Summer 17, 463
'The Kitrean Mountains! Aaaah...what magnificence!' Kuvarakh thought with appreciation. Truly, the stately peaks were worthy of thousands of canvases, poems and songs. Rich colors rising in peaks of power, bracketed by blue marbled skies, touched by the soft feathering of cirrus, or swathed in the awesome violence of thunderheads. Winds rushing in harmonies of treesong, a chorus of a billion leaves and needles swaying in exhilarated celebration of their glorious mountain home. It was the teeth of the gods, gleaming in a smile of brilliant, blessed isolation. Reserved for only a very few willing to brave the elements of tribulation.
It was no wonder the Isur were an isolationist people. Proud of their independence. Guarded in the purity of their culture. Kuvarakh had some understanding of how they felt. When he was a living human, living in Zeltiva, he had spent many bells staring in rapt adoration of the neighboring mountains. So powerful, so sturdy, so reliable. Even with the color changes of passing seasons, there was a permanence that transcended mortal achievements and goals. There was a changelessness that made nearly everything suffered or celebrated seem petty by comparison.
'Nearly everything' he thought sagging with the memory of his daughter's death. That was his mountain, his changeless vista of eternity. He had chosen to become the Nuit he was now, the ever-searching river spanning the world, driven to find meaning for the dark emptiness that still kept a measure of his decaying soul festering in anguish.
He had given up on the hate that had motivated him in the early years. To think he had become a Nuit to gain the time to continue searching! A Nuit, of all things. One of THEM! But he no longer numbered them among the enemy. It was a part of how he identified with the Isur. To all the rest of the world, they seemed cold, sullen and withdrawn. But what cause had the Isur to embrace a world that rushed to judgement of what they didn't know.
As a Nuit, he understood that perfectly. Yet, he also knew his own guilt in that regard. A Nuit had been the one that murdered his daughter. The cycle of hate and the refusal of understanding had nearly broke his humanity. But he had come to finally see the desperation that had led to his daughter's death. He did not excuse it, not by any means. But he understood it, now. And with understanding came identification. Identification with the loathing that the warm bodies now held towards him. That drove them to pack mentality, determined to assume rationales of preemptive defensive extremes.
The Nuit had been pursued through Zeltiva. Only certain death awaited him in the face of any living citizen. He came upon the girl. His hypnosis, a quick solution to any resistance. A cellar, to spend the needed bells while he claimed her stilled body and made his way to the ships to slip away before the darkening tongue and bags beneath his eyes appeared to betray his true nature.
Kuvarakh had had this debate with himself so many times it had worn ruts in his emotions. He still despised that Nuit as his daughter's killer, but also he blamed the humans that drove him to seek such harsh means of escape. Then again, he hated the other Nuit that had betrayed the first to the mob in the first place. Kuvarakh had no doubt that the betrayer Nuit did not concern himself with what consequences of exposing his fellow. And then he had killed the one in his daughter's body on the ship ride to Sahova. So it was all in perfect, flawless, vain.
