Completed Day Stroll [59th of Fall, 512AV]

[Samantha Grenth]

Andrate seemed lost in thought but she replied,"It must be incredible to keep a mind so clear and set on what you wish it to be set on."

Samantha chufled,"It does seem that way doesn't it? But as much as it seems it's not really so. As an animal first my mind is always straying where I don't want it too. My prey, a place too slumber, dangers, possible mates, and the list goes on. I would like it to be set on things like my next job, or being able to communicate with people. As a predator my mind decides against me. An example is I would like to shift and just tackle you. But it's taking a lot of will power to focus on conversation."

"Why do you think you can't have a clear mind and not have it on what you wish it to be set on? You really just need to work on willpower. When I was four I wouldn't even be able to sit hear and comune with you without jumping you. And in a friendly way not the ,'I'm going to eat you way.' Samantha set down her almost empty glass and smiled.

[Andraste]

This amused Andraste no end. "Jump on me you say." she laughed, a laugh of twinkling starlets. "I'm afraid if you were to jump on me you would break me." she laughed so merrily. But there was a part of her that wondered how it would feel to embrace a tiger. To feel soft fur against her cheek.

She had almost missed the other question completely. "Why do you think you can't have a clear mind and not have it on what you wish it to be set on?" was the question. And a hard question indeed. It was something which Andraste didn't like to admit to her self very often in fear that the very acceptance meant she was giving up. She had worked so hard to combat her mind disease and nothing seemed to be working.

She sighed deeply. "I..." she began before realising she didn't quite know how to finish. "I have periods where I cannot focus on anything else but sadness. I't quite pathetic really. Like I'm a completely different person."

OOC-basicly she's bipolar ^_^

[Samantha Grenth]

Andraste sighed deeply. "I..." she paused,"I have periods where I cannot focus on anything else but sadness. I't quite pathetic really. Like I'm a completely different person."

Samantha stared at Andraste trying to figure out what she was talking about. Did this woman have a human females 'period', "So you're saying you have a human females reproductive system? Or is this mental? I don't quite understand."

Samantha looked at her wine glass and sighed, she didn't want it to warm up and was tired of drinking it like she usually did. Picking it up she downed the last of it and grimaced. It tasted like vinegar running down her throat. Setting it down she reached into her vest for her coin, " I don't find it pathetic either way. You live a life that you only have little control over. But it helps if you try to find a way to cope with things. And that doesn't include harmful things like alcohol or self harm."

[Andraste]

Andraste was also finished wit her food and wine now. And she blushed a little at Samantha's words. it wasn't often that someone spoke to her so carelessly and honestly. It was indeed a wondrous feeling; to be without boundaries of social standard.

"Well that too." she admitted. "But it's more of a mental thing. It can reach me at any point and it feels like I'm literally dying in my head. It may sound strange. In fact I'm surprised it hasn't hit me yet."

[Samantha Grenth]

Samantha sorted out 10 gold coins, "You get the other seven. If you don't have all of it don't worry I still have 4 left on my person.The extra 2 are for tip." Samantha wipped her mouth with her hand and stood, "If you don't mind I would like to walk. With you of course." Samantha rushed.

"I would say that I have that affect on people but in all truth I do not. In fact I usually make people feel intimidated. But then again I don't make conversation, I avoid it at all costs. And tend to be very blunt and....rude to say the least." Samantha glanced at Andraste, "You happen to be the fifth person I have had this kind of conversation with." Samantha smiled kindly.

[Andraste]

"And for a moment there I felt special." Andraste replied jokingly, which was very apparent in her tone. She quickly produced the remainder of the money. To many it would seem very risqué, to carry all of one's money with them at all time. But Andraste did not enjoy leaving anything in the empty, depressing shell which was her homestead. "I suppose it's because you tickle my curiosity so, that's why I'm not afraid of you. And I assure you, rudeness is nothing bad in this world of fake pleasantries. Sometimes I feel sickened by good manners with no substance to them, so your bluntness and honesty is a nice change. But I suppose a walk would do us good after such a good meal." she smiled before she stood up and straightened her back.

She didn't quite notice as the day progressed. Spending time with Samantha seemed to give her such pleasure that time seemed unimportant.

[Samantha Grenth]

"And for a moment there I felt special." Andraste replied jokingly. Samantha frowned, this woman was special yet she joked around like she wasn't. "I suppose it's because you tickle my curiosity so, that's why I'm not afraid of you. And I assure you, rudeness is nothing bad in this world of fake pleasantries. Sometimes I feel sickened by good manners with no substance to them, so your bluntness and honesty is a nice change. But I suppose a walk would do us good after such a good meal." she smiled before she stood up and straightened her back.

Still frowning Samantha walked with Andraste out this door,"You are very special. You are very special." Samantha corrected, "You said that being able to keep my head straight was a very incredible thing, but when I told you I didn't have so and described why you understood. Most people would think I was lying but go on with the conversation. But you didn't. Also you are the fifth person I have been able to hold a conversation with." Samantha was no longer frowning but looking at Andraste with new eyes.

"Oh dear Andraste you are so very special. You know the most special are the ones who are broken. I don't know if you can tell or if I have told you but I don't have a Master is Mistress and haven't found one. But today I think I could have come close, and that's mostly because I found someone I can talk with. I'm 6 years old and will probably only live to be 22 maybe less. Maybe 18. So almost half of my life I have felt lonely and mindless. Most felines would have died or given up by now. Heck most would have found a master by now. " Samantha felt exposed and a little guilty for bringing her desire onto her only newly found friend. Lowering her head she turned it away slightly not being able to meat Andraste eye's at the moment, "Sorry, it's just. I feel a connection to you whether or no you feel the same is different. And if I'm being too pushy I'm sorry."

Samantha needed a hug or reinsurance of any kind at the moment to help her believe that she was okay, she could be open like this. That maybe being a little open to people wouldn't be as bad as she has made it out to be over the years. Being strong with everything was tiring and Andraste made her feel like she didn't have to be strong or anything of the sorts. Andraste was the person who broke Samantha's barriers and only in a day. And to say the least Samantha was frighted.

[Andraste]

As they left the restaurant, there was a frown upon Samantha's face and Andraste was worried. Very worried indeed. Had she said something so awful and hurtful? After all she did have a habit doing so. But after a moment that frown was almost gone and the tigress spoke.

"That's pretty sweet coming from someone who told me to keep my distance before." she smirked cynically. She hadn't meant to do so,she realised that her cynicism was likely to push Samantha away. And perhaps for a moment she wanted to push her away, as she felt a wave of ill mood pass over her. But that was swept away the moment she looked into the Kelvic's eyes. There was a vulnerability to her which Andraste had never seen in anyone before.

Suddenly the strongest of feelings hit her straight in the chest, so that her heart ached from the sheer force. She grabbed Samantha's hand and pulled the tigress into a smaller, shaded alley where they could be completely alone, away from the hustle and bustle of a typical Zeltivian day. They they stood, face to face, Andraste refusing to let go of Samantha's hand. Squeezing it tightly she spoke. "You are very special too Samantha. And should I say that I don't feel that connection, I would be lying though my teeth. You are so kind and lovely... and you deserve a mistress a thousand times better than me." she said as softly as the could. Her voice saturated with sweetness and kindness. In the darkness of the alley, her skin seemed to glow and shimmer as if she was made of light.

[Samantha Grenth]

OOC: So I said Andraste was frightened when I meant Samantha. I corrected it, sorry bout that. Also I sent you a BC. (Better view in my SB)


Andraste replayed to Samantha with cynically and Samantha didn't blame her. But Samantha felt that her tiger was doing what it wanted, what it needed. When Samantha has spared a glance over to Andraste something in her seemed to snap.

Andraste grabbed Samantha's hand and pulled her into an alley. For once Samantha's tiger seemed at ease but still got riled up when Andraste skin started to glow and shimmer brighter.

"You are very special too Samantha. And should I say that I don't feel that connection, I would be lying though my teeth. You are so kind and lovely... and you deserve a mistress a thousand times better than me." she said as softly as the could.

Throughout the speech Samantha was shaking her head lightly, "You want to know a secret?" Taking a breath Samantha squeezed Andraste hand, "Kelvic's only ever have one Master. And we feel a pull to them and only them. My parent's told me every day how I would know. Even to this day when I visit my father does her tell me. He also tells me that I shouldn't be throwing my life away with all the violence. I have more blood on my hands than most think or even want to know."

"And as for a mistress a thousand times better. I don't think there is." Samantha smiled. Truly smiled. Glancing out the way they came she could see some of the city's illusionists starting up their magic. Turning back to Andraste an idea popped in her head, "So you spend most of your time drinking. Have you taken time to watch any of the illusionists?"

[Andraste]

"Kelvic's only ever have one Master. And we feel a pull to them and only them." she said and at that very moment Andraste was speechless. The look on her face was ghostly and her lips hang slightly ajar. "Even to this day when I visit my father does her tell me. He also tells me that I shouldn't be throwing my life away with all the violence. I have more blood on my hands than most think or even want to know."

So many thoughts raced though her head. And none of them concerned the blood on Samantha's hands. No. Instead she wanted to hold her in her arms and keep her protected from the world. And this protectiveness rose up inside her painfully... irritatingly. Samantha was a grown woman, she told her self, despite a part of her viewing the tigress as a fragile creature. It angered her to think that anyone could ever take advantage of her new friend, for it would be an unspeakable crime.

"So you spend most of your time drinking. Have you taken time to watch any of the illusionists?" asked Samantha before Andraste managed to make even a sound.

"Wel..." she began realising that for the time that she lived in Mizahar, he had never taken time to observe the magical city she lived in. "...not really."