Summer 14, 513 AV
Leila's Shop, Zeltiva
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Maggie Killory loved her work, unquestionably. It was valuable, fascinating, and she learned a great deal from her patients. When this was combined with her personal attachment to the issues she dealt with, her daily oblations to Rak'keli were overwhelmingly sincere: as hopeless as most of her cases in the asylum were, the doctor was truly grateful that they were, after all, hers to comfort and relieve.
And yet…
She was getting past the age for this. In a simple medical practice, perhaps, she mused, she would not feel like this, perhaps she could go on until the day she finally faded away. Work with the mad was different beast. It drained one. As much a pariah as her predilections made her, she did have her few friends in the general medical community. When Mistress Clara, after an evening of music, quietly asked Maggie's commiseration over a difficult case she had not been able to save, Maggie understood. She knew that feeling of hopelessness. But with Clara, there was someone to struggle with, and some close to her work - for if a patentors treatment failed, they went to Dira, and every healer knew that this was saed, but natural, that Dira was not cruel, simply working on a different logic. There was a closure there.
With a madman, it was different. If one's treatment was not working, the madmen seldom died - perhaps on the street, where they could not be kept from harming themselves, they would. But not here, not where the staff could care so meticulously care for each part of them - except the mind, where the sickness lie. And then, even if the flesh-sick of the mind was cured - rare enough - she was convinced, it was the heart sick that gave them true suffering. And hearts were cured by time, and hope, and love. She was a doctor with far too many patients. She had little enough of any of the three. So, when the treatment failed, the doctor mourned, came back the next day, failed again as painfully as the first time, over and over, for in madness, there was nog God to resolve the sickness. Madness had no resolution, just a point in which the raw materials to tell the story disappear.
So, despite the coming heat of summer - and she did, truly, hate the heat - the chance of a day out was an unimaginable blessing. This day was an unexpected one. The summer had brought a new herbalist to the city, one who sold materials as well as services. The trustees of the asylum had agreed, with the exceptional constraints of the asylum's budget, that it was best that they see if there was an opportunity to save any money working with the new woman. Aside from this, quietly and to herself, Maggie hoped that perhaps this new herbalist might be more interested in the well-being of the patients of the asylum - the madmen were widely viewed as worse than criminals - criminals, after all, at least usually had some reasonable justification for their crimes, as faulty as it might be. Madmen were 'monsters.' By and large, she'd given up fighting that battle, but she continued to hope she could find colleagues to work with who might be able to offer a more compassionate copractice to her patients.
"Leila's Soothing Salves." She couldn't say much for the name. IT sounded a bit like a snake oil salesman, but if it were, she felt sure the woman would have been mentioned as such to her by someone, by this point. And as little as she knew the herbalist's work, she felt fairly sure she could spot a charlatan, if that's what this woman turned out to be. The shop was pretty enough. She wished she'd been free to come to the potluck she'd heard so much about - she hadn't felt fully fed since… probably Kenabelle Wright Day. Maybe her husband would split a Flower-fish this year on Tribute Day. He had grown more distant these last few years - her own fault, she knew, for she was so tired these days when she arrived home.
She opened the door, then, and stopped inside, with the mild discomfort of one entering on a new place.