The last time they had spoke, they fought. Fought, actually might not be the best word to explain what happened. He blew up on her, he pointed fingers, threw in her face everything she did to him, how she used him, abused him, neglected him, lied to him. He called her things, "lying bitch" and "selfish whore" were among them, and only a small portion of his extensive harsh vocabulary. And now, here he was, standing in her home. He had outlived her, it was to be expected for a very long time. She had been sick since she was young, cancer. It was outstanding she survived as long as she did, but that didn't make her an angel. On the contrary, she made Victor go through hell.
Now, Victor stalked through the empty house. It was clean, one of her few redeeming qualities. The windows and countertops had accumulated dust, something she would never had allowed if she wasn't confined to her bed, and eventually stopped breathing. Unconsciously, Victor ran his index finger across the surface of an end table, tracing a semicircle next to the base of an old lamp, probably an heirloom of her mother's. Victor gave the den a final glance over before moving on into the next room. He should have left, but his nostalgia was pushing him onward.
The bathroom. It was fairly well-sized for a smaller sized home. And this room had its fair share of memories. He remembered when they were just barely twenty-one, both of them, they had a night out on the town, came home beyond drunk, and found love in this very room. It was wild, passionate, and short-lived. Victor stepped awkwardly around the tiled room, as if to avoid the very place where they had wrestled that night, like he was preserving the memory physically. Reaching over the sink, he turned the knob. No water came. Goosebumps infected his skin.
Moving away from the watercloset and across the hallway led him to a bedroom. Her bedroom. It had always been hers as long as he could remember. Even after her mother passed away, she kept the same room she grew up in, turning her mother's into a guest room. Victor was hesitant, hand resting on that brass doorknob. He had an eerie thought. 'What if she's in here, and I just barge in on her?' Impossible, her funeral was three days ago. But it was a spooky feeling.
The door squealed as it slowly opened. He poked his head in to find the room barren. He sighed softly. That was good. He wasn't sure how he would act if something strange was here. He stepped in timidly and began to look the room over. This was the room the two of them got in a fistfight at the age of sixteen. Her mother was tough for an older woman because she charged in there in a matter of seconds and threw Victor out of their house with such ease that he swears to this day he got whiplash. Now though, he couldn't even remember what it was they were so fired up about. It was probably some backstabbing thing she did. She had a talent for doing things that broke Victor's trust.
He sighed as he turned. He should go, Vanessa would be wondering where he was pretty soon. He moved towards the door only to be stopped in his tracks. Something was under his foot. Bending over, he snagged the object off the floor. It was a small yellow bouncing ball with a crudely simple smiley face staring at him. Victor stared at the toy for a long time before dropping to his knees. His best friend was gone. His true love was gone. His oldest and dearest and closest friend was gone. The last time they had spoken, he had released years worth of rage over their childhood on her, and she just took it with a lowered head and silence. That wasn't like her. But he understood it all now. She just wanted to fix everything that she had done, everything that Victor did to her. And all he wanted to do was stay mad, stay blind.
Never had he cried so hard in all his life, clenching that tiny rubber toy to his chest. That toy itself held so many memories, and not a single one was bad. It was the last piece of her that he had now. |