time he relaxed. Should he tell her about Liro? Strangely he felt he could trust ehr that she wouldnt completely freak if she found out. but then the voice crept back into his head whispering. Your scared to let people know about me, about the part that just wants to kill, to eat, to hoard and to bed every woman he comes across? Your scared to tell her about the true half, about me. I feel so honoured that i've managed to push you into a state of utter terror, now just let the madness consume you and this can be over soon... Liro...You've no power over me. Steeling himself he took a deep breath before starting to speak. "There is a secret, one that i keep hidden all too well. The other side of me. the one that acts on pure instinct and emotion. Just doing what he wants with no regard for the consequences at all. All he does is make things harder for me. And things more ' delightful ' for himself." Xi exhaled the rest of his breath slowly, letting the air and weight of shouldering a burden like this just roll of for a small time. "it's the one thing i wish i could alter...But i know i cannot control it nor do i have any power over it. "

[Neekra]

He was speaking of another person. The other side of me. Was he only half of his being? Was there more, something… someone she hadn’t seen yet? She had only heard of possessions. Was this one of them and could he change at any moment into a blood thirsty monster?

The series of her own thoughts surprised her. Change at any moment into a blood thirsty monster… it reminded her so much of herself. Yes, as a human she had a mild temper and a higher sense of control but that was only because she wasn’t capable of doing the same damage in this form as the other form. As a wolf, she could only be stopped by a force stronger than herself. Was he the same way?

Act on raw instincts and emotions. Raw instincts. Raw emotions. That was how she made decisions on a normal basis. Does it feel right? Will it hurt? Is it best for my survival? That was how she functioned day in and day out. But then again, that’s what separated them. She was simple and primitive while he was human, complex and multifaceted, even though he claimed to be simple. To her, it sounded like he was fighting basic instincts, the instincts she had no choice but to accept and act on. The fact that he wanted to control and over powered them was evidence.

And things more delightful for himself. He was talking another person for sure. But how… Was it possession after all?

As she picked through her thoughts, she could sense the growing heat radiating between them. It was a huge improvement from being wet and soaking and she was hoping he noticed it as well. Before speaking, she placed her hands on top of his. “I kind of understand what you’re talking about except I choose to act on my instincts no matter the consequences most of the time. I’m a hunter. I find pleasure in the kill. The sight and smell of blood makes my heart race. It’s impossible to stop those things. I attacked you because I felt like I had to so I did. Of course, I couldn’t do the same thing in this form; I’d never win.” Suddenly she felt so small in his arms. Still it was a good feeling. She took one hand away from his and absentmindedly watched her finger as it traced over the lines of the muscles in his arm. “It sounds like you’re talking about the bad part of your conscious that you just want to push out of your head; but on the other hand, it sounds like possession by the way you said ‘himself’, like there’s someone inside of you. So which is it, Xi?”

[Ximal]

Xi sighed, letting the weight of this issue roll off of him even as the icy fire of those talons sink back into the hold on his head. Xi's arms clenched lightly around her waist pulling her in tighter and making his muscles firm against her, he could feel the softness the smoothness of her skin against him,even the heat of her was making liro tear at his skull, right now all he could do was hold back the thing that took control no matter what happened. She could understand what he was talking about...? Perhaps she could, then again perhaps all kelvics could, liro was more akin to a beast than a man. looking to staunch his unquenchable thirst for the baser things in life. Murder, violence, theft, perversion, procreation... Xi shook the thoughts from his head without moveing. holding onto her tightly he listed to her speak. Herr voice filtering out gently into the air and sinking into his ears as he held her there her heat pulsating against him, and spurring liro on. She couldn't stop her lower and raw emotion, whist his were just pure. No thought, no effect, no after thought. Just DO. She'd never win as she was now, and he was only powerful because on an innate talent he had. He felt his arms grow harder still without growing tighter. The effects of his inner fight with liro were beginning to show. Though her next question threw him. Was it a possession...Or another side of himself? He didn't really know. He just knew that occasionally he lost control over what he did, and he couldn't tell when and it was always at the worst possible time. "I honestly don't know. I don't know whether its another side of me, or another piece of me, or not part of me at all. All i know is that it terrifies me. I don't know where it will strike and being honest he's striking right now...He only strikes when i'm at my weakest or most open. But always when i take my mind off of him does he slip in and assume control. " Xi could feel himself falling now but just holding onto his self, pulling back from the edge with ever short pause. "No man is free...Only children and fools think otherwise. Everyone struggles with a burden, everyone has chains that hind be they slave be they master, be they king or be they god. Something that binds them and compels them to either move or give up. It makes them stronger or it breaks them. Liro just happens to be the part of me that is my chain, my burden. And he hasn't broken my spirit yet." Xi could feel her tracing his arm. the slow movements of her light touch running down his arm. Could he hold back liro? Or would he slip and unleash the monster within?

[Neekra]

Liro… That’s what he called his other side, the beast within, and his primitively sinful wants and desires. Neekra imagined Liro as a snake that tried to weave its way in when emotions were high or when Xi was locked in an on-edge situation. Unfortunately, she was the cause of his struggle now. Being so close, naked, and inquiring on his secret was making Liro act out in his head. She remembered her own actions of trying to break and make him run in fear. Little did she know, he was very close to the edge but it wasn’t completely her doing, it was a force she couldn’t see. He admitted he was scared of it. He admitted to losing control. He admitted that Liro was messing with him as this moment. Then he admitted that at this moment Liro was very much alive. So would he lose control? Only if she pushed him to far. But how far was to far?

No man is free… She could see how he would think that but she didn’t know if it applied to herself. By her standards, she was free. She reported to no one and was told what to do by no one. No parents. No master. No partner. No authority. No god. She lived for herself and did what she had to do to stay alive for another day. Though as she gave it thought, she remembered the Spires government that she lived under but that was nothing that she couldn’t run from if need be. Other than that, she was free to roam and wander where she wished. Thus was the life of a kelvic predator. Though, she did understand what he was taking about, there was a time when she was leashed.

As she traced the lines in his arm, she felt his cords of muscle involuntarily and slightly tighten. Even the simplest touches affected him. She wondered if just that was spurring Liro on. Her finger stopped suddenly but stayed on his flesh. “Why don’t you…” She paused in mid-sentence. What did you do to get rid of the unwanted voices in a person’s head? Could he ignore it? Was there a way to kill it even though it had no blood? Did it have something to do with some form of religion? “…get rid of him?” she finished. “Or subdue him at least.” Neekra placed hand hand on his thigh and turned in his lap. Now, sideways against him like when he was carrying her, she could see his face and those beautiful blue eyes once again. She curled up against his chest. “You shouldn’t have to be afraid of something that’s not real. I wish I could help you but I don’t know very much about these things.”

[Ximal]

holding her lightly he could feel liro growing closer and closer to completely consuming his head clawing and searing at the cords and fibres of his mind pulling his way into the fore front. Xi took slow breaths just containing the monster which tried to consume him, almost completely forgetting about the situation he found himself in. Even his voice had a trace of shakiness now, a l=flicker of terror crossed with insurmountable anger. Not at her but at himself for consistently being too weak to hold back the beast within. Kelvics were beasts but they were beasts because they knew no better. He and liro did yet liro still chose the path of the in-humane. Then she began to speak again asking him a rather...redundant question. Her firs one throughout the whole conversation. Why didnt he do something about liro? Xi almost found himself laughing at the statement. still he held it in as he had his eyes now bore deep into hers trying to convey some understanding about his situation. "I've tried. But i don't know how too. He's something i don't know how to classify. Is he me? Is he something else? All i can do is try and restrain hima and pray that no-one else has to suffer him." Xi pulled her tighter against him pressing her back into his chest harder. He was loosing the struggle against liro and could feel him pulling until. The slip. Xi found himself falling and barely hanging on. Liro had slipped out.

Liro smiled as he filled out Xi's body just listening to Xi's pleas to leave this "woman" alone. Liros face contorted into a sadistic smile which then slowly laid on the lashings of hysteria and insanity as she spoke about him not being real. She didn't know very much about these things. That was too petching obvious. Liro twisted his grip around her waist with Xi raging at him whilst trying to pull himself back from the precipice. Then finally to break the silence liro spoke , his voice amiably higher in pitch but not volume. And a fleck of insanity trailing out over the end of his speech, and a some what eerie laugh preceding him as he spoke. "it's clear you don't have much experience dealing with things like me. Or else you would know not to get so cozy with the carrier of a beast." Liro smiled almost... Satanically before twisting his grip rolling with her and throwing her body onto the bed and arching himself over her looking down into her eyes using his massive torso to make her feel even smaller from the submissive position. The Fire of Xi's determination switched with the flashing electricity of insanity and desire. Liro did what he wanted because he wanted too. And right now this "proud" wolf had become the prey of a much larger beast. His eye's bore into hers and tried to convey that fact. She was trapped, pinned. He rolled his eyes around before boreing them straight back into hers. Liro tilted his head to the side like a predator ready to take the first bite, and leant in close before speaking again slowly and almost seductively. "You speak a lot about something you do not know. Perhaps you'd like to discover just what i am? Is the prospect of discovering what a monster is too much for you? or is it something you'd like to learn more of? After all things like this don't come around often, and i'd be more than willing to "discover " more about you, after all, i came out juuuust to see you..." The almost painfully brutal smile lurched back onto his face as he sare down into her eyes. As Xi faught his way beck into control. Liro could feel this, the fun of release and the prospect of having fun. finally her let him self laugh a little, that eerie maniacal almost painful laugh of supremacy. He had total control over teo things right now. Xi's body...and this woman.

[Neekra]

The muscles in his arms grew tighter. Something was changing. His eyes… there was something else there. It wasn’t just the man she was familiar with any more. Xi was changing. Was it Liro? Was he there? Xi…If Liro came out where would Xi go?

When he spoke, Neekra found his voice was strange. Fear and anger drenched the words that he spoke. She believed that it was Xi. He was still with her but for how long? Neekra took a deep breath, confused on what to do about the situation. It was over her head, far to complex for her to make sense of. But her senses didn’t lie. Fear had a smell, and insanity had a look. These two things she knew. And she knew that she was experiencing both of them at that moment.

She felt him pull her in. His grip was firm. She let her head rest on one of his pectoral muscles, hoping that this man that she allowed herself to get so close to would not suddenly change and try to kill her. She wasn’t sure any more. He was so unstable.

Then a grin appeared on his face. It was different from any smile Xi had ever shown her before, full of madness and mania. This wasn’t Xi. No. It couldn’t be… His arms wrapped around her waist carefully, dangerously, tight. Immediately, Neekra wanted out. She began to squirm in an attempt to free herself but the uncanny laugh stopped her cold. Even his voice was different. The warm, deep voice that she had grown a liking to had changed into a high pitch sound of pure lunacy. It's clear you don't have much experience dealing with things like me. Or else you would know not to get so cozy with the carrier of a beast. Carrier of a beast? She was one of those people. She carried a beast as well. This voice… this thing… was not a beast. It was a monster.

Before she could tell this monster what was on her mind, he rolled with her and slammed on her back in the bed she once found comfort in. A second later, she stared into the eyes of lust and choas as he hovered just inches above her. He was massive and she felt so small. His hands trapped her arms against her side so that she had no way to escape, no way to fight back. Fear flashed through her mind. Now that he had he pinned, what would he do to her?

She watched with a stone cold stare as he rolled his eyes around then connected them back to hers. He lowered his head with a slow tilt. He was so close; she could feel his breath melting on her cheeks. Her hate for him was visious and she was sure that it was showing in her eyes. She loved and hated the same body. How was that possible? She wasn’t willing to figure it out now. Now she had to deal with the monster that was restraining her. She hated being held down as well. Hated it! It was the sign of submission. It was the position of prey. And she would not submit nor would she not be his prey. She refused.

Then he began to speak again; this time slower with a hint of an erotic tone. Did she want to know more about this monster? Did she want to know exactly who Liro was? Surprisingly, she did. She wanted to know more but also she was terrified of the results. Unlike Xi, Neekra had no doubt that this demon would really hurt her and not think twice about it.

Anger poured in and heated her body. As the top corner of her full red lips lifted, a white elongated canine was revealed. Could she do damage in this form? Not if he had all of Xi’s strength but if she was forced to, she wouldn’t think twice about trying or changing back for that matter. But there were problems with changing back into her wolf form. First, she couldn’t communicate with him. And second, Liro was in Xi’s body. Any damage she did to Liro, Xi would have to bear when he came back, whenever that maybe. She stared him straight in the eyes and began to speak. Her voice deep with an insuppressible rage. She growled, “You sick bastard, you think you’re so powerful but you’re wrong. And you’re wrong about something else too. I know what you are now. You’re a coward that’s hiding underneath the skin of a man that’s stronger than you will ever be. You’re no monster, you’re just a voice with a little bit of control, that’s all. So yes, I loved to see who you are. Who you REALLY are? Then maybe I’ll have the chance to tear you apart.”

She realized, as she bared her teeth, that they were back to where they started. But this time, Neekra knew that Liro wouldn’t play fair.

[Ximal]

Liro smiled the small rolling moments right now drgged on even as he could see, indecision rising in her features. The anger, the indecision, the uncertancy. Oh Xi knew how to pick them. Liro let his hands creep closer to her, holding himself closer to her keeping his eyes locked on her. Even a predator was prey for another beast. nd right now this proud wolf was just something for him to dine on. She had already lost wether she believed she had or not. Liro kept that ceaseless grin of both dom inance and lunacy plastered across his face, eyes still pulsing with ideas. His body lowered as the blanket fell off of him, revealing the pair of them to the open cool air. RIght now he wasnt threatening her, he was simpley toying with ehr useing the tactics he knew best. Death was for men, and only then it as a final release from the physical anguish he pushed them through. With women he preffered to take his time, and slowly pull their minds apart brick by brick. Lower their armour and pull their minds deep into the ever crushing depths of torment and hysteria. Still he smiled, andd ground the will of his against her still defiant nature. Still every creature could be house broken. The leopard took a relaxed but commanding hand, the tiger a dominant and firm showing of power, then the woman had simply taken a light touch of tenderness. But no, the wolfwas proveing more difficult because Xi had revealed him. Given her a chance to put up her fortifications, to build her barricades around the strong hold of her mind. Still he smiled though, the line of insanity sill was his favourite weapon. his lips parted then before his voice careened out but with a purpose. "Well, arent you the clever one. Although i'd say youve a sharp tongue but then again i know of a snake with a much sharper one. Still, i'm not powerful as far as physiccality i concerned however i do blister in the powers of hard ever present hatred and insanit with my words. I work better by useing my head. I'm no monster, and Xi no man. He's a broken husk of a man. He's nothing but a shadow of a man. And i simply fill in where he falters. I'm tha hand that guides his rage, the voice that gives him meaning. I lead him to the path of destruction wether he wants to believe it or not. I'm a voice with a little control am i ? And yet your the one unable to act. Your the one pinned to the submissive state. You cant attack me without harming Xi. And because of that i know that you wont attack. Xi's good at gaining people who like him, and because of that when i appear often i'm left unscathed. Sill that means little to nothing because any pain inflicted upon his body does me NO HARM." Liro lent closer useing the full size of his chest to pressure her deeper in to the matres. The scars on his body now rippling in the light of the fire. each one signalling something about him. His hands clawed against the matres as he moved closer still. Pinning her almost immovably. Sill he could feel Xi pulling back up at his place in control. Not much time left before that pesky little bastard burrowed back into control. Liro smiled before pushing himself closer to her face again. "No man is free...Xi is my marionett. My puppet on a string, the one under my control. Because i control his body so easily, i can simply do what i wish, however. I prefer to let my prey sit and stew. To simmer and bubble over in their own fear. You despite being a kelvic, are weak, unless you shift. Even then, your powerful wolf form was vanquished by the strength of a human. How does it feel to know that it's not only your human side that is weak ? That you are powerless? He's recovering faster than i would have thought. " Liro closed n on her face stopping a few milimeters shy of her face, his light beard just touching her lips, even that pared canine doing nothing to make him waver. The pules of electrizity in his eyes burrowed deeper into her eyes. " I wanted to see what kind of woman Xi had met this time. He always seems to get the women with a past, one that troubles them. Usually i can break it...You'll be no exception. Until then, enjoy your freedom. It just means i'll enjoy stealing it from you even more." He held is positioning so very close to ehr body, her skin just brushing against his as he hovered over her. As Xi clawed his way back into control and liro began to relinquish it.

Within seconds. Xi had regained control. Almost stunned with the ease that he'd regained his hold over his body. Taking a few moments to adjust himself it then snapped into his head just exactly where he was and how close to her he was. Almost reactively a small rush of colour flooded to his cheeks. As he reared back sharply putting some space between them to let her have some room to breath. He almost felt himself cringeing. What had liro done this time, what shoudl he say how should he apologize what shoudl he do what shoulfd he...A million thoughts like this flipped through his head at almost light speed he was so close to her and liro had almost done something xi would regret. He was supposed to be treating ehr like a guest not a piece of meat. he shook his head and completely pulled himself off of her, entirely now. kneeling instead of arching over her. His low voice finally broke the silence as he almost cowered out the question, and apology. "I'm sorry...I meant to contain him as best i could...He...Didn't do any thing did he ?"

[Neekra]

That grin of insanity never wavered, always taunting and laughing. His eyes filled with wild insanity drove into hers. And she couldn’t escape. As he began to speak to her, she listened, steeling her heart and let each of his vile words coax her growing rage.

… and Xi no man. He's a broken husk of a man. He’s lying. Kill him, her mind whispered.
And yet you’re the one unable to act. Kill him.
You’re the one pinned to the submissive state. Kill him.
Kill him. Kill him. Kill him!

You can’t attack me without harming Xi. That fact almost didn’t matter anymore. She wanted him off of her and she wanted him dead. She wanted to rip him apart. She wanted to taste his blood. She would not submit to him.

As she squirmed underneath him, feeling for a chance to counter him, she felt his weight fall on her, pressing her deep into the mattress. Skin on skin, she could felt him, every part of him. She knew it was the same for him. Liro pressed against her chest, restricting her air. If she wasn’t so enraged, she would have thought of this as a very sensual moment, but right now, those thoughts were the farthest ones from her conscious. As he slid against her, she grabbed the sheets and balled her hands into tight fists. Then he began to speak again.

You despite being a kelvic, are weak, unless you shift.
Even then, your powerful wolf form was vanquished by the strength of a human.
How does it feel to know that it's not only your human side that is weak ?
That you are powerless?
Lies! Kill him!

But even though she didn’t want to admit it, he was right. She couldn’t move. His weight was to overbearing. Her eyes burned with liquid golden fire burned into his and her fingernails dug into her palms as he pulled ever closer. Now, the stubble of his chin lightly brushed her lips. He was teasing her, trying to break her, but it wasn’t going to happen. Unbreakable, it was the one thing they both had in common.

She braced herself for his next round of words when she realized he was saying good bye. Did that mean Xi would come back? No. She didn’t get a chance to fight back yet. He couldn’t degrade her then disappear. But he did, just he magical appeared, he magically vanished. All at once, Liro’s wicked smiled faded with the lunacy in his eyes. And Xi was left.

For a few moments, she could tell he had no recognition, like his whole mind set was recalculating. But then he came to life and so did the color in his cheeks. She’d imagine that his position over her was surprising but she was even more surprised that he didn’t remember anything. He reared back and she began to breathe again though it was slightly labored.

He apologized and asked what happen. What happened? How could she tell him? She imagined her eyes that still glowed with fire could tell him a lot. Still before she could say anything she had to stand, so she got to her feet. Just that simple motion and knowing that she was free calmed her nerves slightly. But even though he could change emotions in a few seconds, she could not. Her rage still ripped at her mind. Still she had the urge to kill him. She spoke before she thought, canines exposed.

“This isn’t over, I swear. Next time he comes out to play I’ll show him who’s weak and I’ll show him that I’m not the one that’s going to submit. He will!” she paused for a second and exhaled a small growl then inhaled again.

[Ximal]

XI hunched over at the edge of the mattress a good way away from her. For no other reason that to make sure that he didn't act on the impulses lion was still pushing towards him. A real driving force behind him, but no he held himself away holding himself back and letting the heat in his body try to dissipate. Though her next words came as nothing more than a near inevitability. If liro appeared again she would try to make him submit. liro didn't bend, nor did he break, he didn't even waver. Though the growl that followed from her was....more arousing than intimidating in the current setting. Xi really had to hold back. He hunched over leaning onto his knees with his elbows. He was annoyed with himself for letting liro slip out. Damn it. Xi took a long deep breath to both help him hold back himself and restrain the surging anger. "I'm sorry Neekra...i didn't mean to let him out...This is what he does he slips out and then completely takes control. I didn't mean too. I'm sorry." Xi's musculature visibly hardened like every single muscle in his body bgan to explode at the same time. Mostly though anger partially to hold himself back. Was he really that weak? Did he really have that little strength? What cod he do to hold himself back from the edge of slipping back into liro again? Or letting him take over as the case may be. His hand rose to stroke his temples lightly, what was happening to him. "Neekra...anything that liro said...Ignore it, it's just his way of trying to break people down, and he's even admitted to me...He only chooses those who're strong...with a bleak past..." Xi began to almost visibly shake, not from the cold but from anger. The world around him began to spin as he tried to fight back an insurmountable urge to hit some thing, to really do something some damage.

oocSorry for the extremely crappy post DX

[Neekra]

The room was thick was almost an unbearable tension. Neekra crossed her arms over her breast and looked away rather than watch him move the edge of the bed. She tried to quiet the urge to attack him. He’s open, her mind told her, get him back. She knew he wasn’t the same. Xi and Liro were two different people no matter how confusing it seemed. Attacking now would be a waste of time; in fact, attacking that body at all would be a waste.

She began to pace slowly back and forth in front of the fire to take the edge off of her restless impulses. Then she realized he was apologizing again. There was no need to be sorry. Being sorry didn’t change anything. Liro was strong, stronger than she had ever imagined in the first place. And he was real. Or was he? It was funny. After encountering him at full force, she still didn’t know what exactly he was. But the desire to know had not died, it had only grown stronger. Now, she was tempted to try and draw him out, to push Xi so that she could meet Liro once again. However Xi was fighting hard to keep him locked up; it wasn’t her place to interfere though she already had.

Ignore it was the next thing she heard him say. How was she supposed to do that when he had assaulted her? When he had held her down and tried to make her beg for mercy? Ignoring him was something that she couldn’t do. Especially when the voice that come from those twisted lips would follow her for the rest of her short life.

When he finished talking, she was ready with a reply but a sound caught her attention as she neared the door during her pace. It was loud like chair had been thrown against the ground but then she remember that they were right above a bar. It was probably just another fight between two drunkards. So she turned and as she went to continue pacing, her eyes caught Xi hunched over and… shaking ever so slightly. She noticed how taunt his muscles were. Was Liro trying to break loose again?

She sighed as she continued to pace towards him. “You shouldn’t be sorry. It’s not your fault. And don’t worry; Liro didn’t hurt me not one bit. In fact, I think he might have helped me.” She turned again, her eyes set on the floor. “Now I know what to expect next time I see him. I know how cruel his is. I know you weren’t lying or making any of it up. I don’t know if you can talk to him or not but if you can, tell him that I can’t wait until our next meeting.” She turned, this time in his direction and whispered, “I’m just sorry that you have to deal with him all the time.”