The change had caught him so far off guard that he felt he wasn't even sure who she was, what were her motives. She claimed she wanted to help him, but something didn't seem logical with provoking his temper like this. It was as if she was masochistic now. But he knew better than that. She had a method that he couldn't decode, perhaps if he had been a spectator rather than the test subject it would be different. But he was too upset, shaken to think straight. His eyes closed as her hand chased away that lone tear falling down his cheek, he exhaled a quick deep breath. He nodded slowly, slowly as she spoke of dispelling his grief, his anger, his anguish, to cast it away in any way imaginable. He wasn't sure how, not yet, but he would find something. Something that was neither dangerous for her, nor anyone else. He was better than to do something so careless to another, a friend. "I'll find something to get rid of this. But no, I don't want this, I never have." Eldon glanced at her arm, she was rubbing it vigorously trying to force the pain away, and he felt his heart sink into his stomach. He was hurting her now, given she was provoking this. He would have a hard time allowing himself to forget this now. Eldon just stared, the color was already there, already a bruise was there, but what he did, though wasn't aware of his actions until now that it was visible, made him feel sick, guilty, villainous. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean-" Eldon jumped lightly as her cool hands crawls around his body, resting on his body. He jumped, as if her touch had already become odd, cold, unfamiliar. It was different. Her forehead also rested against his bare chest. He even felt his own lower, resting on the top of her head. He inhaled slowly, taking in the scent that lingered in her hair, the smell of Arabella. It calmed him, soothed him, embraced him just as her arms grasped his body. He lifted his hands to her shoulders, now clothed where they weren't earlier. His hands tightened on the fabric, slowly clenching and unclenching. His nose nuzzled through her hair, gently caressing her scalp, whispering softly to her. [color=tan]"I will let it go. Please be patient with me. I will bury the past." Eldon winced as he felt the cool moist tears fall onto his naked chest. She was crying, either for him, or for them. Eldon continued to just hold her there, he didn't want to let go, he didn't want her to ever return to the Starweaver Pavilion. No, she could stay here. He survived well, earned well, he could support the two of them with ease. Would such an image really be impossible to achieve? No, it wasn't. If you want it, claim it. She said so herself, but there had to be some discipline. Some moderation. Eldon gasped the hair for a moment. "I am happy to be here, in your arms. Forgive me for my weaknesses, my angers, my sorrows. I know they'll return, but I beg for your patience, and I will bury them." |