on the morning of the 21st day of spring in the year of 511 AV . . . . . . Estrellita was not aware of much during the first seconds of her existence. Which was forgivable, when one was placed in her situation. And, in this case, one being placed in Estrellita's situation would involve said person "falling" into an entirely new world. In such a situation, unawareness and confusion are perfectly acceptable, and Estrellita was not to be exempt from the fact. The only thing that Estrellita was actually conscious of was the light from Syna herself. This didn't alarm Estrellita, though. She was grateful for the light; it seemed more loving and gentle as opposed to bright and intrusive. The rest of it was all a blur. She felt a rushing around her body but could not define where it was coming from. Sensations sped past her, all of them felt but none of them realized. It was only the wonderful sunlight that she felt on her face that was constant. That was the only thing she realized. A smile spread across Estrellita's features as the light pervaded her thoughts. Unconsciously, her body stretched itself out and her hands spread themselves apart, as though she would be able to catch the sunlight in her fingertips. So relaxing was the warmth against her body that Estrellita actually forgot about the overwhelming feeling of falling. The sensations went away, so that only the sunlight remained. She tilted her head to face the direction of the sun's rays as its warming caress still spread through her legs and arms, sending shivers of heat arching through her spine. Estrellita stopped blinking, stopped moving entirely. All was forgotten. All but the sun. At least, all was forgotten until her body suddenly was overwhelmed by a sensation other than sunlight. She was suddenly enveloped into a denser substance that seemed to flow around her, surrounding her and consuming her. Almost instantly, the sunlight's warmth went away, leaving a surprising coolness about her skin. Estrellita tried to take a breath, but raw instinct stopped her. Her brow furrowed, and she tried once more to breathe but once more found her lungs locked. Imaginary wheels turned in her mind as she struggled to find an explanation, and then suddenly there it was. Water, she realized. I am underwater. And then she was thrashing, thrashing for the surface, thrashing as she tried to remember how to swim. New muscles yet unaccustomed to any action protested the unfamiliar movements, and for a few terrifying seconds, Estrellita feared that she would remain trapped underwater only to drown, for she could not remember how to swim. She could not even remember how she had gotten underwater in the first place. There had been nothing, then that sensation of falling, and now this. Her body went limp as her mind struggled to figure out what had happened, but then her feet brushed against a solid, albeit soft, surface. Thoughts of how and when and why flew out of Estrellita's head at the feel of solid ground. Her toes immediately found purchase on its surface, and with one powerful kick, Estrellita's form surged upwards, only to burst forth into the light of the day. Her hair was thrown back in the resulting splash from her ascent, arching over her shoulders in a spray of golden curls and silver droplets of water, both of which caught the sunlight and seemed to sparkle with thousands of iridescent lights. Estrellita's head lifted up towards the sun as she drew in a deep breath of sweet air, filling her lungs and then exhaling to repeat the process. Her hands flailed in the water, trying to keep her form afloat. Natural buoyancy and this action helped keep Estrellita's head and shoulders above the surface of the water, allowing her to safely open her forget-me-not blue eyes so that she could look out into her surroundings. And look she did, filling up her eyes with the sight. Her first impression was a vast horizon of blue, blue that glimmered with the reflected sunlight, blue that told of an ocean too vast to even begin to comprehend for one so new to the world. During these few seconds of open staring, Estrellita forgot to move her arms, and once again went under the surface of the water. She came up thrashing soon after and began to turn her head this way and that, looking for shore. She didn't get far with the looking, though, for as she turned, she noticed for the first time how her porcelain skin seemed to shimmer like the water in the sunlight, casting incandescent sparkles around her form. She was momentarily caught up in her own beauty, and she let out a sigh of wonder. That sigh quickly turned into a gasp, because under her close scrutiny, the sparkling of her skin seemed to recede and then fade altogether, leaving her with smooth, flawless, and unchanging skin color instead. Upset at the absence of the sparklies, Estrellita pursed her lips in annoyance and then began to splash about once more, hoping that her movements would in fact bring the sparklies back. All she succeeded in doing, however, was drenching herself profusely with water droplets which, while they did catch the sunlight's reflection in a most becoming way, could not compare to the sparklies. After a few more tries and a few more drenchings, the petite female let out an irritated noise and began to steadily and slowly and clumsily make her way to shore, or what she thought was the shore. At least, she began to make her way to the shore until she caught sight of a flash of silver from the waters just to her right. She inclined her head to look in that direction, curiosity lighting up her dusky blue eyes. There was definitely something floating just under the water's surface near her, but she couldn't make out what it was. Furrowing one brow, Estrellita managed to flail and thrash her way over to the object, stretching out a hand through the water to touch its surface. The feel she encountered was somehow familiar, and Estrellita's hand instinctively tightened around the item. With one motion, she pulled it upwards to the surface, spattering her face and shoulders with water as she did so. Inquisitive eyes peered down at the object in her hands, only to widen in recognition. It was her lyre. Snippets of memory flooded back to her as she treaded water with the lyre awkwardly clasped in one hand, snippets of a time on this world in a different body. Her past life, she realized after a few seconds. The life in which she had only resided for a short time before passing on. This lyre was from that life. This lyre was made by the people who had cared about her and her voice in that life. This lyre was undeniably and unmistakably precious. Estrellita's fingers tightened around its form as she pulled it close to her; leaving it was not an option, no matter how burdensome it may be at the moment. She slung one arm through the lyre so that she would have a secure hold on it and then began to focus her attention on what she had been doing before she found her lyre: getting out of this water. She was sick of splashing around and probably looking like an absolute fool; Estrellita wanted dry land. And so, she returned to thrashing for the shore. The process of learning to swim again was arduous, and more than once Estrellita slipped under the surface, took a panicked breath, and then came up coughing and sputtering. Occasionally, Estrellita would look up to see where she was in correlation to the shore, but each time she found that she was making minimal progress. Even though this was quite discouraging, she persevered, gritting her teeth and continuing to labor as best she could through the water. She really wasn't cut out for swimming; the sooner she got out of this water, the better. Her lyre wasn't much of a help, either. It bobbed against her side in a most annoying fashion, whacking at her delicate frame with each sudden, jerky motion she made. Still, the emotional attachment she had to it--one that she remembered even in this rebirth--was stronger than the discomfort; she refused to leave it behind. It was all she had from her past life. As Estrellita's body became accustomed to the mechanical motions needed to get her to shore, her mind began to drift over the dilemma about how she'd come here. She'd been in her realm, Ukalas. She'd been serving her goddess Syna as best she could, and then suddenly she'd fallen here. Back to Mizahar. Why? Estrellita couldn't remember upsetting Syna in any way; she hadn't done anything to deserve this. Why had she suddenly been taken from her life in Ukalas just when she'd been getting comfortable, only to be tossed down into an entirely new path? It didn't make any sense, and it certainly wasn't a thing Estrellita wanted. Her past life on Mizahar had been painfully short, and now her stay in Ukalas was cut short as well? A deep, stabbing pain for what she'd lost ripped through her, causing her to lose her momentum in the water. Off-balance and suddenly vulnerable, Estrellita's arms froze up, and she began to sink. She closed her eyes and sucked in a deep breath, preparing to be submersed in water, but instead her feet lightly touched the water's bottom. She'd swam far enough so that now she could stand in water. Which was good. That meant no more swimming. Regaining her balance, Estrellita began to walk methodically for the shore, though she wasn't looking at it. Instead, her eyes were cast up into the sky towards the sun. Her expression was a mask of confusion and despair as she came to terms with the new losses she was suddenly confronted with. She couldn't think of a reason for this descent, no matter how hard she tried. Perhaps it was purely accidental; perhaps Syna let her fall for a reason. Estrellita squinted up at the sun, silently praying for an answer to an unasked question. None came, of course, and with a sigh, Estrellita lowered her gaze to the water, watching her feet move as she slowly glided towards the shore. Estrellita trusted Syna. She trusted her goddess. This much was certain. And so it seemed only fair that she would also trust her goddess's decision to send her...here, even if here was the last place she wanted to be. Inhaling a deep breath, Estrellita closed her eyes, reaching deep within herself to find the trust that this situation required. What was it that the Vantha had always taught her? Life was something to be valued; life was a blessing, that was it. Estrellita opened her eyes, a new light of understanding dancing among her irises. Syna had blessed her with this chance at life, for whatever reason. She'd better not waste it. |