509 A.V. -- Winter, The 14th day
Above his tent, the wind whistled through its perpetual dance, and Eshatoh listened to it idly as his mind roved across the events of the day. It was a well-worn routine, something he had developed years ago to try to keep thoughts of his parents at bay. It didn’t work, but he persevered in it anyways. Not a few times, he had discovered implications that would have completely escaped him without this time of reflection.
The first hour or so of the day had been spent in packing up. It wouldn’t have even taken that long if Nauri and his wife could only learn to control their child. Hopefully the Wahali would talk to them about it tomorrow. The tribe couldn't afford to let one family hold back everybody else.
The rest of the day had, of course, been spent in traveling towards the next oasis. It was towards this that Eshatoh's thoughts drifted. Their route this year had differed from previous years significantly, and he was doing his best to memorize every inch of the terrain. With the seemingly endless monotony of the desert, it was no easy task.
At least he was free to roam where he would. Not one of the forward scouts today, Eshatoh had had no further duties than hunting and reporting any irregular activities if he happened to see something. A few hours before dinner, he had spotted a Benshiran tent, allowing the Suli to take a break from their forced march. Needless to say, many Chaktawe had thanked him quite profusely.
The Chaktawe had stopped their wanderings for the day in order to share news and food with the Benshira as was often the custom. For the rest of the evening a festive atmosphere pervaded the entire camp. As a people, the Benshira were undeniably more disposed towards enjoying music and dancing, and thus were better at both, but this isn't to say that the Chaktawe had merely stood aside and watched. If anything this made the Chaktawe throw themselves into the evening with all the more reckless abandon, for they knew that after tonight this would end and they would need to return to solemnly struggling to survive.
The Wayhali and other leading leading Chaktawe, meanwhile, were in earnest discussion with the leading men of the Benshira Tent. Eshatoh had drifted between the two worlds, drawn alternately to the joy of the music and beauty of the Benshira girls and then back to the heavy matters of dealing with Eypharians and trades the tribe needed to make for survival. In either setting he was welcomed, though not included in the discussions. He was relegated to watching and listening along with the other men not yet of sufficient standing to speak.
Those tidbits of information he had picked up both from simple gossip amid the music and the talk of the leaders, he now processed. It all confirmed what he already knew: Things were hard in the desert but not insurmountably so. The Benshira and Chaktawe would keep on living because they must.
But there were some who weren’t still living. Inevitably, Eshatoh’s mind began traitorously reminiscing about his parents. He remembered the gentle brushing of lips against his brow as he drifted off to sleep. The seemingly random times his parents would both burst out laughing simultaneously. Annoying and inexplicable at the time, it now seemed nothing but endearing. Even the nights when his parents had forced him to sleep outside he now regarded with a deep sense of loss.
Sighing, Eshatoh rolled out of his bedroll and wrapped his cloak around himself. It was going to be one of those nights; he could already tell. So he gave in to the compulsion he knew he wouldn’t be able to resist in the end and picked up his father’s bone flute. Then, he quietly slipped out of his tent and into the shadows, moving efficiently and silently towards the edge of the combined encampment. Along the way, he began practicing the fingerings for the songs he would play. His eyes stayed dry.