Fall 62 The dire leopard walked through the forest, trying to get used to the weight on her back. The companions were trying to make their way towards Zeltiva as fast as they possibly could. The reasons were unknown to Nidae, but then, many things were. She simply followed her adventurous companion, Nehsmay, on the Vantha's travels throughout the world. The first stop had been Syliras, and to Nidae, the stay at that city had been both terrible and wonderful. She hoped Zeltiva would have more in the way of 'wonderful', and she wasn't looking forwards to the idea of walls again. Then again, the world as she knew it had changed, for the better. The Kelvic part of her wasn't lonely now, didn't crave the other half of her: a Bondmate. The only really good part of their stay in Syliras, in Nidassasyae's opinion, was how she had bonded to Seliarus. It was her bondmate's weight that she was trying to get used to, though he wasn't heavy, not in comparison to her leopard form, it was still very odd. Snow Leopards were not beasts of burden, they did not have people riding about on their backs like horses. Yet here she was, outfitted with a saddle that had been modified to fit her form, carrying a Dhani man on her back. Over the past ten days, she had been wondering how to tell Nehsmay about the Bond. Every time she tried to start, she couldn't figure out what to say. It wasn't that she was embarrassed, Nidae was fiercely proud and defensive of Seliarus. It was that Nidae simply had no idea of how Nehsmay would react. The gentle Vantha had been like an older sister to her, yet Nidae knew so little about her. Sure, she knew that if she ate a human, Nehs would probably be upset. If she skinned and gutted an animal in front of Nehsmay, the Vantha would probably be sick. These reactions were easy, she had learned them while the traveled here. But it was other reactions that Nidae had no idea about, things to do with more abstract ideas, rather than blood and hunting. Surely Nehsmay had noticed the way the Dhani and Kelvic acted around each other, as though a thin thread bound the two together, that made them gravitate towards each other. It would have been a petching hard thing to miss. Though Nehsmay probably already suspected what was going on, Nidae simply had no idea how to tell her. Nehsmay... Sel and I...- Nehs, in Syliras I started to feel...- What do you think about Bonding?- Nidassasyae curled her lips, exposing long and sharp fangs. It was too hard, all these conversation starters were terrible! How in the Gods' names was she supposed to tell her best friend this? It should be simple, easy. Nidae had seen human girls in Syliras jump up and down and hug each other with delight when there was good news. Was this what was supposed to happen? Did females always react like this to good news? Would Nehsmay? Nidae feared that Nehsmay wouldn't approve, that the Vantha would see the Bond between a Viper and Leopard as disgusting, frightening, perhaps an abomination? Deep down, she knew that Nehsmay wouldn't think such things, that her Vantha friend cared deeply for both she and Sel, and didn't think badly of either of them. But fear does odd things to the mind, and Nidae simply couldn't ignore the knot of fear in her gut. "No," she growled to herself aloud, in the feline tongue. Surely Sel would sense the frustration and fear through the Bond, but at that moment, Nidae simply didn't care. She was a Talderan Snow Leopard, for Morwen's sake! Leopards did not show their fear, they stood strong against the howling winds of the North, they fought the bears on the ice, they survived! Would it not have alarmed her companions, she would have roared to the trees, venting her anger. Nidae would tell Nehsmay about the Bond tonight, when they settled down to sleep. She would be in her human form then, able to communicate to Nehsmay what she had so long put off. No longer would she wait, she'd put this off for far too long. With a new determination to her step, the Leopard continued walking forwards, proudly stepping towards the unknown. |