She was okay. The question hadn't been taken badly. Lexa wondered what it would be like to have such a big, encouraging family. The only family Lexa had ever loved were her mother and the youngest of the three elder brothers, Hamish. She hadn't had anyone who was protective of her other than her mother. Lexa felt stabs of pain in her chest as these thoughts of just how protective her mother had been to give her life-. Stop. You are upsetting yourself. it isn't fair to Lenell especially if you are unwilling to tell her Finding it hard to make friends was something Lexa could relate to. They would stop long enough in places for her to achieve a friendship, but she was such a rough kid. She was viewed as scary. People stayed away from her. She didn't know any different, and had no idea what she was doing wrong at the time. She had punched a kid full in the nose, expecting that was what he meant by 'play' and that he would spar with her, and he had told all of his friends she was a freak. She fogets where this was exactly. "I didn't have many friends either." Lexa said "That was the downside of never staying in one place." She looked at Lenell "I think that's why I have been here so long even though I am so used to moving about." This was true. She had stayed here in hope of making more friends and becoming more sociable. It was hard to let her past for, it really was, and it still constantly played across her mind, but she had to move forward in her life and quit looking back so much. There was a pause and then Lexa heard Lenell ask for her age. "I'm seventeen." Lexa said "I feel older than that though." She added quietly. She finished blocking in the sea and began mixing darker colours and foamy blue-white colours for froth as the waves crashed and rose up again surrounding the eye. She would try to blend the darker blue's in slowly so as not to create too stark of a difference. It didn't really go well at first, but as she blended, eventually the transition began to look somewhat acceptable. |