Zandelia could not help but feel the warmth of triumph as the conversation began to turn more into what she wanted it to be - a mild investigative interrogation. She liked to know who she spent her time with, to ferret out as much of what they did not want her to know as she could. She had heard of the saying ‘what you don’t know can’t hurt you’ and considered it a pretty saying. In reality, however, it was often what one did not know that led to their downfall. She would not be caught out by such a lack of forewarning if she could help it. She watched the giant opposite her as he spoke, looked beyond him and into his aura as the sound of his words floated through her ears. It was something she was still trying to get used to, could not keep up for long, and so she had chosen a quick approach.
I need to get as much information as quickly as possible, but look at those hues! He’s feeling several things at once, so quickly it’s as if he’s several people packed into one body! Yellow…the yellow means sorrow. I think. Red is anger, that’s easy enough. And he has the crackle of gold that denotes the truth – at least some of it she told herself, trying to relate when the colors had appeared to the conversation.
She mused upon that, letting her mind shift back through the words he had said as she recalled the sequence of colors. He had been angry when speaking of murders, which meant he knew what she meant, if not in the way that she understood it. The sorrow, that was when she was speculating upon his past – or lack of it. His words proved that he felt sadness over it, a usable emotion indeed. A purple shifted into his aura as he spoke the last words, or she assumed it was bitterness based upon what he had said. She sighed and let her Djed dissipate and flow back into her – her energy reserves far more diminished than normal. She did not want to risk overgiving, she could not handle that embarrassment today.
“So others do not have to live through it? Life is conflict dear Ximal, there is no avoiding it. You train well enough to withstand it but that does not mean you should act as a shield for every bastard in the world” she cautioned him gently, taking a larger gulp to finish her cup of alcohol before refilling it and sipping a few more times. She would need the restorative effects as she could feel the chill of exhaustion creeping into her limbs after her auristic dabbling.
“Not knowing one’s past can be a blessing, after a fashion. Some things are best not remembered if you want my opinion, which I doubt” she told him, her gaze shifting to her right in slight discomfort.
Oh how I wish I could forget some of the things I have been through she told herself as she bit the inside of her lip in thought.
“Killing has little point if there is no focus to it either, and it often brings unwanted attention. I fear for you Ximal if you truly feel the way you speak. I’d like to think it is an act but I suspect it is not entirely so,” she continued, seeking to persuade out the smaller details that were often so important, “I have survived because I try not to leave dozens of bodies in my wake. Or by choosing targets that will never be missed enough for vengeance” she told him, her gaze pinning his again and attempting to read the depths of his azure blue eyes.
She could not help but laugh as she considered his last point, though it was partially calculated to see if she could goad the subtext of his thought from the tip of his tongue. He was an interesting specimen of fractious existence, that much she was sure of. She had gained a few answers in their exchange so far – enough to begin slotting piece of him into place in her mind from her own garnered information. He was a self-styled warrior who claimed to fight for the common good, but ultimately sought personal gratification like most other humans. He remembered nothing of his past he stated but she thought that to be a lie. He could remember if he chose, he just chose not to – perhaps it was too painful to recall without self-destruction. He had been a slave and that was reason enough she supposed, though there was probably more to the tale. He was reserved to the point where he secluded himself and she had never heard tell of him opening a woman’s legs, or a man’s for that matter.
An interesting specimen indeed. Lets us see if there is another layer beneath the surface she reaffirmed to herself.
“Very well then, I am not averse to revealing some of my secrets in exchange for truthful answers from yourself. A new bargain would be that you ask me about my past and I ask you about…you” she smiled at him disarmingly, wondering if he was being intentionally evasive. That, in itself, would be worth learning for the future.
“Or, I could get us some pretty young ladies and we could drink and sleep our way into oblivion. You certainly need some release my dear, if what I hear is true enough. Or…would you prefer me to find you a boy?” she asked him, leaning forwards slightly with an eyebrow raised.
“Or…we could exchange tales of our exploits upon anything of our choosing?” she offered with a small shrug before finishing her second cup and filling it once more, draining the pitcher they had dry.
Either way I learn something new and useful. Your move in this social game of stones my dear she smiled at herself internally, teeth large and bared.